Me: Wow I Really Have My Mental Illness Under Control!

there needs to be a name

for that horrible, sickening discomfort that comes with talking about trauma aloud

it’s shame, but that word is not enough

it is not strong enough.

“shame” is within the range of normal emotions. this is…something else. this runs deeper. this is something that lives in the same primitive brain structures as fear – fear, most powerful of emotions – but has the developed frontal-lobe sophistication of a more complex feeling.

it’s more shame than i can express. it’s a very physical feeling. something inside me recoils. i hate that i have to confront this horrific feeling to talk about my trauma in therapy.

sometimes it doesnt work but im still trying

I hate that trauma and abuse have long-lasting consequences! I really hate that!!! It was bad enough while it lasted, why do I have to suffer from it even 10 years later????

Stop blaming yourself for other people’s shitty doings to you.

They fucked up, not you.

i'm so thankful for the fact that my boyfriend is understanding of the fact that i need more reassurance and affection than most people and that i often get scared that he'll leave me and i'm also proud of myself for handling everything so well because i'm assuring him that none of this is his fault and that i thank him for listening to me and i try to stay as calm as possible when i get anxious and i've improved so much compared to last year

Hey, guys!

I have finally finished my interactive personality disorder diagnostic checklists! Each checklist provides the symptoms one dealing with the specified disorder would be experiencing taken from the DSM-5. these could be a very useful tool for people looking for help with self-diagnoses or better expressing their symptoms. 

Here are the links:

BPD (borderline personality disorder)

HPD (histrionic personality disorder)

NPD (narcissistic personality disorder)

SPD (Schizoid personality disorder)

STPD (schizotypal personality disorder)

DPD (dependent personality disorder)

OCPD (Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder)

ASPD (antisocial personality disorder)

APD (avoidant personality disorder)

PPD (paranoid personality disorder)

If you guys could reblog this so people who need it can have access to it, I’d really appreciate it!