Hello, I Just Want To Say Thank You For Existing, I Need Positivity In My Life As A Closeted Proshipper

Hey luvs, if anyone wants to rant to me about anything then my asks are always open <3 I hope youre all well, just know you deserve as much love as anyone else and are genuinely some of the nicest people ive met, take care :) ♡♡♡

N0nshar1ng w/ Ca1eb n Jum1n as 1f theyd ever wanna be w/ s0me1 l1ke y0u in the f1rst p1ace hell0 ( ¬‎ ࡇ,¬ )

I'm unsure of if you have an issue because I'm non-sharing with them or if it's because I'm proship but whatever issue you have with me you can always just block me. I'm going to assume the issue is the non-sharing aspect since you pointed that out, I feel like if it were a proship issue you'd have said this about all of my f/os lol, but I have no ill will in any way shape or form towards others who selfship with them. I support their relationship existing I just don't want to see it. I hold no attraction to real people, I'm just attracted to fictional characters or whatever so Jumin and Caleb feel like a real relationship to me if you get what I mean. I've loved Jumin since mysmes first came out (2016, almost 9 years now, of course there's an attachment) and Caleb just hit me hard even before he came out as a love interest, so I mean. Yeah. I think they want to be with me 😭 But it's not like a selfshipper needs to have some deeper reason for being non-sharing, if they're non-sharing then they're non-sharing and that's that. If you're uncomfortable with that you can always block them. Have a good day/night anon.

Guyssss I got Caleb's new myth already I'm so happy 😭 I had to spend like ten dollars but I'd consider that pretty lucky considering how my luck usually is in LADS. Auhhh <3

Here it is :))

It's boring and messy be warned lolol, i'll add it to my pinned rq

Hi lazy selfship doodle because I can't sleep 😭 Why does Caleb look so mad

Caleb and I as kiddos :D my hair used to be longer as a kid now I keep cutting it 😭

Hello may I gush to you? I'm going to do it anyway. This is something I wanna talk about and a confusing situation that I feel really bad about so-

So uh. My main ship, in any fandom, is sebaciel (Sebastian/Ciel from Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler). This is already A Thing because Ciel is like fourteen and Sebastian's a hundreds-of-years old demon, but I love them sm so. They're my favorites and I would do anything for it to be canon tbh. Now the problem with this is: I kin Sebastian.

I self-ship with Ciel because sebaciel was official in my canon, but I feel really bad about because Ciel's a child and ugh. Purity culture and christian upbringing + how most people would view me is not a good combo :/. But I love him a lot and god I would do anything for him. I feel bad about it though and I hate that I do because I know I have no reason to especially considering I'm closer than even the age Sebastian gives under human disguise.

Anyway I'm gonna gush about Ciel because I love my young master so. Like he's just, so small and precious, pretty little boy, I just want to scoop him up and take care of him. I would do literally anything for him I swear, I love him so much. He's so cute and pretty and genuinely smart and clever, he loves mystery(idk if that's actually the right word, there's a better one but I'm dumb-) books and would keep notes to try and figure out who the culprit was on his own. He loved rabbits and soft things and sweet things, especially chocolate, and I would give a lot to just watch his face light up when he eats it. He used to have nightmares, and I remember how long it took for him to let me comfort him after them. I love him so much.

Awww hey hey! Im so so sorry you feel so bad about selfshipping with Ciel, i do completely understand though! I too had a christian upbringing, though personally im now athiest, i still have the aftermath of the religious trauma my family gave to me, and it seeps into my proship views every once in a while, so do know you arent alone on that <3 You are completely valid for selfshipping with Ciel and are completely valid for shipping Sebaciel! Im absolutely sure you are perfect for Ciel though, your view on this does not affect who you are in real life love, dont let it affect you so deeply <3 But, still, what youve said so far, gushing about Ciel, is so cute!! I ship you two v much, please take care of yourself though darling, im sorry i dont have much else to say about this rn, and im sorry im replying to it so long after youve sent it, but feel free to come back and gush or talk more anytime <333

Hey so I have a question what's a radqueer? Feel free to ignore if you don't feel like answering

To be honest I've been wondering this too 😭 I feel like everytime I try to read up on it something different is said. I don't know what identities/labels are included nor if they're in good faith or anything so that's why i haven't voiced my view on radqueers, I don't know enough 😭 If anyone sees this and would like to provide an answer it'd be much appreciated!

i just want to say I love my f/o and even if being non-sharing can be hell idc cuz i still love her so much!!!!

Hey sweets! I completely understand how difficult it can be being non-sharing, i'm sorry its been hell for you. Your f/o loves you SO much too y'know! She is beyond happy and content being with you and she can't ever imagine living a life where you aren't in it. Don't worry too much, you got this!

nah i have scrupulosity ocd and jerking it to fic of toddlers getting raped is wrong end of. get help <3

Sorry to anyone who reads this ask, I will have it tagged. First of all I don't read fics like that, but is it of a FICTIONAL character? Then there is no issue. I'm extremely uncomfortable at the idea of a toddler aged character in a situation like that but I won't harass someone or say it shouldn't exist if it is STRICTLY FICTION. Also I think you lot forget that fictional characters don't look like, and sometimes, don't act like, real people. They are drawn in proportions that would look arguably horrifying if directly translated to real life. They aren't real, nor are they breathing or capable of feeling real pain. They are, essentially, the pixelated equivalent of dolls. Any fictional character can be put into any situation at any age, anytime, anywhere, and it would not cause harm to a real person because that character does not exist. You have to be able to learn to distinguish a real person from a fictional character, they are not comparable to each other. Also, get help right? Whether you believe it or not darkshipping is approved by a lot of therapists as a healthy coping mechanism. If your therapist tells you it isn't good for you to do/utilize, it's because they recognize that those fictional concepts cause you some form of discomfort. They will form their therapy plans around YOUR needs, so everyone will have different coping mechanisms. It not being the best outlet for you doesn't mean it isn't a good outlet for someone else. Alternatively, darkshipping doesn't need to be confined to "it's only acceptable if its for coping", it's fine to like dark content in general. If it wasn't fine, you guys wouldn't freely enjoy horror movies or video games like GTA. As I've said before, if proshippers make you uncomfortable and are apart of your DNI, don't stress yourself out by interacting with me first. Have a good day/night anon