Tw: Sexual Assault Mentioned, And Trauma/ptsd. All From Past Lifes And Not Explicit.

LOL

So far, we don't have a specific little alter, but I do age regress sometimes.

Although we don't have a job yet, we will be looking for one in January, though.

- Shay 🐾

If the little fronts on the clock can you sue for child labor

Chronic pain sucks so much and periods just make everything worse.

- Shay 🐾

Adding on to the vent.

Tw/cw: suicide mention, suicidal thoughts, and shit like that

What do you do when in past lives you were disabled but still did stuff that you can't in this life?

What do you do when you realize that you should be more able to do stuff in this life but you are less able?

What do you do when you can't even talk about most of this to most people you know in person cause they wouldn't understand and would hate you?

What do you do when you want to make yourself more disabled than you already are?

What do you do when you are so close to trying to end it all because you can't see why you should keep living?

What do you do when you don't even think you could end it all cause you're scared and just not really wanting to end it all?

What do you do when you can't mention this to people cause you don't want to be sent away even when the place you're currently at sucks?

What do you do when you want to live but you want to die?

- Shay 🐾

Little vent from us. We are kinda going through some shit rn.

We don't think there are any tw/cw but if there are let us know.

What do you do when you realize that you might not be able to work a "normal" job or maybe any job at all ever?

What do you do when you realize that your disabilities affect what you are able to do in ways that are so against what you wanted to do and what you wish you could do?

What do you do when disabilities are actually disabling?

What do you do when other people don't understand even when they are disabled themselves?

What do you do in any situations where disabilities affect what happens?

What do you do when you need to tell people and make them understand that you are disabled and that means you can't do the same things as others?

- Shay 🐾

What do you do when you are disabled?

I'm gonna talk about something that's not kin [alterhuman or nonhuman] related real quick.

My account is not really gonna be a place for a lot of donation asks, I am sorry, but I don't have the time or energy to really check each ask to make sure it's real or anything. I didn't do this for any of the previous ones I uploaded, so bare that in mind when you see them.

I probably won't upload any more asks about donations, once again I am really sorry but it's just not something I can check up on in a way that makes it feel like I wouldn't be maybe helping people get away with lying. I am not saying any of the ones I uploaded or that I've been getting are lies, cause I don't know and that's why I am not answering/uploading posts with any of these asks.

I hope everyone understands where I am coming from and if they need help, I hope they get the help they need.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/xe)

Edit Oct 8th: I am gonna be deleting the posts I have posted of the donation asks cause I keep getting anxiety about how they might not be genuine and shit but idk if they are or not, I just know that if I don't delete them my brain is saying bad things will happen so yeah. Sorry for those that sent the asks that I posted but I am deleting the posts.

Thanks for the reply!

We definitely think of it as better than the "functioning" label system (cause of what that system was originally for) but yeah every system has flaws.

So medium support needs seems to fit us.

As we don't have a job, and don't have a "caretaker". And we could go on but this is the main bits, lol. Basically, we have more support needs than a low support needs being and less support needs than a high support needs being.

- Shay 🐾

Can any being(s) explain exactly what each "level" of support needs mean? (High, medium, and low are the ones we have seen/heard)

Cause we literally aren't sure what we count under.

Like it almost seems like we are low-medium support needs or high-low support needs (like on the lower side of medium or higher side of low).

Does this make any sense?

- Shay 🐾

5th poem to post. Another dog & wolf related poem, lol. A lot of my poems are canine related cause of me being a canine kin [specifically wolfdog kin].

Tw/cw: biting mention, abuse hinted at(?), and I think that's all. Let me know if you find any tw/cw I didn't add that I need to.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/xe) [trying something new with my sign off thing on my poem posts]

Roll Over/Growl

I think that

I should roll over

And whine sorry

Over and over again

But instead I growl

I bare my teeth

And snap at you

I bite and growl

I should roll over

I should say sorry

I should be a good dog

A good wolf

But I'm not

I growl and bite

I'm a bad dog

A bad wolf

I should roll over

I growl and snap

I should whine sorry

I bare my teeth and bite

I'm sorry I'm not good

I bite even when

You try to help me

For I'm scared

I'm sorry I'm bad

I growl even when

You're kind for I don't

Know when you'll stop

So random update on the whole creating packmates thing. Hit the "keep reading" if you want to.

