Update That's Probably Long Overdue. The Memorial/funeral Already Happened. There Were A Lot Of People

Update that's probably long overdue. The memorial/funeral already happened. There were a lot of people there, so at least I know my cousin was loved and did love a lot.

Shit still sucks, I have recently dropped or been dropped from all but one class [I had three], so that's great [/sarcastic]. I am really starting to wondering if college is right for me, I will definitely be taking at least one term off and if I go back to college it will probably be a different one so I can pretty much have a fresh start. I luckily don't need a college degree to do what I want to do, which is to become a dog trainer specializing in service dogs.

I also need to try and work on getting myself a service dog, which I believe I mentioned a while ago. Motivation is so hard to find to do shit so I can actually live a somewhat "normal" life.

Sorry about the rant, life just kinda sucks rn. But there's also good shit. This is just about the bad shit rn.

Something good is I'll be going to see that side of my family again soon for a barbecue [is that spelled right? I have a specific learning disability (what it is listed as on my paperwork, lol)] so that'll be fun.

I'll actually be able to talk to my queer cousin about shit again, lol. My father and brother in this life are homophobic and transphobic and shit so that's not fun, but I do have an old cousin who is queer that I love hanging out with and wish I could hang out with more. As well as my younger cousin [who was the son of my cousin who died], he's cool to hang out with as well, lol.

My older cousin streams, but I don't know if I should say their username or not. I'll not say it for now at least.

Hope ya'll are having good days and shit! :3c

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it mainly)

Edit: I forgot tags

[TW: Death and shit that comes with that, idk maybe more? If you find any more things that should be in this trigger warning pls tell me.]

Also, shit is happening in my life rn. I recently [on September 11th] lost my cousin, she died and we aren't sure how exactly yet. So, yeah. Death is fucking weird and I don't think I process it normally (AuDHD). So I may end up not posting for a while or might end up posting like every day.

Just sharing so ya'll know what's going on if I disappear for a while [even though I would likely do that even without this shit happening].

We aren't sure when the funeral thing is happening yet, I slightly hope it's soon so I can see my family, I don't live by that side of the family, sadly. Probably gonna end up missing like a day of college, but whatever, my family [my pack] is more important to me.

My cousin left behind a son. He is a kid. He's younger than I was when my mom in this life died. [I was like 16 when that happened, and I won't be sharing how old my 2nd cousin is]. So I really wanna see that side of my family, so I can try and be there for him. He's gonna need people there for him, and if I could without getting in trouble, I would drop out of college rn to be around him while he is going through this. (Protective wolf/dog instincts?)

There's just a lot of shit going on rn with my life, I wish it would stop for a bit.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/xe/ze) :((

[We is referring to my family, btw]

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1 month ago

Ask game!

If you send an ask for this, please include the question(s) fully instead of just the symbol.

- Shay ๐Ÿพ

Space themed System ask game based on common fakeclaim "criteria" because these things are valid and cool actually

๐Ÿ›ฐ-Do you have a large headcount?

๐Ÿ‘พ-Do any alters in your system have typing quirks?

๐Ÿš€-Does your system have any Non-human alters?

โ˜„๏ธ-Is your system neurodivergent?

๐Ÿ”ญ-Does your system use neo Pronouns?

๐ŸŒ -Do any of the alters in your system have dyed hair?

๐ŸŒ™-Are there any nonverbal alters in your system?

๐Ÿช-Does your system have Angry or "dangerous" persecutors?

๐Ÿ’ซ-Do your littles use 'little-speech?'

๐ŸŒŒ-Does your system have little to no amnesia between switches?

๐ŸŒŸ-Does your system have fairly clear communication?

๐ŸŒ˜-Do you have a large or complex headspace?

๐Ÿ›ธ-Do any alters in your system have exo-memories?

๐Ÿ‘ฝDoes your system have any tics?

โ˜€๏ธ-is your system bad at masking?

โœจ๏ธ-Do any alters in your system have an accent?

๐ŸŒŽ-Do any alters in your system speak in a different language?

โ˜๏ธ-Does your system use things like pluralkit and simply plural?

โญ๏ธ-are you out about being a system?


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1 month ago

Do any other werecreatures/werebeings feel effects from the full moon before the full moon actually is?

Like the proper full moon is supposed to be tomorrow but we have been feeling very were like for a few days.

- ShaySubpack ๐Ÿพ specifically Cyan ๐Ÿฉต (we have other were beings but this post is just from me/us)


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6 months ago

We had to get our actual proper medical insurance back recently, ofc it probably won't really be into effect until January, so we still have to wait to actually have it.

We wanna talk to our doctor about seeing if we have some other disorders/disabilities (such as OCD and POTS) before properly trying to contact a service dog training place. We have a place in mind already, hopefully we will be able to go through them.

When we end up contacting the place and they tell us the price and stuff for the training (and getting the prospect/puppy) then we will likely make a go fund me and will make a post about it. But until we know more, we can't really make a go fund me cause we don't know how much we will likely need.

