ORV gives you a main character who is so detached and suicidal and never gets better
But more importantly it gives you all the people who would tear apart reality itself for one more chance to be with him
As someone who has struggled with depersonalisation and derealization and suicidal ideation for pretty much my entire life this book, even when deeply painful, is the most uplifting and convincing DO NOT KILL YOURSELF treatise I have ever read
Because it's easy to convince yourself that no one will miss you
That no one actually cares about you, because how could they? You're a monster
That you only have worth in what you can give
But then you see Kim Dokja who believes about himself all the worst things you have thought about yourself and who has arguably done worst things then you could ever do...and you see how he doesn't see the love and care and devotion that is right in front of his face
You are begging him to stop and see it
To recognise that he doesn't have to do everything alone
That he is loved so so deeply
And maybe, just maybe you can get yourself to open your eyes. Or just believe that maybe you're just as blind as Kim Dokja.
I know some people will see this book as despairing or that the message is that you can never actually cross that divide. But for me it's a push to say you can cross it.
That there are people in this world waiting for you to extend your hand and they will hold you close and never let you go
It's hope in the despair
At least for me
Need to draw somw fluffy stuff to counteract my brain being dramatic again.
wonder what ships I should draw
XD ive got too many ships in different fandoms to keep track of
They are coming for your legs again.
Every time I sneeze my cat wants to fight me
it IS super funny that orv starts out like "hoo hee i'm just a normal self-inserty power fantasy protagonist! my name is literally 'reader!' just an office worker turned action hero you can project onto slash look up to 🥰" and then very quickly shows that 1. no the fuck he isn't and 2. the story is a detailed interrogation of the nature of self-insert escapist power fantasy. and then the endgame twist that hits you like an emotional freight train is that orv is, in fact, actually very much a self-insert story about how you 🫵 are deeply loved and your survival matters so much that this book was written just to help you find reasons to live. idiot.
kinda makes you wonder about what life is and how it would have been effected if you remembered where you were going with a sentence like the butterfly effect just fucks everyone because we all want to know what happens but it’s just like nah son this butterfly didn’t fart so no one gets to know the awesomeness of the sentence you were about to spew like some sick fires from a sweet rhyme that wanted to be a song but instead became a sick ass rap but still has an inferiority complex because it never got to be what it wanted to.
hey dragon dan heng enjoyers here’s some fanart for yall 😩💥💥💥
Ressurected because of the Kaeya news
Anyways its a redraw
In other news another printmaker liked one of my Intaglio prints i uploaded on insta, I don't know this person but holyshit it felt so good to have another artist especially one I don't know like my work!!!!!!!
I love the random burst of energy I get at the end of a depression episode. It's like a little treat
So a free tool called GLAZE has been developed that allows artists to cloak their artwork so it can't be mimicked by AI art tools.
AI art bros are big mad about it.
Drawing a silly banner for artfight
Frost - She/They - 21 - Idk anymore man - I post art sometimes!
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