We have 2 packmates that have shown up after we were thinking about creating them, and we didn't really do much to "actually go about creating them." We wrote down stuff about them and did a little bit of "role-playing" in our head with them (we do this for tons of ocs, some of which we have introjected or gotten kins of but we have ones that neither of these things happened for). So that's fun.

We have Arden Cat, who is a minecraft fictive and kin (they use both terms for itself). Thir source/canon is a bit different than the "traditional" minecraft. Iv are an ender cat nether wolf hybrid. Ixs technical source is specifically Stampy's Lovely World [anyone who thinks this is cringe or whatever, get off our blog], and they hold our special hyperfixation for both Minecraft and Stampy's Lovely World.

We also have Nile Conley-Wayne, who is a DC and batfam fictive. In their source/canon, it was the second adopted child of Bruce, being adopted not too long after Dick. They had 3 partners [all ocs] in its canon. We are planning on trying to introject at least one of the partners. Nile is nonhuman. Not sure what else to say about Nile.

We have 2 that we planned out a bit for that we haven't gotten to actually show up yet.

We have Rylo, who isn't supposed to be a fictive or anything, but they could end up being one. We are planning for them to be an "anthro golden jackal dhole maned wolf hybrid + working dog (no specific breed and doesn't affect appearance)." We are hoping to have these be their roles (taken right from our thing for them). "Assidumate, motivator, nummica, spoon generator, worker, and maybe cohost(?)" [Link to where we found the roles]. This is all we are gonna mention about Rylo for now.

We also have Curren Woolley, who is a DC fictive sort of based around the Arrowverse. They are the partner of Nile that we want to introject. They are a part of team Flash and see that team as their family. Curren is nonhuman. This is all we are gonna mention about Curren for now.

We also have an idea for a packmate that we wanna create, but all we really know so far is what role(s) we want them to have. Here are the roles: "Somnoian, sleep soother, sleeper, and drowser." Basically, we need a packmate to help with sleep. We are thinking maybe a cat could fit them? Cause cats like to sleep a lot, but we don't know. If anyone has any ideas we would love to hear them!

- Shay 🐾

Not sure because our motivation and energy could be too low to be able to do anything for some days, so we can't really say we can do it that way.

- Shay 🐾

We need to clean a room, do any beings have any tips? (We need tips that keep in mind that our issues are mainly from AuDHD and chronic pain rn).

- Shay 🐾

Ask game!

Put full question(s) in ask please.

- Shay 🐾

nonhuman asks

what term(s) do you prefer to be referred to as (otherkin, therian, nonhuman, etc.)?

what are you(r kintypes/theriotypes)?

most niche/obscure 'type?

what foods do you associate with your 'type(s)?

what colors do you associate with your 'type(s)?

do you own any gear? if so, what is it?

best/favorite thing about being nonhuman?

worst/least favorite thing about being nonhuman?

what activities help you connect with your 'type(s)?

do you associate any music with your 'type(s)? do you have a playlist?

do you collect anything besides wearable gear that you associate with your 'type(s), such as plushies or merch?

do your 'type(s) influence your sense of style or the way you dress?

would you consider yourself a furry? if so, do you have a fursona? is your fursona based on one of your 'type(s)?

draw or share your artwork of your 'type(s)?

this isnt a question but a request that you drink some water!

authors note: feel free to reblog! other beings can ask you questions from this list, or you can simply answer them all yourself.

Tw/cw: blood, fangs, and claws, I guess.

- Shay (They/it) | more werecreature hours I guess

Blood From my Fangs and Claws

I feel the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I see the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I taste the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I smell the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I love the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws

I miss the blood

Dripping from my

Fangs and claws