I Found Out That The Book Store Was Having A Buy Two Get One Free, So I Got Like 6 Lmao

✨Yes I cried at the Nier concert lmao. It’s the one thing I wanted to do. And I felt so much emotions that night it was so nice to just cry to beautiful music. I have a couple of Nier songs that I just cry to, it’s the best.Emi Evans, and J’nique Nicole sound like angels live, I could listen to them forever. The story they told going along with the songs actually tore me up, it was so beautifully sad yet happy in the end.I almost became a crying mess at the end but stopped myself because I didn’t want makeup to go in my eyes lmao. Maybe next time I’ll let it all out.They even played my favorite songs, I wasn’t expecting them to play any of them. But they did, it was even combined with my other favorite song, I had goosebumps, it was so good. 

✨I really loved my outfit. I had like 5 outfit changes before ending up on this one. My rooms were left in such a state when we left. I was going more for the silhouette of the YoRHa uniform, and I really feel like I accomplished that. I honestly had so much fun wearing it, I was running around the building at one point, made me feel like I was actually a YoRHa android lmao.  I wish I had done more with my hair and makeup though. I want to try this outfit again soon, it’s one of my faves. Usually I get really antsy when dressed up, but this night I wanted to wear this outfit a little longer.

✨The concert itself was something else. There was a line wrapping outside the building. It was a sold out concert. It was a bit overwhelming, seeing all these people and thinking that they were all Nier fans. I haven't been to a musical concert for years, so it felt so new to me. I've been to small musical gatherings but nothing of this size. The inside of the building was really pretty too, I wish I got more pictures of it but it was a bit chaotic before the concert began.Once we entered the building, everyone ran to form one line. Me and my sister also went into the line. But I didn’t know what the line was for. Later found out it was the merch line. I never saw the merch table or the beginning of the merch line that whole night. I only saw the merch line and anything converging with the merch line lmao. It was like a horror movie almost, so many lines, it wrapped across the building hall just bending and curving. I think almost everyone was in that line.  I did want a shirt, but it felt like waiting in line to get a shirt would cost missing the concert and I was not doing that.

✨I have to say that the audience were so respectful. Like aside from the lines situation. It was a really chill audience. There was no yelling or pushing, it just felt so quiet even tho we were surrounded by people. This is just my experience that night. I felt bad that I didn’t get any pictures of anyone's cosplay, there was a lot of good ones. I was hella overwhelmed, so I couldn’t talk to anyone lmao.

why do I only have two settings, clean and sad 

Once again I need a baby just for this

Zimmermann ‘Luminosity’ fall 2023

I went out with my cousin. We only went out for coffee and some light walking around. It was fun it’s nice to get out and just walk around the city and not have to run errands. This week was a long one of just me running a around from place to place like a headless bird ugh. My cousin was trying to persuade me to move to New York when she does next year lol. It’s a scary idea for me but I'm not opposed to it. I would have to leave everything behind and start over again, and I'm so scared. But I'm also so tired of my current life it’s so draining and I feel so alone. Plus I have no idea what I would be doing in NYC, career wise. 2024 as a whole has been such a weird year for me. I realized that I had been doing almost everything wrong my whole life and it’s tearing me up inside. Saving money wrong. Making friends wrong. Eating wrong. Doing my hair wrong. Just overall living wrong lol. Sigh I'm trying to not be so hard on myself. Trying to convince myself that 2024 can be the beginning of something good. But it all  just feels painful. Anyway on to less depressing stuff. We saw a lot of fun stuff today, a lot of cute doggies, I should of took pics of them. I went to this interesting thrift shop, at least I think it was, everything was Hella expensive. They had this really cool painting in the back. And these giant amazing lamps, it was so cool. I can only dream of owning it. After  that we shopped for books, I'm trying to get all of dungeon meshi. I wanted to buy them all at once but buying them individually is fun too. I love the covers so much. It still amazes me how much I've come to love dungeon meshi, all thanks to my sister lol. It’s not a series I would usually get into, because I'm so picky sob. It’s probably gonna be a long lasting favorite for me.  Then we went to this house of oddities type of place, I forgot to get the store name. It was really cool but the inside smelt so bad like death lmao. There was a large coffin in the front of the store. I couldn’t stop taking pictures of everything I must of been annoying lmao. They had some really cool bug taxidermy frames, they were so pricey lol. But I would of loved to have some. Maybe in my future home.

“Be weird. Be random. Be who you are. Because you never know who would love the person you hide.”

— C.S. Lewis

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