Anyways, we just wanted to make this post to basically share a bit about what's happening in our life rn, so yeah.

- Shay (They/it) ๐Ÿพ


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5 months ago

We haven't posted in a while, lol.

Pretty sure there's also some posts in our drafts that may or may not get posted at any point.

This is just the whole post, lol.

- Shay ๐Ÿพ


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2 months ago

Adding on to the vent.

Tw/cw: suicide mention, suicidal thoughts, and shit like that

What do you do when in past lives you were disabled but still did stuff that you can't in this life?

What do you do when you realize that you should be more able to do stuff in this life but you are less able?

What do you do when you can't even talk about most of this to most people you know in person cause they wouldn't understand and would hate you?

What do you do when you want to make yourself more disabled than you already are?

What do you do when you are so close to trying to end it all because you can't see why you should keep living?

What do you do when you don't even think you could end it all cause you're scared and just not really wanting to end it all?

What do you do when you can't mention this to people cause you don't want to be sent away even when the place you're currently at sucks?

What do you do when you want to live but you want to die?

- Shay ๐Ÿพ

Little vent from us. We are kinda going through some shit rn.

We don't think there are any tw/cw but if there are let us know.

What do you do when you realize that you might not be able to work a "normal" job or maybe any job at all ever?

What do you do when you realize that your disabilities affect what you are able to do in ways that are so against what you wanted to do and what you wish you could do?

What do you do when disabilities are actually disabling?

What do you do when other people don't understand even when they are disabled themselves?

What do you do in any situations where disabilities affect what happens?

What do you do when you need to tell people and make them understand that you are disabled and that means you can't do the same things as others?

- Shay ๐Ÿพ

What do you do when you are disabled?


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7 months ago

5th poem to post. Another dog & wolf related poem, lol. A lot of my poems are canine related cause of me being a canine kin [specifically wolfdog kin].

Tw/cw: biting mention, abuse hinted at(?), and I think that's all. Let me know if you find any tw/cw I didn't add that I need to.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/xe) [trying something new with my sign off thing on my poem posts]

Roll Over/Growl

I think that

I should roll over

And whine sorry

Over and over again

But instead I growl

I bare my teeth

And snap at you

I bite and growl

I should roll over

I should say sorry

I should be a good dog

A good wolf

But I'm not

I growl and bite

I'm a bad dog

A bad wolf

I should roll over

I growl and snap

I should whine sorry

I bare my teeth and bite

I'm sorry I'm not good

I bite even when

You try to help me

For I'm scared

I'm sorry I'm bad

I growl even when

You're kind for I don't

Know when you'll stop


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7 months ago

New intro post, you can see our old intro posts by looking for "intro post" as a tag on our blog.

Hello, this is mainly my fictionkin account for my ockin, Zuki Shay Hara-Lupo. I am a noncanon MHA/BNHA being/creature. You can call me Zuki, Shay, or Lupo, whatever you prefer!

My canon was divergent from the manga and anime. If you want to know more about my canon, send in an ask, or you can see some things on my original intro posts. The only thing I will mention here is that UA was a college instead of a high school, so my class and I were all 18 at the start of the first year at UA.

In this life, the body is currently 19, so keep that in mind. We don't mind minors interacting. Just know I (the host) am more hesitant to interact with minors myself.

We try and make sure our posts are all tagged well, especially for tw or cw, if you see a post of ours that doesn't have a tw or cw that needs to be tagged tagged, then let us know and we'll fix it.

We are alterhuman/nonhuman in more ways in this life and in my (the host) life as Zuki, so that will also be brought up on our account.

We will not answer/post any donation asks if you want to know why you should be able to find the posts we made about it by using the tag "no donation asks." [Had to make this bigger and bold, so hopefully, people will listen]

We will block for any reason. Especially when it comes to hate.

This is an endo safe space. We will not judge systems/plural beings for their origins. If you don't like this, leave.

We are also disabled, both in this life and in my (the host) life as Zuki, so that will also be on our blog. [In this life for all the ones after this]. We are autistic and ADHD for sure. We have a learning disability and depression as well diagnosed. We believe we might have OCD and PTSD but are not sure yet. I know we have some form of anxiety, but it's not diagnosed. We all (alters) experience these disabilities so yeah.

Because of our disabilities, we need a service dog in this life. [I also had one as Zuki]. We will likely post more about the service dog when we finally get our stuff together and do more about it.

We are plural. The terms that seem to fit our origin right now are; quoigenic, unknown, and cryptogenic.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/hx/xe/ze/he + more neos/xenos) | currently a they/it time for my pronouns

Mostly try to bold edits

Edits from Oct 22 to Nov 7: Added tag things, changed words on some tag things, changed parts of the post, added parts to the post, and edited the sign off on the post.

Edit from Nov 8: Edited signoff tag things.

