The Only Way John Can Beat Dirk In Lazer Tag.

hey if ur lgbtq rb this with all ur past labels nd the one u use now

i’ll go first straight, bi, pan, demi, then lesbian

ORV gives you a main character who is so detached and suicidal and never gets better

But more importantly it gives you all the people who would tear apart reality itself for one more chance to be with him

As someone who has struggled with depersonalisation and derealization and suicidal ideation for pretty much my entire life this book, even when deeply painful, is the most uplifting and convincing DO NOT KILL YOURSELF treatise I have ever read

Because it's easy to convince yourself that no one will miss you

That no one actually cares about you, because how could they? You're a monster

That you only have worth in what you can give

But then you see Kim Dokja who believes about himself all the worst things you have thought about yourself and who has arguably done worst things then you could ever do...and you see how he doesn't see the love and care and devotion that is right in front of his face

You are begging him to stop and see it

To recognise that he doesn't have to do everything alone

That he is loved so so deeply

And maybe, just maybe you can get yourself to open your eyes. Or just believe that maybe you're just as blind as Kim Dokja.

I know some people will see this book as despairing or that the message is that you can never actually cross that divide. But for me it's a push to say you can cross it.

That there are people in this world waiting for you to extend your hand and they will hold you close and never let you go

It's hope in the despair

At least for me

Need to draw somw fluffy stuff to counteract my brain being dramatic again.

wonder what ships I should draw

XD ive got too many ships in different fandoms to keep track of

winter snuggles c:

Nai choosing to call himself Millions Knives as a 6 year old teenager and then refusing to change it for a 150 years despite how incredibly mockable it is is what I call commitment to the bit

cpr when 🤨

i can’t wait for THIS etymology lesson with the aliens

Pride chibi commission for AceSkunker on furaffinity