How things change
In a place
Throughout time
I'm uneasy and need to pace
The picket fence
Lost a head
To a softball
The picket fence
Lost a bottom
To a chewing dog
The same picket fence
Has the gate wide open
But no worn grass
The picket fence
Bends and sags
Under weathered, weakness
The picket fence
Has a grapevine
But now it looks dead and sad
The snow,
Back in the day
Would be trampled down by two
The snow
Old as it happens to be
Is untouched
How things change
As they age
And yet
I'm still the same page
You’ve got me running these loops girl
Yeah running these loops
You’ve got me looking for a hole or an oops
Like magician’s rings
You like finding cracks in my writings on the wall
But you don’t lie to me and tell me that everything will be okay
Even if I'm screaming mayday
You are my Peter Gabriel sledgehammer,
As you skillfully knock down walls
With your golden retriever attitude
That possibly brightens my mood
Sometimes I feel your obnoxious positive vibe
But what you don’t know…
Is that I'd kill the king for your laugh
It seems like a fair trade for a mental photograph
That could soon be lost
Your smile lightens up the room
You make me feel like I can do anything with you by my side
You make me feel like I shouldn’t have any reasons to hide,
From you at least
I'm not afraid of all the king’s horses and all the king’s men
You believe that I could take them because I'm strong
And I know that we don’t have long
And I'm used to people coming and going
I've had years and years to get used to that,
The arms that I could die for
Could disappear and make it pour
That’s why you have to enjoy things now
While they last
And maybe that’s all she wrote for us
But we just have to trust
That our paths were only meant to be crossed
And maybe its better that we made an x out of each other
I won’t forget how you made me feel
As you tried to help me to heal
With your Potter spells, you powerful witch!
5:55 at still not, alone
The sun is coming up
And I’ll see it down again
As the day gets brighter
The darker my day gets
If I'm walking uphill
That does not mean I am not going downhill
And if I'm in the eye of the hurricane,
That does not mean from the storm I am free
The higher I get, the lower I sink
The more I wait for the perfect moment
The faster it will pass because I am a small, white, rodent
A rodent so quiet it forgot to squeak
A shrugging girl so quiet she forgot to speak
Tempting, as it may be, I'm too tired to argue with your opinion
Scenery flashing by as I try to run on my legs of rubber molasses
Frustration drips down my face and my body
When I run from my problems I am running right into their tangled arms
Living away from them, they get bigger
Living with them, I go crazy claustrophobic
I want stars; I want the moon’s blood
I do not want to be lonely but I want to be alone
The reason I may look like a party pooper or down
Is because when I used to walk up to people and tell them my name they would give me a frown
They wouldn't say anything so I would walk away
Then I would see them sneaking peaks at me and laughing, but someday...
I would go sit away from them on the concrete wall
Or I would get a basketball
And shoot hoops all by myself
I put my high hopes on a shelf
Sometimes when I would make a hoop someone would run up to me
And kick the ball away, then laugh at my plea
For peace
I was the one who tried hard with elbow grease
But now I just go sit there anyway
To save myself from all the pain
That's why I don't go up to people and tell them my name
I just always ended up ashamed
Ashamed to be me
Whatever I did they laughed at
Someday hopefully they will realize that
They were all the bitches
That should die in ditches
Sorry I just wish I could make them pay
And that still happens to me today
Even in high school
People think making fun of me is “cool”
Why are they so cruel?
I hate going there
Because most people don't care
And they say that there are only raggies in this town
I bet you don’t know that word, go look it up, the word raggie might be a noun
But I actually try and work hard
Even though I get scarred
Every time someone says that
It makes us all sound worse than rats
Whoever says that isn't even trying
They just like to see people crying
I'm shy
Because I don’t want cry
I'm done trying
I’m diseased of adults
Assuming the worst from me
When it is just me
Then they give me a hard time
For nothing
I’m diseased of being a millennial
And adults assuming
That I’m lazy
And addicted to my phone
When it’s just me who just so happens to be different
I’m tired of feeling
Like I’m worthless
And no one will ever
Truly
Fall in love with just me and I them
I’m diseased
Of teachers
Thinking they are better
Because of a degree
At the moment I’m just 1,000 degrees of rage
I don’t want to go to school
I don’t want this factory process
Of being separated
Embarrassed
And torn apart
I’m diseased of being a product
And not a person
The only thing I’ve learned from school
Is that if you don’t want to be bent around
Then keep your mouth shut
I’m diseased with adults
Smoldering my fire
My passion
My,
Will to live and carry on…
You know you're my friend if you sign your name with a star
And you seal envelopes with nerd saliva
Girl, you're dang beautiful but you don't see it
Hand it to yourself, please I love you
For thinking I'm going to be famous
I miss you
Poor planning but we still should awkwardly get together I owe you a poem
We have lasted about 2 years without seeing each other
We're so weird
See, when your name pops up it makes me happy However you'll always be my buttrift
Who needs any insolent fuckboys?
