One of the saddest, hardest moments of your life will be when you are crying and screaming to the world pleading for a sign.
A sign that you should stay alive for one more day, maybe a couple of days.
But that sign doesn’ t come. You stare at your phone thinking maybe someone will answer or someone will text you asking if you’re okay. You search endlessly for some reason to stay alive but you can’t find any.
That is probably the most heartbreaking moment when you can’t find any reason to stay alive when you need it most because you suddenly feel all this pain and you feel more alone than you’ve ever felt in your entire life.
That moment will break you and I don’t wish it on even my worst enemies.
I'm literally in an abusive relationship with myself, I constantly belittle myself, and put myself in situations intentionally to be harmed.
People with BPD are related to patients with 3rd degree burns over 90% of their body. They have no emotional skin, so to speak. Even the slightest touch/movement can cause immense suffering.
"erm that leaves scars" Thats the best part
Just saying
"if you are fully aware of yourself, why do you keep acting like that?" babe slapping self awareness on top of bpd only grants the ability to watch yourself self-destruct straight from the vip section thats all it does literally
unfortunately for the both of us, i really like you
Once I learn how to stop being me it’s over for y’all
therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults
TW: lots of dark and uncomfy topics but if you're here that's probably what you're looking for ... I hope that someday we can both find a way to be ok.... I don't care what that way is.... whatever finally brings peace 20 years old
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