I Think Stuart Is John’s True Soulmate—the Tender Side Of His Love. Not Paul.

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Can I answer John Lennon to this question?

If I had the chance to spend a day with John, if I didn't die of stalking in front of this great figure, and if I had the courage, I would thank him for everything, for everything he did, with the Beatles, with his personality, with his music. Thank you for all the lives he saved (including mine), for all the hope he gave to an entire generation, and that hope still lives on.

Thank you for all the music that lived during the Beatles and after.

I think we would spend the day walking while he hummed something, showing me the places he loved, and telling an anecdote about every little detail.

He would talk to me about Paul, even asking me if I wanted to go see him (so he could go see him at the same time).

He would play guitar in a corner of the park, his favorite.

I don't know why, but I imagine him taking me out for chocolate ice cream, or whatever it is; his favorite thing to do is eat the end of the ice cream cone.

I imagine him always smiling, always making a joke, and not taking things too seriously. Getting angry when people throw their cans on the ground while he flicks his cigarette butt onto the grass in the park.

He would say kind things to me, tender words, but he wouldn't be happy if I said negative things about myself. He would say that everyone is beautiful in their own way, and that those who don't agree with that should go to hell.

I imagine him as gentle but sometimes full of anger at the world. I imagine him doing simple things but always reasoning in complicated ways.

I don't know what he would have been like now if he had been lucky enough to still be here, but one thing is for sure, I miss him.

rough night at the cavern club

My thoughts on why I think Paul had a preference for men - 

As I discussed in an earlier post, as a young teen Paul found himself attracted to musical theater, which had a very strong gay element attached to it. As he put it, “I used to hang around stage doors, I was a bit of a Stage-Door Johnny. I was so fascinated by all of that stuff. I loved it. I just wanted to be near it. I hung around the stage doors, got to meet the Crew Cuts. I sort of wanted it, wanted it bad.”

He can remember every minute detail from the first time he met John, from the smell of his beery breath, to the feel of John putting his arms around his shoulders. Immediately after meeting this boy, Paul already started planning a life-long partnership with him, figured out how to combine their names, and was doodling pictures of him in his school workbook. This to me is the behavior of a boy who has already come to terms with his attraction to boys, not someone who’s confused, in denial, or unaware of his feelings.

Two of his earliest songs have themes of a forbidden, risky love. At fourteen, he described love as “suicide” and at 15 he’s promising someone he just met that he’ll love them “in spite of all the danger.” 

When he started dating girls, he would pick out all of their outfits and would instruct them on how to style their hair. Yes, this could be interpreted as Paul just wanting his girlfriend to look like Brigitte Bardot, but to me it sounds a lot like something a stereotypical “gay best friend” would do.

He and John went to The Dart, a gay club, together. This, to me, diminishes the common belief around here that Paul thought of himself as “only gay for John” and not actually queer. The fact that he regularly hung out at a gay club implies that Paul felt that he was no different than all of the other gay men there.

Then when the Beatles went to Hamburg, Tony Barrow remembers how he thought Paul was gay “for months.” If Paul was truly sleeping with as many girls in Hamburg as he claimed, why did it take Tony so long to find out that he wasn’t gay?

The fact that Paul was known to use his “bedroom eyes” and “sex appeal” to get what he wanted from Brian implies that this isn’t Paul’s first time flirting with a man in my opinion.

If you trust Simon Napier-Bell’s account, Brian revealed to him that the Beatles had “other boyfriends,” implying someone not within the band. So this could suggest that Paul was casually dating men other than John during his time in the Beatles.

Mid-sixties, Paul once again deliberately placed himself in the artsy gay crowd of London. I find it interesting to say the least that Paul, age fourteen on, has taken every opportunity possible to surround himself with a group of other gay men. First it was the theater, then beatniks, now Swinging London. 

When John dumped Paul in the summer of 1968, Paul seemed to genuinely be contemplating living the rest of his life as a gay man. When he briefly dated Francie Schwartz, he was said to be going off to gay clubs in the middle of the night. In Francie’s book “Body Count,” she recounts a conversation with Billy Lancaster where he asked her, “Really, what’s Paul like?  I heard he was gay.” to which Francie replied, “He might have gone that way but he didn’t.  He didn’t really dig fucking all that much if that’s any kind of an answer.“

And the emotional intensity of Paul’s breakup with John in itself speaks volumes about how Paul values his relationships with men significantly more than the ones he had with women.

Or in a 1970s Tom Snyder interview, Paul was talking about his days as a Beatles, being able to have any one he wanted. He said, “When you’re that age, that’s the thing to do. You’re looking for girls or whatever turns you on.” When Tom asked what the alternative to girls would be, Paul told him “Boys.”

And none of this even touches all of the crazy suggestive quotes and things regarding him and John’s relationship, like when Paul literally said that he and John were one of the first men to come out openly when homosexuality was still illegal (!!!)

I don’t know…there’s probably a lot more I’m forgetting right now but you get the point 

(also this is all purely speculation so please don’t try to come for me)

an ode to Magical Mystery Tour! I love this album and its wonderful insane movie so so so much

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it's fucked up and insane that I'll never get to have a freaky freudian thing going on with teddy boy john lennon

This is 10000% canon I did not make it up.

It's kinda funny when people draw John without lashes because that man had lashes longer than a camel

Can you recommended fanfics with Dom Paul please?

Okay, here are some of my own: 

Understanding 

Father’s Day (daddy-kink)

Control (drabble)

Who’s Your Daddy, Johnny Boy (daddy-kink)

Rough, Biting, Scratch (not the whole sex-scene, sorry) 

Shy (not kinky, just top-Paul. It’s actually really sweet and fluffy, but it’s still top!Paul so…)

Over the Desk (again, not the whole sex-scene…)

Naked/Dressed (not very dom/sub, but still top!Paul)

Clothed Getting Off (not that dom/sub, but it’s close)

Here are some more that have Dom Paul, but it’s McHarrison: 

Back Alley Wall

Sore Wrists 

Also one Paul/Ringo fic:

Good Boy, Ringo

Here are some other McLennon fics with Dom Paul that aren’t mine:

James 

Discipline 

That’s all I know of. There aren’t that many Top!Paul fics, and even less with Dom Paul. At least you’ve got a couple now. If anyone else knows of one, let me know! <3

Imagine being insecure John Lennon gaining a little tiny bit of weight being constantly fatshamed by the press for it and a then a few years later seeing Paul McCartney gaining weight and all he gets is fat ass

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