To Do Today 9/28/24
I was supposed to work a long double shift today at my normal job and then a kinda side job task that involves talking to a ton of people and being out late at night. I've decided I'm going to tell my bosses I can't do it, because the anxiety I've felt about doing it has made me thrown up already π
so here's the stuff I am going to do today:
pre lab 24 chemistry
pre lab 25 chemistry
chemistry lecture quiz
catch up on chem lecture notes
catch up on psyc lecture notes
catch up on accounting lecture notes
complete other intro to business assignments
study japanese
study for TEAS exam
It sounds like a lot, but honestly, it should not take me all night to do all these things so I'll be fine, as long as I get then done!
see you in the update later, lovelies π©·
Daily Check-in: September 9th, 2024 π
This weekend was rough. My grandma passed away and I found out at the end of a 13 hour work shift, so it made for a difficult night to say the least. But today was a decent day. Got lots of steps and had an overall pretty good day.
π What I Accomplished
completed lab 19 pre lab for chemistry
complete 8/10 assignments for my intro to business class
took a nap
did my morning and night skincare
journaled in the morning
filled out my planner for the week
booked a tattoo appointment for October
π¨ Random Stuff From The Day
got a ride to and from lab with one of my roommates and found out she's actually a giant sweetheart, her and I are both just two awkward people
ordered taco bell for dinner cause why not
need to start taking creatine again, but I've stopped working out cause life. need to get back to it
am going to pull extra hours at work cause I definitely wanna make sure I can pay for my tattoo and all my bills
forgot to take my meds, whoops
π Stuff For Tuesday, Sept 10th
go to accounting class
complete more homework
study japanese
morning + night skincare
work a ~8 hour shift
go to the gym with my friend after work
have a good day <3
that's all for yesterday. not much to speak on for the day tbh but it was a good day. I definitely didn't do as much as I had wanted but that's okay, cause life happens.
til next time lovelies π©·
Where Have I Been?
hello lovelies. so, I started the challenege, did one day, and all of a sudden I feel off the face of the earth. I fell into a bit of a depression, and while I've managed to pull myself out, life has been busy busy busy! This is probably the 2nd busiest week of the year (the 1st will be in August, and you'll find out why). Here's an update on life:
I fly to Colorado on the 16th, so....under 5 days now. I haven't packed or anything yet, but I plan on doing that either tomorrow or Thursday. And I have to clean and prepack for when I return because....
I signed a new lease for a new place to live! I'll have roommates who I haven't met yet (I'm taking over someone lease, actually), but my lease starts August 18th. I return from Colorado on the 14th of August, so....I'm going to be very busy once I return.
I decided to call it quits on getting a 2nd job. It's going to mess up the schedule with my first job, and it would only make me 200$ more a month, which I'm not worried about missing our on since I'll still sell stuff on depop once I return from Colorado and I'm going full time at my current job.
I've gone out to lunch with my dad a few times as well, it's been really nice hanging out with him and spending time with my dad. I lucked out in the dad department and spending time with him is one of my favorite things!
I've been debating going to San Fransisco in October for an XG concert, but I don't know if I'll have the money or ability to anymore. (thank you new apartment and all those fees and expenses!)
my anxiety has been terrible. I haven't changed anything about what I do, but I did squish a lot of anxiety inducing things into the span of two weeks, which....my bad on that. Now I know, don't do that to myself.
I bought new makeup! The juvias place bronzer, charlotte tillbury setting spray, nyx eyebrow stuff, and blush, ughhh I love buying new makeup, I just wish it didn't cost money!
I've gotten better at doing my makeup! I've had people not even notice I'm wearing it because it looks natural despite being like, a full face! Thank you perfect color matches on my skin tint, foundation, and concealors!
I went to two movies with a friend. We saw the new Strangers: Chapter One and the Planet of the Apes movie. Both were definitely good, in my opinion.
I now have to plan with my boyfriend for when he needs to come down here and get his stuff and work out changing the utilities to our roommates name since I'm leaving. I don't feel like it should be my job to coordinate that, but oh well. I guess it's too hard for him and his best friend (my roommate) to call each other for once?? Ugh, men get on my nerves sometimes.