This one has been stealing my poems
Do you know that you amaze me Angry Satan,
You are not afraid to talk about
A friend who's easy and eager to talk to, even about
Poo, you're used to it That one is my fault
We have lasted so long
Thank you for being here
Glee, I’ll try to write about just for you
I don’t want to be a rock
And I no longer want to be an island
I don’t want to be superman anymore
I also don’t want to be saved
Because it never works out,
When someone else is wearing the cape
I'm the one who rides this roller coaster
That is truly,
Made for only one
I must learn to accept
What I never have
Because I can’t live my life in a false reality
People say that I'm smart
Yet I fail more than the average person
People say that I'm strong
Yet I hurt more than the average person
And for honesty, I write because I'm so sensitive
And I'm tired of climbing mountains With new people
Sos
Is no longer
A silent thing I scream
I want to sink
Into this cold water
And drown in my life
I keep finding myself
Stuck on the same ship,
The ship of Theseus
The past is the past
It may not have been the best
Let’s just leave it at that
But soon I'll be free from this wrecked nest
Right now it's not fun
It's those memories
I should hurry up, get over it and be done
Families that feel like enemies
The stares that pierce through you
They judge
But they don't have a clue
Their stubborn heads won't budge
I now look forward, so don't make me look back
I will be better someday
I won the treasure by slapping the jack
I didn't mean it like that way
No one to trust
No one to hold and clutch
Heat full of tumble weeds and dust
Not even a love touch
I was invisible
They didn't care
But anything is live-able
So I built my own lair
They didn't pay attention either
Suck it up and deal
Never got a breather
No one cares how I really feel
Say that you love me then break me like a china plate
Why did you make me sit on a towel?
Well now you're too late
Never had good bowels
Always felt out of place
I'm sorry but some things can't be forgiven
After things happened I don't feel safe
But I'm going to keep on live'n
Always felt different and weird
In a bad way
I tried to make all of it disappear
Nobody I wanted ever stayed
Tears roll'n down my cheek
They hit the floor like glass
The feelings that are deep down are antique
It can happen that fast
I've learned how to turn myself into a rock
Always picking up my own head
It causes me to have writers block
While people eat the meat, I don't whine and take the bread
No one cared if my head drooped down
I was forced to walk alone
They ignored me when one my face there was a frown
That's when my heart turned to stone
Precipitation on the precipice
Perpetually with presumable paranoia
Along with possible poems that have no periods
Because life might very well be never ending
Pause...
Delete the delirium of the demons
Don't deteriorate with your destruction
Do what you want during the debriefing but don't drown in the debris
Try not to go that far
Drat
All they asked for was some alliteration
While they surrounded you with alligators in the ally
But I am writing an album of aluminum with alliances that allay
Not every allegation is right
Allure
Currently concentrating
On the cause of the catastrophe
Two cracks colliding without collecting credit
Learn that, that is simply life
Creating
I'm a nitpicky nitwit
Nincompoop that knits knots
In the neon lights of New York, I nervously take notes on networks of gnats
I will stop with the,
I will not’s because I have too many to keep
Ends are sometimes beginnings I need to get myself out of here Ends are the reflections of beginnings, it’s a simple mirror Is everything the same? Dead in the hall of lame Right now you and I are in between the beginning and the middle My bones are snapping, crackling and are brittle I need to know, what’s on the other side? For now I’ll let it slide Slide down my back, off my feet What is complete? Is it fullness of the heart? Or a lucky throw of the dart This reflection is not me, I’m lost But life is still well worth it’s cost So here I go and venture into the middle Me myself and I; piano, guitar and fiddle My one and only crew Some find me and my inanimate, music playing objects, infectious like the flu Just a lucky throw of the dart Is it fullness of the heart? My one and only crew Some find me and my inanimate music playing objects infectious like the flu Then on some days I find myself in between the middle and the end At writing I’m not that great, not to offend But life is still well worth it’s cost This reflection is not me, I’m lost I need a lucky throw of the dart Is it fullness of the heart? What is complete? Slide down my back, off my feet For now I’ll let it slide I need to know, what’s on the other side? Then I find myself in the end Things don’t always break sometimes they bend Dead in the hall of lame Is everything the same? Beginnings are the reflections of ends, it’s a simple mirror I need to get myself out of here Beginnings are sometimes ends
It felt like I started a new life
A good one
A happy one It was a life full of new people
And new experiences
That were better than ever before A life without popularity
A life built of trust
And support A new home
In tents and out of town
With a better view of the lovely stars Now I'm back in my town
Back to the same life
Back to the same person Back inside
Where the breeze does not blow
And where the sky is not as beautiful Back inside
Where there aren't any waterfalls
And yet I find my feet in the same shoes
Hello over there! I love writing poetry. I have a dream of becoming a writer! I hope that my poetry makes you feel like you're not in this world all alone.
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