I Went Out With My Cousin. We Only Went Out For Coffee And Some Light Walking Around. It Was Fun It’s
I went out with my cousin. We only went out for coffee and some light walking around. It was fun it’s nice to get out and just walk around the city and not have to run errands. This week was a long one of just me running a around from place to place like a headless bird ugh. My cousin was trying to persuade me to move to New York when she does next year lol. It’s a scary idea for me but I'm not opposed to it. I would have to leave everything behind and start over again, and I'm so scared. But I'm also so tired of my current life it’s so draining and I feel so alone. Plus I have no idea what I would be doing in NYC, career wise. 2024 as a whole has been such a weird year for me. I realized that I had been doing almost everything wrong my whole life and it’s tearing me up inside. Saving money wrong. Making friends wrong. Eating wrong. Doing my hair wrong. Just overall living wrong lol. Sigh I'm trying to not be so hard on myself. Trying to convince myself that 2024 can be the beginning of something good. But it all just feels painful. Anyway on to less depressing stuff. We saw a lot of fun stuff today, a lot of cute doggies, I should of took pics of them. I went to this interesting thrift shop, at least I think it was, everything was Hella expensive. They had this really cool painting in the back. And these giant amazing lamps, it was so cool. I can only dream of owning it. After that we shopped for books, I'm trying to get all of dungeon meshi. I wanted to buy them all at once but buying them individually is fun too. I love the covers so much. It still amazes me how much I've come to love dungeon meshi, all thanks to my sister lol. It’s not a series I would usually get into, because I'm so picky sob. It’s probably gonna be a long lasting favorite for me. Then we went to this house of oddities type of place, I forgot to get the store name. It was really cool but the inside smelt so bad like death lmao. There was a large coffin in the front of the store. I couldn’t stop taking pictures of everything I must of been annoying lmao. They had some really cool bug taxidermy frames, they were so pricey lol. But I would of loved to have some. Maybe in my future home.
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Finally got Ava's Demon,the covers are so beautiful and the ends are gold. It reminds of this old fairytale book i had when I was a kid.I already finished both books lol. It was so good. I love the prints so much, I don't have much wall space anymore but I want to squeeze them in.
“The cost of not following your heart is spending the rest of your life wishing you had.”
— Unknown
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PONYO 「崖の上のポニョ」 (2008), dir. Hayao Miyazaki
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I've been trying to stay off of social media so I can focus on other things. So last night I logged out and stayed off. But afterward I just sat in my seat thinking about having a better future. Then I got really sad like, this is my life, why is it so horrible. Why aren’t I fixing it. I always get these feeling out of the blue, but usually its like once a year. But lately it’s been every couple of months.
Then I realized that doom scrolling literally distracts me from my sadness lmao. Cause I am not usually like this, usually I’m on twitter looking for something to make me laugh or yt.
But when I logged off, I sat in silence wondering what to do next. My options were to either go to bed or continue sitting there.
I convinced myself to read Dungeon Meshi. I’m on book 11. It was a hard read honestly. Maybe it was because of the state of my emotion but I was not having a fun time reading it, and I like reading conflict.
But I got to this page in the book where Marcille is expressing how she didn’t have any good memories in the dungeon and if only she had given up, she wouldn’t have to suffer through the bad experiences. But in the next page she says there’s no way I could just give up.
And wow….I felt that lol. I feel like I feel it almost everyday.
I don’t want to get into details about it because I am emotionally drained right now.
I just wanted to remember these pages, and express some love for Dungeon Meshi. Lmao I never thought I would come to love it so much. A series I would have never picked up by myself probably because I am super picky lol. I want to get all the books so I can reread it and relish all the amazing line work and compositions.
This part felt so real. I can feel the love and care Marcille has for her comrades. That shes drops all her resolve and standards to protect her friends and they do the same for her. Seeing the Dungeon Meshi crew take care of each other makes me so jealous sometimes but it’s also so sweet. I can feel the love, it oozes.
( Nothing without ) PAIN, Helena Minginowicz
Can't stop acquiring stickers 😆. now I just want to decorate everything in my room
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