I need to ask my dad and a friend to help me move upon my return, which also means I won't be able to work that weekend, which kind of sucks.
I need to declutter my room and start throwing away things I don't want or need anymore this week to make it easier on myself when I return from Colorado but hahaha I procrastinate a lot.
I'm stressed about paying rent. I'll have to pay rent for here and rent/fees for the new place before august and then September's rent for the new place, and my new rent is about double what I pay now. so yayy, adulting and finances. I don't feel qualified to be an adult, but here I am, age 21, an adult.
That's about it for now! Lots of stress, lots of anxiety, lots of stuff happening super close together. But that's life, I guess. Forgive me for my absence from my blogs. I also stopped studying spanish for now, and my routines are non-existent. Colorado will change that, tho, for sure. I do plan on updating a little more frequently once things settle down when I'm in Colorado. but for now, it'll be kinda here and there with my posting.
thank you for all the patience and kindness, lovelies. til next time π©·
Daily Check-in: April 8, 2024 π
Monday was a decently good day for me. Me and my boyfriend had to sort out some stuff after arguing Sunday night but everything is good now, work had went amazing, and I got a lot done. I know everyone hates Mondays but I genuinely look forward to them.
π©· What I Accomplished:
assigned reading quiz for psyc
chemistry homework
chemistry extended lab report (finally got my notebook back)
2 medical terminology lectures
medical terminology flashcards
medical terminology self + timed test
meeting with a financial aid advisor
submitted my application for a 2nd job on campus
prepped myself amazing at work
studied Spanish
made a study plan for chemistry for the rest of the semester
π©· Good Things That Happened:
got to see my dad for a short bit
work went super good and I finished very quickly
got to zoom call my boyfriend and it went well
started the first episode of Parasyte The Grey on Netflix and in already hooked
got my lab notebook back from my friend
was able to leave my study room early due to lack of stuff to do
have more space in my room now cause my dad took a bunch of stuff I needed to get rid of
drank half a gallon of water total (I never drink that mih even tho realistically I need more water then that daily)
π©· What Could've Gone Better:
ate too much and didn't eat the healthiest, but that's okay because everyday is a new day and a new chance to make some good choices
could've spent more time the past weeks looking at the stuff for my lab report so I would've gotten more right
got my chem exam back and I don't think I did as well as I hoped, but the professor hasn't posted grades yet so idk
realized I definitely need to study chemistry more then I thought
So, Monday was definitely a good day overall. I was surprised by how well work went and how everything felt but not mad about it at all! I love having good days! Let's hope Tuesdays just as good <3
btw, check out my depop shop if you get the chance, will be uploading more stuff soon!
til next time lovelies π©·
π Song of The Day:
ILLIT -- Magnetic
When I say this song has been on repeat....I mean it's been on REPEAT. such a catchy song, I love the Kpop genre so much <3333
Day 1 - 20 Day Challenge
so I had to push the start date of the challenge to Wednesday the 29th. I was sick as of Monday and Tuesday, and even on Wednesday night, I got really ill, which I'm still not sure of what caused it, but it was not a good time. There's a couple things I didn't do, but I'd say I'm off to a good start!
βοΈ Morning Non Negotiables
low impact youtube workout βοΈ
morning journaling routine β οΈ
morning hygiene β οΈ
β οΈ Daily Non Negotiables
study Spanish 10+ minutes β οΈ (12min)
read 10 pages of a self help book β οΈ (10pgs)
walked 3k to 5k steps βοΈ (2,504steps)
βοΈ Night Routine Non Negotiables
night time hygiene β οΈ
night time journaling β οΈ
set up for next day β οΈ
π Rules
did not wake up at my normal time, accidentally slept in til 8am but was asleep by 1030pm
only had 2 cups of coffee, both before noon. this was hard to do, because I'm so used to having coffee around 3pm, and having 4 cups in a day
drank ~50oz of water if I had to guesstimate. need to do better about that
I didn't get in as many steps as I wanted. it's too hot to go outside, I wasn't feeling well near the end of the day and and I also woke up at 8 am when my goal was 5am, so I ended up skipping the workout. I'm not sure if I would count those as valid reasons or excuses, but those are what happened. I told myself I was going to be honest with this challenge. But it was still a pretty good start!
