I Love Writing Because Sometimes Its Like This

Been working on my OC's some more, finally got around to attempting to do Annaliese 😅 I fear she is too pretty for my level of talent

Mostly just bored sketches that I did while not paying attention

Okay, I'm supposed to be sleeping but I need to make this or I'll die.

We're all talking about how this is the only universe where Jean lives, but the same applies to Jeremy. Throughout TSC and TGR there are multiple references of how Jeremy views his 5th year as his "last year". The most damming is this:

I think it's fair to say that Jeremy was planning to kill himself after he finished college. He'd be forced to do the LSAT, and it doesn't matter if he succeedes or not, Mathilda would never allow him to pursuit a career on professional Exy. Even without Jean, the Trojans would surely win this year Championships, and Jeremy would have the taste of the life he can't have. He'd be forced to abandon the only thing that brings him purpose and joy; the only thing that allows him to be himself without expectations; and do something he hates for the rest of his life. He'd reach his breaking point.

We know Jeremy is very close to the edge. It may not appear, mainly because of how hard he avoids dealing with his crumbling mental state. He's like this big, beautiful and lush tree that's completely hollowed out and rotten on the inside. It looks healthy and strong, but one strong wind and it topples like a piece of paper. Jeremy is on his last strings. He may not kill himself in every timeline, but he'd be like Andrew without Neil: joyless.

The only thing that brings him away from the edge is Jean. Jean is the one who gives Jeremy strength to confront his family. Beacuse Jean makes his life worth fighting for. The same way Jeremy makes Jean's life worth living.

They are truly meant for the other. They are soulmates in the purest, most literal form, for one cannot live without the other. Jean is destined to die without his Sun. Jeremy is destined to snuff out without his Moon.

This will be my second post on here! So, here are my sbg headcannons:)

Taylor+Aiden gossip besties and sometimes they drag Ash and/or Logan with them

Taylor LOVES K-pop and always tries to teach the others dances.

Ash EATS every single time

Aiden is actually really good(like suspiciously good) (did he practice beforehand?)

Ben and Logan are decent but not great

Tyler couldn’t stand on one leg to save his life there is NO WAY he’s getting through K-pop choreo

They were all hanging out one day and Logan just started crying because he was so grateful for all of them

Logan+Ash siblings go

Logan has a different flower assigned to each member of the group and doodles them whenever he’s missing the others

Ben knows how to do hair(because of lily) and Taylor and Ash always have amazing hairstyles after hanging out with him

The group is trying their best to learn ASL so they can communicate with Ben more easily

Tyler has broken at least 5 bones in his life

Aiden has broken none

Ben almost died once because he fell asleep with wired earbuds in and choked himself

Party rock anthem once played at a school dance. They never recovered.

Aiden can do a backflip

Aiden can’t write. Not like he’s fully unable to do the act of writing but like, he can’t write an essay. Partly because he looses motivation and concentration half way through and partly because it’ll just be incomprehensible by the end.

The twins 100% have abandonment issues

Aiden owns a katana

The twins totally have a secret handshake

They also most definitely had a case of cryptophasia

Logan got increasingly more strange as the group got to know him

When Jean gets there, its a screaming match between Jeremy and Bryson, Jeremy sobbing as he is yelling his heart out. William opens the front door at the sound of the motorcycle, an open invitation to join the dispute. Of course Bryson is pissed to see Jean (also slightly scared) but Jean just ignores him, going directly to Jeremy, getting between them and gently pushing him to the door.

"You're running away? Again." Bryson barks at Jeremy, but before he can antagonise him further or before Jeremy can response, Jean whips around, all his rage seconds from bursting.

"You ignorant, intolerant flickle minded child! You have the kindest brother anyone could ever ask for and you fucking ruin him at every turn." Bryson tries to cut in, but Jean steps closer, getting louder. "You are beyond pathetic. Just because your mommy's favorite doesnt give you the right such a brain dead waste of oxygen. If you ever make him cry again-" Jean stops, taking in a ragid breath, attempting to calm himself "Walk away from me before I start breaking bones." The death glare Jean locks on him has Bryson stepping back. Jean doesn't budge as Jeremy tries to pull him to the door, waiting for Bryson to take a few more steps back. Only when there's distance between then does be turn, keeping eyes on him and he lets Jeremy proceed him.

"Lets get you home." All of the anger in Jean voice is gone, replaced with concern and grief. Jeremy cries the whole ride, tightly clingy to Jean as he desperately tries to stop his sobbing. When Jean parks, he doesnt try to get off. Instead, he holds at Jeremy arms around his torso, grabbing his hands into his own, gently squeezing.

"I'll never let him hurt you again. I'd bury him before I let him lay hands on you." Jeans declaration is left without response when Jeremy whimpers out.