Edit Nov 11: Edited signoff tag things

Tags that are for specific things;

# howling and barking at the moon - poems/poetry

# howling into the past - past life/kin memories good

# barking into the past - past life/kin memories bad

# woof woof reblog - rebloging alterhuman/nonhuman stuff or adding alterhuman/nonhuman stuff in my reblog

# other reblog - rebloging without alterhuman/nonhuman stuff

# confused howling - questioning system/plural stuff, including origin and alters

# disabled pup - disability things

# meowing in confusion - idk this is just for when I am confused about something

# little pup - sfw age regression things when pup is used to refer to me

# little kitten - sfw age regression things when kitten/kit is used to refer to me

# howling barking and meowing - talking about stuff tag, idk lol

# tri beta noises sfw - sfw misceverse stuff

# tri beta noises nsfw - nsfw misceverse stuff

# multi noises - system/plural things

# multi reblog - system/plural reblogs

# ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿฉต๐Ÿพ๐Ÿชถ - Shay/Zuki Shay Lupo | host and MHA/BNHA kin put together, lol

# ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ”ท๏ธ๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŽจ - Lakey | alter

# ๐Ÿ˜บ๐ŸคŽ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿฅ“ - Declan (The cat face changes based on mood of post) | alter

# ๐Ÿˆ๐Ÿˆโ€โฌ›๐Ÿ—๐Ÿฅ› - Lynix | alter

# ๐Ÿบ๐Ÿฆพ๐Ÿฆฟ๐Ÿค– - Oynx Afton (the middle two are supposed to just represent animatronic shit) | no idea whether this is a kin or an alter, lol

# ๐ŸŸค๐Ÿบ๐Ÿพ๐ŸŒ• - Phalen Lupe (supposed to represent werecanine/werewolf) | either kin or alter

# ๐Ÿ—ฃ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿฆฎ๐Ÿฅฆ - Shirley | alter

# ๐Ÿบ๐ŸŒ ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜ˆ - Vesper Lucian (supposed to represent fallen angel) | now we are kinda thinking this is an alter

# ๐Ÿฉต๐Ÿฆด๐Ÿพ๐Ÿชฝ - Cyan Lupo | RWBY kin

# โ“๏ธโ‰๏ธโ”๏ธ๐Ÿค” - ? (don't know who the fuck this person is, think they are an alter though?)

# ๐Ÿ’ฌ๐Ÿ—ฃโ“๏ธโ”๏ธ- When confused who is fronting


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6 months ago

We have an alter who is a dragon and used to just go by Dragon at first, lol.

It wanted a name that seemed dragon-like, and we looked up names that meant fire (you can put like any meaning you want or even look up something like "names relating to dragons"). Dragon is now going by Den because of two of the names we found that they liked but couldn't decide between, they both ended with "den" so that's how Den got its name.

Other than just giving the advice to look up names and shit, we don't have anything else to say.

Hope this helps at least a little bit.

- Shay (They/it) ๐Ÿพ

- Den (It/they) ๐Ÿฒ | Only talked about, Den doesn't really post

how do i name myself in a way that gives me dragon euphoria help

i don't resonate as much with the name luca now. i kind of like the names jasper and malachite but that might just be steven universe propaganda lmaoo. there's some others i like too that im less sure of

doing name tryouts and stuff

non dragons can answer this too. HOW do you name yourself in a way that gives you creature euphoria ??

maybe i'll decide i actually do want to be called luca. maybe i'll decide idc

How Do I Name Myself In A Way That Gives Me Dragon Euphoria Help

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1 month ago

It's Mother's Day today.

So happy Mother's Day to any being who fits (if a being wants the happy Mother's Day to be for them, it is here).

We don't really like this day very much, the body's mother died like 3 years ago so it's hard. She might not have been that good of a mother but we still love(d) her.

But yeah, Happy Mother's Day.

- Shay ๐Ÿพ


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2 months ago

Yessss!!

Spoiler for Flash under the "keep reading" thing.

However, Frost and Caitlin do end up in different bodies, sadly.

Screenshot of an AI overview that talks about how in The Flash season 7, episode 4 Central City Strong Frost and Caitlin separate into different bodies.

It's honestly kinda disappointing in a way that they do this (at least it is to us) but yeah.

- Shay ๐Ÿพ | & maybe a DC Arrowverse related fictive; Curren ๐Ÿนโšก๏ธ๐Ÿพ

Killer Frost from The Flash is Canonically Plural

Killer Frost From The Flash Is Canonically Plural

For the first two seasons of The Flash, all we see is Caitlin Snow. A Killer Frost appears in season 2 but she's a different Caitlin from an alternate reality. In season 3, it's revealed that the main Caitlin has powers and becomes Killer Frost herself.

It's a little unclear how Killer Frost works in season 3. Is she another personality? Or is the transformation just changing Caitlin's mood to make her angrier and "colder."

Season 4 confirms her as a whole other person though. And it shows Caitlin and Frost having internal conversations with each other just like other systems. Caitlin and Frost gradually learn to accept each other throughout the series, and you can see Caitlin letting Frost regularly front to live her own life in season 6.


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