I’ve Woken Up Over 10,000 Times And I’m Still Not Used To It

Meryl Streep’s tribute to Carrie Fisher.

grizzly bear having a swim

Just got off the phone with legal aid and rehashing the trauma again. That was a very long conversation. Attempting to keep my head high and not get overwhelmed by everything. I am lucky enough to finish this day out with a dental appointment and moving things out of my storage unit. Lawyers, and dentists, and moving, oh my!

“so you usually stay at home because of your mental illness?”

yeah.. but don’t think it’s boring…i have several intense mood swings in an afternoon and sometimes i dissociate for hours

Be like Neil!!

I must say. I've been feeling more invisible than usual. I, too, am a minority. I, too, have been harassed, assaulted, and sexually assaulted by cops. I, too, have been discriminated against. I wish there were a biracial, first gen, gay role model. Niche market, amirite? Oh, don't forget with mental health issues and an intellectual living in the shadow of a brother with MR. I'm half tempted to just grab my backpack and live in the forest somewhere. Or pull a Margaret Cho, and be my own relatable role model. But instead, I'm scared into shutting down and hiding in my hellscape of a mind.

“Last Night’s Debate, or the Mansplaining Olympics,” Alexandra Petri