"I tried to remember. My mind went blank, I couldn't find the words. I tried-" Jean shushes him lightly, rubbing at Jeremy arm.

"We will work on it. You did good. What matters is that your home. We will start speaking french more often, with practice, you will get there." Jeremy picks his head up, resting it on Jeans shoulder. Their helmets keep them from looking at each other as they clank together.

"Thank you." Jeremy sighs out. "For getting me out of there." The relief in his tone has Jean relaxing, leaning back into his chest.

"Come on, Cat should have dinner ready by now."

as much as we all want jeremy to use the phrase to get jean to whisk him away from his abusive family, imagine if he can’t. jeremy just can’t remember. and he calls jean, sounding so broken and defeated. so tired. crying.

“I’m sorry I forgot. I’ll let you yell at me later for it, I promise. But please— can you please come get me?”

and somehow jeremy’s broken plea is so much harder to hear than the phrase would’ve been.

and of course jean isn’t going to yell at him. forgotten phrases or not, he’s going to get jeremy the fuck out of there. no question.

Ok I just made myself so sad. I'm sitting here listening to The Devil Wears Prada : Louder Than Thunder and I imagined Aiden laying in bed screaming this song into an empty house.

"Are we meant to be empty handed, I know I could, I could be better, I dont think I deserve it"

This kid probably so desperately wanted a house full of a family being obnoxious and annoying over all the things he dealt with in his head.

If he truly was s**cidal than I feel like he would have had a lot of those moments (I remember laying in bed crying to this song, maybe I'm just reflecting😅)

Someone introduce Jean Moreau to Gordon Ramsey. I NEED Cat and Jean making fun of people on hells kitchen and kitchen nightmares. I need Jean getting as into scolding people at poor cooking as he does bad Exy plays. I need him being absolutely scandalized at the horrible recipes, I need him to be whispering under his breath "you fucking tell him Ramsey" when hes going off on people in the kitchen. I need Jeremy hiding a smile as Jean corrects people who cant hear him. RAH I need Jean Moreau loving new hobbies.

I feel like I am the only one worried about this

Sbg spoliers

I am very relieved that everyone is, for the most part, okay. However, I feel like they are getting set up for something bad to happen. Not only do they have a long journey ahead of them but Logan is their long distance defense. He has saved them a number of times and now he can't see. Ben is their strongest (in debate 😂) and has a sprained wrist. They are all beat up, covered in bruises. (I think it was Tyler who said his ribs hurt) I just feel like they are going to get into a situation where they can't protect themselves because their usualdefenses have been weakened. Maybe I am just paranoid but Im not fully relieved yet.

yes, this is the one universe that Jean lives in.

and yes, that means it’s the only one where Jeremy finds his soulmate.

it’s also the only one where Cat finds her literal ride or die best friend.

and the only one where Laila has someone else to connect with over missing roots.

it’s the only one where Cody is so appreciated for something as small as sharing fruit.

or Derek and and Derrick have someone to call “lil bro.”

it’s the only one where Xavier is accepted by a stranger without question.

it’s the only one where Tanner has such a cool mentor, even if he’s rough around the edges.

and the only one where Kevin doesn’t have to live as the only member of the perfect court.

it’s the only one where Neil would willingly go back to the state he buried his mother in.

it’s the only one where Renee gives up her cross to a friend as a string of faith.

plus the only one that Rhemann is seen as a father and not just a coach.

and it’s the only one where Jab gets adopted by a family that will love him.

Jean Moreau is as infinite as he is wonderful.

he’s the boy who didn’t want to live, but Nora asked him to anyway. and god, is he.

he’s more of a miracle than he’ll ever realize.

throws up

TGR SPOILERS

Jeremy has paid an exorbitant price for his brother's suicide, which, to be honest, wasn't even his. Noah shouldn't have been his responsibility in the first place. He's lost his family and will never get it back. The press humiliated him, the police denigrated him, his siblings and stepfather constantly insult him, his IDs have been seized, and he has no financial control to the point where he has to explain himself for buying a cup of coffee (and without ID, he can't work, so he can't make a living any other way). His family tries to isolate him by buying off his ex-partner. Bryson threatens him. Jeremy knows his future doesn't depend on him, so he decides he'll take some fun classes while he can. The guilt is so great that he seeks out dangerous and degrading sex in search of redemption. He allows his mother to boss him around, trying to get her to forgive him and love him. He's desperate for his biological father to call him.

And yet, he greets you with a fucking smile every day and tries to help his teammates as best he can and make everything as bearable for them. And yet, he tries to call Kevin and Neil to tell them not to overexert themselves when he's always so tired, he sometimes falls asleep while driving.

That's Jeremy Knox.

That's Captain Sunshine.