To The Guy Who Asked If I Could "see The Hat Man In The Corner" When I Told Him Im Schizophrenic, I Hope

You wanna know the reality of dissociative identity disorder?

Dissociative identity disorder (DID) is:

Crying, begging yourself that it's fake cause it's terrifying

Reliving trauma over and over again

No memory of childhood and often memory gaps depending on the system

Being told you need to "go back to church" or "get off the internet" or "get over it", etc.

Being dubbed "demonic", "crybaby", "attention whore", etc.

Being more likely to fall into/back into abuse

The 70 PERCENT SUICIDE RATE

Being unable to get diagnosed due to stigma

The stigma in general, paired with such heavy amounts of misinformation that it makes it hard to find accurate/up to date studies and research

Ableism and distrust from medical professionals

Being denied medical help because your deemed mentally unstable

Being compared to "those 'freaks' on TikTok"

Video's on top of video's making fun of people with DID and misunderstanding majority of the disorder

People romanticizing and making your disorder an aesthetic

Dealing with ableism and toxicity not only outside, but within the DID community

Getting fakeclaimed for not only the disorder but for the very trauma that caused it

Getting fakeclaimed for having a large headcount

Getting fakeclaimed for having a low headcount

Getting fakeclaimed for having introjects or non-human alters

Getting fakeclaimed for having young alters or having only older alters

Getting fakeclaimed for being young

Getting fakeclaimed for being old

Getting fakeclaimed for not "acting disordered"

Getting fakeclaimed for acting "too disordered"

Getting fakeclaimed for having comorbid disorders

Getting fakeclaimed for not having the exact same traits or symptoms as someone else with DID

Getting fakeclaimed because the disorder isn't "believable"

Getting fakeclaimed for not having amnesia or blackouts

Getting fakeclaimed because you switch "too fast"

Getting fakeclaimed because you switch "too slow"

Getting fakeclaimed for anything anyone can come up with

The "host > rest of the system"

Being forced to think DID has to act a specific way or look a certain way

Nobody ever bothering to understand or study the disorder

Being spoke over by non-disordered voices

Being treated like a circus attraction or test subject

All the horror movies based on the disorder

The ideology that everyone with DID is criminal or predatory

All the distrust

Getting told your trauma wasn't "that bad/bad enough"

Being terrified of being seen as "cringe-y"

Never ever being able to be fully open and true to yourself

In some cases, not even being able to tell your own family

Isolation.

This is not at all meant to be seen as looking for sympathy, I want people to understand what people like us have to deal with on near daily basis both inside and outside the internet. These are all very real things, and of course everyone's experiences vary individually, but these are some of the most common things I've seen among the DID community.

Systems are free to add on sharing their own experiences and everyone is encouraged to reblog. (/Nf)

Any non-traumagenic "systems" can find another post, this isn't for you, our struggles are completely different.

Aether ripping his jacket open with one hand? The casual guitar toss? The belly patting? The leanback?

My feral level is through the roof

not rlly proud of this anymore but heres the guy ever

schizoposting (said by me, a schizophrenic who thinks he's funny): cool!

schizoposting (said by a neurotypical edgelord): not cool!

does this make sense

I gotta say, so much queer intra-community horseshit dropped off my shoulders when I decided to adopt a firm policy that everyone is the expert in their own identity, the single most knowledgeable person about what it's like to live life in their own skin, and that if someone describes their experience in ways I find contradictory or paradoxical I should do them the courtesy of presuming that they are striving to express something very specific and nuanced, rather than leaping to the conclusion that they're just dumb and using words wrong.

Sure, there are some combinations of identity terms that I look at and go "hmm, I don't get how that works." I'm still a human being. But there's a big difference between not getting how something works versus insisting that it doesn't.

when I draw Sodo or Swiss, I listen to something like Rammstein or phonk, something heavy. But Rain?? french songs about sex

to the older lady in walgreens who came up to me when i was buying my cane and said "whoever gets that cane will be happy". even though i havent used it for long, i don't hurt when i walk, i dont feel like i'll fall. im happy, you were right.

cane users rain and mountain holding each others canes to see how big the height difference is and mounty thinks its the funniest shit ever

RRAAGH I LOVE THE CREEPYPASTA FANDOM!!! I LOVE MILD TO COMPLETE DISREGUARD FOR CANON!! I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE USE THE CREEPS AS DOLLS TO MAKE WHATEVER STORY THEY WANT I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE WORLD BUILD BASED ON AMATURE HORROR PROJECTS FROM A DECADE AGO!!! I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE MAKE OCS AND MAKE THEM INTERACT WITH THE POPULAR PASTAS!!! RAAGH!!!!

come get yo food

ANY REBLOGS ARE WELCOME!! <3