How To Put “wrote Fan-fiction” On Your Résumé:

Some of My Poetry

love letter to a supernova

remember when

we orbited each other like planets,

caught up in the gravity of our own innocence?

i could tell you that your eyes were like nebulas,

your heart as rapidly expanding as a galaxy,

your smile a streaking comet in a sea of darkness,

and all of it would be true

and yet not enough to describe you.

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because, darling, you were my universe.

i could never know every part of you

but that never stopped me from trying.

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yet the constellations are filled with tragedies,

and the stars within them mourn and die;

and when you ignited in a spray of self-destruction,

my heart collapsed in on itself.

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perhaps stars are never meant to love;

for one moment of brilliant, burning passion is not enough

to define all the dark days after.

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unwritten definitions

hollow. verb: to throw a stone and hear no echo; to feel nothing where something used to be; to carve out your own heart and offer it upon an altar of your own bones.

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gen z

i am a part of a generation that died before it lived.

even before we opened our eyes to stinging air

we knew our struggle would be our story.

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i am part of a generation that is accustomed

to things ending even as they begin,

innocence most of all.

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i am part of a generation that inherited

the problems of the past, yet was not raised 

with the full knowledge of the mantle it stood to shoulder.

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i am part of a generation that longs to be accepted,

and i am part of a generation that has accepted itself

because no one else will.

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i am part of a generation that demands change.

we refuse the heirlooms of ignorance our elders offer

because we will not trade truth for tired lies.

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and i am part of a generation that hopes to heal.

we will remember and memorialize

the tears and troubles of those who came before us,

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and we will come to terms with our own pain.

our hearts were made to burn brightly,

but left unchecked, they threaten ash.

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eulogy

content warning // implied police brutality, mentions of death

this is for the ones who should have lived.

this is for the ones whose deaths were what it took for people to turn their heads.

this is for the ones who never woke up from the nightmare others call the Dream.

this is for the ones whose names are mangled as badly as their bodies.

this is for the ones who did everything right.

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this is for the ones who survived.

this is for the ones who didn’t know they were saying goodbye for the last time.

this is for the ones who are still learning to speak in past tense.

this is for the ones who live in fear.

this is for the ones who are exhausted.

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this is for the ones who never find justice,

and for the ones who never stop trying.

taking off a mask to reveal what lies beneath as a romantic gesture is overdone, and besides i want to see the romantic or even platonic potential of protecting someone's identity beneath the mask, without any expectation of ever being allowed to see what's under it. picking it up and holding it gently to their face when it's knocked off and they're in danger of being exposed, without trying to catch a glimpse of what they "really" look like under there. throwing yourself in front of them to hide them from view while they put themselves back together without taking advantage or looking back to see what you're protecting. learning to read them by body language, tone of voice, and behaviour so well that you never need to see their face to feel like you know and understand them.

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one of my very favorite obscure story tropes is when there’s an episode/plotline/tabletop campaign session where the conceit is ‘each member of the gang gets trapped in a specially tailored dream/nightmare/illusory mindscape and has to break out’

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parts of a story as aesthetics-

characters: ivy creeping up a building wall, jasmine perfume, chipped nail polish, white satin pillows, laughing with your friends while walking down the block, that smirk when you figure out a secret, jeweled masks for masquerades, looking up to see the rain fall on you, earbuds falling out on the bus, listening to podcasts

plot: heated philosophical debates at midnight, poetry of different cultures, the bridge of every song forever on loop in your head, the fire in you that makes you crave, listening to lord huron, acoustic guitars, leather-bound diaries, analog clocks, that realizing moment when everything makes sense, flannel clothing

romance: pastel candy hearts, ruffled skirts, holding a warm hand in the middle of the night, soft hair, sunlight streaming through the curtains, reblogging fanart, oversized sweaters, calligraphy, listening to the songs your parents did, that pining look across the room, faux fur, pastel purple, bright eyes

development: plot twists, redemption, seeing the good in everyone, auto tuned voices, quoting the most obscure people of the century, pursed lips, bubblegum pink hair, dangling earrings, combat boots, starry skies, soft voices, mullets, tapping out songs, marbled countertops, falling out pom-poms

world-building: seeing more than what is in front of you, warm brown eyes, braiding your friend’s hair, replying to everything with finger guns, playing the piano, the smell of bread in the air, watercolors, hair in front of your eyes, craning your neck to look, the only raised hand in the room

“sorry i can’t talk right now i’m doing hot girl shit” (admiring the colors in autumn so bright just before they lose it all, leaving my scarf at your sister’s house, reminiscing the other day while having coffee all alone)

are you really lost if you don't want to return

Me: I'm going to be so productive today!

School, social media, and extracurriculars conspiring to screw up my life: HAHAHAHA oh wait you're serious-

writing a satisfying slow-burn romance

"There is such a gravity in your words that the entire world falls silent to your call" - excerpt from a book ill never write

We all slow-burn romances - but how do you write one so it isn't boring? or worse, one that doesn't feel completely satisfying when the characters *finally* come together. You don't get that feeling of happiness and relief when they do - so how do you prevent that?

#1. The common ground

What do they have in common? What really spurs on their chemistry? There should be something that binds them together, and shows the readers that oh yeah these two would be awesome together. Make use of 'opposites attract' or maybe they dislike each other at first, but bond over something in their past! They don't have to be very close very fast - but slowly, slowly, their chemistry should build up!

#2. Have a conflict that drives them apart, or pits them against each other

This is the part that we all secretly love - the angst. Your main plot should pull these two apart in some way; physically, emotionally, spiritually - however you want it. This adds the 'slow' element - since they're apart, we don't actively see them falling for each other. However far apart you pull them, keep giving your readers a glance at how their relationship will be possible someday. We love those crumbs - like one of them rushing to save the other when they're in danger, or patching up wounds.

#3. Show the cute moments

Show the two of them in a situation where they're awkward with each other - maybe they go ice-skating, and one of them is absolutely amazing at it and the other one keeps falling. These soft interactions and fluff are so KWJRGKJGE <33

#4. Make one of them hurt the other

Whether intentionally or unintentionally, one of them should hurt the other one. This creates a gap and a distance between them, further slowing down their romance. How they resolve it is up to you - maybe they forgive each other, or it's something they fight to solve together. It's absolutely painful, and will make the ending much more satisfying.

#5. Weave in symbolism

Make every interaction of theirs meaningful. Every moment should 'count' and add something to their relationship or character development. One of my favourite kinds of symbolism is when the characters having opposing colour schemes - red and blue, for example. It often adds to their relationship, and is something I personally love!

#6. Tie it all together

In the end, whether they get a happy ending or not, they should have a 'moment' (unless you're really cruel and want them separated without closure/j) where they finally admit to their feelings. It's the moment shippers will wait for - so make it count.