Thinking Real Hard About The “you, I'd Rather You Just Stop Existing” In Patchwork Staccato. Thinking

Akutagawa in fanfictions: Has a complexion as white and soft as delicate porcelain. His hair twirls in the most pretty way making him look always soft and composed. His small lips are candid and soft. His long black eyelashes appear perfect at any hour of the day. His eyes have the same color of the moon and the same warmth of the sun. He wears a nice scent of moss, perhaps pine

Akutagawa in my mind: Hasn't seen sleep in two months. His eyes are hollow and bloodshot and his skin is gray and coarse and stretched on his face making it look close to a skull. His lips are chapped. His pupils are black and bottomless. His hair is scruffy, untamed and uneaven and is likely to have never met an hairbrush. Probably stinks. Definitely stinks. Overall looks like a rabid dog

Just saw a post on Pinterest asking “if Fyodor is killed by a pregnant woman does he become mpreg” and now I need the tumblr bsd community to read those words too.

atsushi: :(

akutagawa: do not make that foolish face jinko

atsushi, sighing: it's just--

akutagawa: i did not ask

atsushi, ignoring him: its just that my favorite show got canceled

akutagawa: just like you to be distraught over such a foolish thing

*later*

akutagawa, watching atsushi's favorite show on 3x speed on one laptop and frantically writing enough fanfics to take the 3 digit fandom to 4 digits on the other laptop:

I was chatting with my on friend ( who hasn't played ace attorney ) about Edgeworth and the convo went from what kind of fucking last name is that to I bet his dad is hot and I giggled maliciously as I told them I'll send them a pic.

" Yea, I bet "

fic where its canonverse but atsushi has a youtube channel where he sings songs but he writes the songs himself or with his friends and theyre always about his personal life and his subscribers are trying to figure out what the fuck is going on in his life from said songs

everything in this life is temporary. except that fandom hyperfixation from when you were 14. that thang will be with you forever there's no escaping.

gin gin gin