π§ Song of the Day: Woke Up - XG
til next time lovelies π©·
Mini Update & Check-in: September 24th, 2023 π
Hi my lovelies!
I haven't posted in a little over a week, a week and a halfish I think? I have been so busy with work, school, my mentorships, and studying Japanese all while being informed of a trip to see my boyfriend in about 2 weeks, trying to sleep more then 5 hours a night, and incorporating more self care into my routine. I've been a little spread thin.
I had about 5 crying breakdowns in the last 2.5 weeks due to stress and exhaustion and overwhelm, but after this week, everything should calm down and go back to normal (at least I hope?)
Here's some updates on my life:
I've been consistently studying Japanese on both duolingo and busuu, with the occasional use of renshuu as a tool. I created a study plan for using Genki I and have a list of goals for October that I will post by the end of the week! I actually bought a year of busuu premium cause I really like the app!
I have a presentation for my Food Fundamentals class due Tuesday by 2pm and its Sunday night and I haven't started because I'm so busy. But the threat of the dealine will push me into gear, so at the very least I know I'll get it done.
I get to go see my boyfriend in 2 weeks! His mom bought my flight tickets for there and back, and I get to see him for 4 days. I haven't seen him in 3 months in person, so I am incredibly excited! + it'll be a mini vacation from work and kinda from school, too, at least from my Monday and Tuesday classes.
I have been the most moody and irritable that I've been in a while due to my hormones being messed up (thank you, depo shot window for opening and reminding me to order my depo meds!), lack of sleep, overconsumption of caffiene, and a minor neglect of my mental health
I do see all the lovely things you guys send to my inbox, and I see everything I get tagged in. I apologize for not responding, I've been busy, and I honestly get so awkward with not knowing how to respond or what to say. But I am not ignoring you all, and I am so grateful for how kind and sweet you all have been. It makes my day every time I check my tumlr and see new things I've been sent. You all are so amazing and kind, and I am so very thankful for all the support and encouragement you guys send!
So that's just a little snippet of my life recently. I promise I will start updating a bit more regularly this week once things calm down. I miss posting my updates and my goals and sharing my thoughts with all of you. This blog has given me such a safe space to be my authentic self, and I'm so extremely grateful for this community and all 500+ of you guys!!
I think I'll post an update for Monday the 25th and Tuesday the 26th combined, and then I'll do each day following separately (that's my goal for now). I'm also going to be sharing my *tentstive* Japanese study schedule using Genki I textbook and workbook, my Japanese goals for the month of October, and I'm still working on that stationery review list as well!!
Thank you all!!! I love you guys so much π
Til next time lovelies!! π©·
Day 21 - 90 Day Challenge π
Yesterday (Tuesday) was also a pretty decent day, despite some small neighborhood stray dogs trying to attack me. Animal control snever showed up, so unfortunately, I have to call them again because I have some trauma with stray dogs and can't handle almost being attacked like that.
πββοΈ Physical Health
35 minute back and biceps workout in the gym
10 minutes on the treadmill, 3 speed, 2 Incline
walked to and from campus
walked over 8k steps
looked everything I ate in my food journal
π§ Mental Health
took my morning medications
β₯οΈ Emotional Health
talked to my therapist just a little bit due to my insurance expiring keeping us from having a real conversation
π Intellectual Health
complete health and sport finals week discussion post
completed life cycle nutrition final exam
turned in my final group presentation for my cooking class
booked a study room for today to work on my final comprehensive video for my cooking class
π Adulting
washed my towels and some miscellaneous clothes
planned some more Christmas gift ideas (gotta hit up target, ross, and marshalls soon)
zoom called my boyfriend
π₯° Self Love/Care
night time skincare (full routine)
washed my hair
planned out makeup, hair and outfit for today
went to bed at 9pm
I have my last final today and then after I turn in that video, I'll have completed my coursework for the semester and I honestly cannot wait to be done. I need these upcoming 6 weeks to recharge, honestly. Today my goals are to take my final, work on my final video, and make it through my 8 hour work shift tonight.
til next tie lovelies π©·
always always always π
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November Language Goals π
I did not stick to my October goals at all as I began picking up more hours at work, Iβm going to the gym again, and Iβm swamped with homework. but I began my language tracker/language bullet journal and Iβm feeling more hopeful about my ability to stick with it while juggling other responsibilities. Some of them are the same as Octobers but thatβs due to not having met those goals. Hereβs to a better month!
