Well It Was Nice To Draw The Like Two Things I Drew, And Now My Head Is Fuzzy

ORV gives you a main character who is so detached and suicidal and never gets better

But more importantly it gives you all the people who would tear apart reality itself for one more chance to be with him

As someone who has struggled with depersonalisation and derealization and suicidal ideation for pretty much my entire life this book, even when deeply painful, is the most uplifting and convincing DO NOT KILL YOURSELF treatise I have ever read

Because it's easy to convince yourself that no one will miss you

That no one actually cares about you, because how could they? You're a monster

That you only have worth in what you can give

But then you see Kim Dokja who believes about himself all the worst things you have thought about yourself and who has arguably done worst things then you could ever do...and you see how he doesn't see the love and care and devotion that is right in front of his face

You are begging him to stop and see it

To recognise that he doesn't have to do everything alone

That he is loved so so deeply

And maybe, just maybe you can get yourself to open your eyes. Or just believe that maybe you're just as blind as Kim Dokja.

I know some people will see this book as despairing or that the message is that you can never actually cross that divide. But for me it's a push to say you can cross it.

That there are people in this world waiting for you to extend your hand and they will hold you close and never let you go

It's hope in the despair

At least for me

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West: Whenever I write something down I'm more likely to forget it.

Me: West you're a WRITER?????

West: look man

Do you want to talk about the existential crisis you seem to be having?

I have bones of steel and nerves of fiber glass, meaning you poking me lets you win the battle but breaking my bones is near impossible idk if this means I win the war or I’m going to die a painful death via getting the back of my shoulder blades poked.

AYO This Local Bisexual may have figured out makeup

This a a reminder to not fall victim to the sunk-cost fallacy. Just because you invested time and energy into something, does not mean you should indefinitely waste more time and energy on it, if you decide it’s not what you want anymore. This goes for anything, from books, to relationships, to jobs, to hobbies, etc.

If it’s not serving you anymore, move on.

I get to see my best friend tomorrroooooooowww!!!!!!!!!!

Convention is next week and im so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love the random burst of energy I get at the end of a depression episode. It's like a little treat

This is why I don’t tell 99% people im bisexual