I Just Really Love Strangers Who Smile So Brightly At You For No Actual Reason

i'm both dumber and smarter than you think so don't underestimate me because i'm actually smart about a lot of stuff but also don't be surprised if i'm dumb about some other stuff hope that helps

- the perks of being a wallflower

- 13 reasons why

writing is just reverse Pictionary. put a little picture from your brain into another brain. no drawing allowed

October has been still, quiet and just the same each day almost like being stuck in a groundhog day; and yet very quick and headlong. There have been days where it got very difficult, the wait and the delays can be painful and gruelling. All one can do is keep going. Consuming fiction has been helpful. Though I don't have much thought to add, I wish I did. But I don't. It's like I am blank, and just floating through time, like a dandelion, waiting to land and then grow into a whole new plant. We can always lean on the art we consume for support, Frankenstein has been the perfect start to this Autumn season. Victor Frankenstein's ambitions and intellect, curiosity and immersion take us on a journey about obsessions and regrets and how we should refrain from playing God, the monster's innocent, child-like curiosity about the world and its people was a treat, and its transition into anger and vengeance, and lost innocence was just as tragic, all he wanted was to be loved and accepted. The true villain of the story was fallible human obsession with glory, that led to such wretched state of affairs. Jo March will never not be my comfort character. Her struggles and journey as someone who wants a thing of her own and be good at it, and make something out of it; the difficult emotions she faces as an older sibling who can't escape situations like a younger sibling has the privilege to; her periods of quiescence where she had to put her passions on hold and felt stuck, and questioned everything, or thought to almost give up, and therefore give in for the need of love to the wrong person will always, always resonate with me. And Suzume, Ah! Just watched it today and loved, loved it. Ending this entry with a quote from Suzume, as a note to myself because God knows how much I needed to hear it today. 16-year-old Suzume meets her younger 4-year-old self and tells her,

‘How do I say this, listen Suzume. No matter how sad you are right now, one day you'll grow up. So, don't worry. The future is not that scary. You’ll meet many people whom you will cherish, and you will meet many people who will cherish you, too. It might be tough moving forward. The night may seem endless right now, but one day morning will come. You will grow up basking in that light. I'm sure of it. It's written in the stars.’

You will grow up basking in that light.

(God willing)

the urge to roam around europe reading books and trying to find myself

being kissed in your sleep and being pulled closer within cuddles is such a top tier form of affection

gentle reminder: you are very capable and I’m excited for your future

slightly less gentle reminder: you do have to work for it

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Tips for living alone for the first time

I moved out a year ago and thought it'd be cool to share what I've learned so you don't have to suffer as much :,)

Decide a day to sit down and pay all bills and everyone

Know and accept you won't get your initial budget right, it took me a year

Google is your friend, but people are better.

Especially when looking for cheap markets and places to eat, or safe streets to walk around, people know more than google.

4. Speaking of cheap markets... get those (free) memberships for discounts. But most importantly, dowload and check every supermarket app and search for the cheapest one.

5. When looking for a place to live, try to speak with people who live there and check google maps reviews and your countrys site for custumers complaints.

6. You likely don't need to clean as often as your family told you, but cleaning your place will make you feel better. And you gotta clean the fridge. And hair. So much hair.

7. If you don't have a fridge, just a small cooler, check if the building has a common fridge/kitchen and Don't. Be. Shy to use it please.

I recommend not moving into a place without a fridge if you don't plan on eating out or going to the market every two days.

8. Carry your documents with you, or write them down or make a copy. I recommend not carrying the original since if you lose it/get mugged it's a pain in the ass to get it fixed.

9. Cook as much as you can in one go, but don't overwhelm yourself. Get those washed vegetables and cut onions, do what you need so you don't end up exhausted and crying on the floor... not that I've ever done that myself...

10. It's gonna feel hard at times and that's ok! The freedom is worth it, and after a year I'm really happy with all the progress I've made

11. Avoid pets, especially in a scenario that you're moving around or in a small studio or with financial difficulties (this can change from ppl to ppl etc)

12. Join or make a chat group with everyone in the building, without the sindicate so y'all can be honest about complains and create a single, solid complaint before showing it to the sindicate. (apartment manager? syndic? assignee? idk, whoever fixes things)

That's all I can remember for now, feel free to ad or correct me if you like :)

i think one of the sweetest part of loving someone, is having their wellness prioritised as if it were your own. it's becomes natural to share whatever goodness you have or do, with them. like "oh!! this chocolate is so good! I'm going to save a piece for her!" or instinctively saying their name in every prayer you make. instead of thinking or doing good for only yourself, you do it for them too. love merge people in such a way, that they become not only a part of our life but an extension of us.