Complete Genki I Lesson 1 + Lesson 2
Maintain a 30 day Busuu streak
Maintain a 30 day Duolingo streak
Complete up to OR more than Lesson 10 in Level 1 on Kanji App
Use Renshuu for Kana review once a week
Review Ankidroid flashcards twice a week
Complete a weekly reflection and a weekly vocab list in bullet journal
Use LingQ once a week, writing all unknown words in vocabulary notebook
Use Kana writing practice books at least once a week
Complete Bungou Stray Dogs Season 4
I want this to be fun and not a chore. I want to enjoy the learning process. I want to be successful. I set a lot of goals and if I can even only achieve half, thatβs still a lot that Iβve done! I believe in myself. Iβve got this!
Ps. I will start updating more frequently, probably a couple times a week with some life updates or fun things I want to share! Updating daily was way too difficult so maybe Iβll do an every two or three day update, that might be more manageable.
til next time lovelies! π©·π€
Daily Check-in: April 16, 2024 π
Tuesday did indeed get better! I got so much done despite not getting out of bed until 630am (I'm usually up by 530am), and I was so tired, but I'm proud of myself.
π©· What I Accomplished:
completed the 11 minute wake up yoga by Yoga with Adriene
did the 16 minute yoga for flexibility by Yoga with Adriene
did my morning and night time skincare + showered after work before going to bed
worked a ~7.5 hour shift
completed my Spanish study tasks
took a quiz in my supplemental chem class and got 3rd place
took notes on acids and bases in chemistry
π©· Good Things That Happened:
got an email from the Colorado work manager confirming some details about working this summer!! super excited!!!
me and my boyfriend talked some things out and things are looking up
got to work a couple hours with my favorite supervisor
had a really good day at work
got out of work by 10pm
π©· What Could've Been Better:
did not eat very well (the dining hall was celebrating national mushroom day, and I'm allergic to mushrooms, so I bought chick fil a. and my breakfast was a quickly eaten bowl of pasta)
did not drink enough water, but I am working on that!
didn't study as much as I could've
didn't check in with my accountability buddies before the end of day
still haven't video called woth my boyfriend since Thursday of last week
π Stuff For Wednesday:
email psyc doc to move appointment to zoom
print papers before meeting with the director of my 1st degree major program
eat a good breakfast
study chemistry for a bit longer
complete lab report, pre lab quiz, and pre lab prep
study Spanish + complete my study tasks
wash my laundry
Here's to hopefully having a happy Wednesday! I wish you all the same π
til next time lovelies π©·
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π Song of The Day
BTS - House of Cards
This song was hitting all the right spots when I was closing at work. I forget how amazing it is until I hear it and ughhh how beautiful
Colorado Goals π
I've been in Colorado for 2 weeks, meaning I have 6 weeks left! Here are some of the goals I hope to achieve while here, now that I have a better understanding of my time and what activities I want to do out here!
consistent workout routine; minimum 3 days a week
minimum of 8k steps a day
morning and night gratitude journaling
morning and night skincare
use the hot tub once a week
go hiking at least once
start studying languages again (Spanish + Japanese)
cut back on my caffiene consumption, 1 cup a day maximum
try some new restaurants if financially possible
pay off rent and fees for upcoming move + current place I live back home
go to the hot springs (maybe....they kinda scare me)
maybe try a workout class in town (pilates, yoga, etc)
that's all I can think of for now! I will update thus list if anything pops up in my head for while I'm here! I'm only here until August 14th, and it's about to be July! How crazy!! I can't believe I've been here 2 weeks. It's seriously flown by. Honestly timento buckle down and do some new things!
til next time lovelies π©·