Guess What I Just Watched!

Judas really put Friends to Enemies to Lovers on the map huh 😳

i always thought i might be bad now i’m sure that it’s true cause i think you’re so good and i’m nothing like you

look at you go i just adore you i wish that i knew what makes you think i’m so special

A comic redraw I did for mealz_on_wheelz_ on Instagram (w permission ofc!). Aizawa really is that little girl that dealt with a crush by writing ‘get out of my school’

For the apostate ask game:

3. Have you gotten emotional support from friends in deconverting/deconstructing? Would you like more support? Have you found any online?

7. Do you like angels or demons?

3. Yes, I have! As I realized I no longer believed I tried to reach out to people outside of my cult to reconnect. I was very surprised about how many people were happy to hang out again, and when I told them my situation were super supportive and understanding! It was so affirming when one of them told me how brave and proud of me they were for leaving. I also found out my closest friend in the cult was also questioning shortly before I formally left. Being able to maintain our friendship and be honest about our experiences has been so nice.

While I was still with my family and PIMO I really appreciated this blog as a way to vent and see others with similar experiences. Now that I'm out of immediate danger, I'm doing a lot of trauma work in therapy. I've got a lot to work on but I think I have sufficient support for now.

7. Oh 100%. Unfortunately Jehovah's Witnesses don't have as much artistic flair with their worship, but other's religious imagery was always seen as taboo. This makes it fun now lol. I'm also very into religious studies. I think the psychology and cultural parts of religion are fascinating now that I've spent so much time dissecting my old faith.

TW MENTION OF SUICIDE

Jehovah's Witnesses used to straight up say you "will not enter paradise" if you commit suicide, but there's a little more leeway on paper now. Sure they won't say "you'll never see your loved one again", but no elder would be caught dead helping you with the funeral. I know of man who was forced to give his own brother's talk/eulogy cause everyone else refused. It's disgusting.

Was anybody else taught that you automatically go to hell if you commit suicide because you aren't "enduring to the end" or is that another specific microcosm of racist, backwater Idaho mormons?

Part of Apple's new terms include "do not post incorrect things about religious texts" but even scholars of religious texts often disagree on the actual content or intent behind them. Apple has therefore declared itself the arbiter of the true word of God. 🤔

After everything with moving away, leaving the cult, graduating, making real friends, and being able to be openly queer... I still miss my parents so much

They treated me awful and still haven't really apologized. They're all sad I'm not in contact with them but have done nothing besides decide "I guess we should stop messaging since they asked us to". This is safer for me but God I want parents. The bond between parent and child and the security of having a guardian to rely on is a privilege ripped away from me.

I love my found family, but wish my biological ones were what I needed and deserved.

The internet has ruined me. Everytime I see "yt" I read it as 'white'. I could be looking at anything and I'm like "What did white people do this time!?" assuming it's about racism even if there is a YouTube link right there. Why do people write it like that anyway??

Im happy this was my biggest post this year!

I want PIMOs here to know that there are "worldly people" kinder than you can imagine. Friends you'll gain that aren't conditional in their support. New experiences you never even considered, but that bring you immense joy. Parts of yourself that you'll find and can now let free.

Your life isn't over for waking up, it's about to begin.