After Everything With Moving Away, Leaving The Cult, Graduating, Making Real Friends, And Being Able

It's really crazy to realize that, in a way covid is the best thing that ever happened to me. To be clear, the pain and death caused by the pandemic is in no way worth the small gains it circumstantially brought me but that's why it's weird to think about.

I don't know when or if I ever would have recognized the parental and spiritual abuse I was dealing with, if the pandemic didn't make it more apparent and me less busy. I might not have been able to do my internship that led to my job offer because of the distance and my then lack of a license. I wouldn't have the funds I need to move out unless my internship was virtual and interest was paused on federal student debt. I might have been too scared to leave those I knew in the cult, but because of lack of in person events I was able to mostly distance myself.

Even now it can suck ass. I'm stuck with these abusers nearly 24/7 and can't see anyone who actually cares for me. I'm terrified about getting Covid and increasingly disgusted by the lack of government response. So knowing how all this awful stuff has helped me, and also other people in groups like this brings me a small comfort. It will never be a fair trade but it's something positive.

Hey folks, reminder that if you ever got suckered into a cult, it wasn't because there was anything wrong with you. You didn't sign up to be hurt. You didn't misinform yourself on purpose. You were taken advantage of by someone who exploited your vulnerabilities. Getting into a cult is like getting into any other abusive relationship - it's not the victim/survivor's fault.

the walking polar bear gif is already one of my favourite gifs so can you imagine the noise I made when I saw this version

I find it increasingly difficult to put effort into convincing people I'm still a believer.

It used to be a normal and subconscious process for me. You just say what you know you're supposed to and that's the way you will always be. It was casual survival. Now, I'm outgrowing this persona. I feel more and more like an individual who can actively have their own thoughts without guilt, and then having to turn around and restrict that hurts. I spend so much of my time having to listen to their drivel and act like I agree, despite the now obvious logical fallacies and bigotry.

I don't know how much longer I can even let the mask i show my family "be molded by Jehovah".

bitches really listing Stardew Valley down as one of their calming games when you’re supposed to play it like you’re gonna die every 11 minutes, like an entire operation with at least a dozen tabs open and the townie’s favorite gifts on a spreadsheet and each crops yield-to-time ratio ranked and memorized

come and get your gender here folks! assigned gender at uquiz! 

To all of the PIMOs out there:

STAY STRONG

GOOD THINGS ARE COMING

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU

I LOVE YOU

YOU GOT THIS

💖

For if I get a discord

my personal fav emojis I've done is now resized and transparent to be used as Discord emojis for your servers! no credit needed and editing is encouraged!