Wooo! My Brain Is Choosing Not To Be Kind To Me At The Moment So I Will Take This Time Toooooo Ramble!

Since you like beyond evil imma just recommend a show called circle: two worlds connected. It doesn’t have the same type of friendship but it does have mystery and a very interesting story. It is a bit stressful though. Anyway uh yeah I’ve got nothing else. If you do check out the show I hope you like it if not then I hope you enjoy whatever you watch. Have a wonderful day/night!

I love a good mystery, so I’ll add it to the watch list!

Thank you so much 😭

Okay it’s been a few hours. Heading back to bed. (Like 4-5 ish hours. I did get some work done. I just need to not get so caught up in my head and just go for it when painting, or well making anything. So I will. Once I wake up)

I give all my mutuals full access to boop me as many times as you want. I’m a free use boop slut

Reblog if your blog is boopable-safe so you can get all the (probably new) achievements. I don’t care about notes I just want boops

Ahhhhh. My rambles about episode 5 of Manner of Death. I wrote as a watched so it’s in the moment thoughts for the most part. Also spoilers.

This is a lot more screams of anguish than happiness btw. So my rambles are more cries.

Oh my goodness they’re all assholes. Ah first meet hey friends how you been he’s helped you on a bunch of cases supposedly and then this one shows up and apparently everyone’s like friends what nope don’t care about you in the slightest (or are going a very bullshit route about protection but come on). Also if the wounds are similar to the previous murder, why the fuck wouldn’t you look into that. Aaaaaaahhhhh, what the fuck man. They’re all such assholes. Ah yes this is how you protect someone, threaten them in compliance. And never explain jackshit. Cause that always works out. (that sentenced is supposed to be read sarcastically btw)

You know, keeping good relations is kinda important for cooperation. Like you don’t need to like each other to work together, but also you kinda do need to do your job too. Investigations take time, but dismissing evidence due to bias and also just plainly ignoring evidence, like come on man.

Can you tell I’m mainly rooting for Bun and his doctor besties? Plus that one school kid. Like I know there’s more going on but also fuck them. For the moment.

Noooo! Don’t die mr journalist!!! I don’t like you but I also don’t hate you! You should really verify your information with more sources and I just really don’t like you but also, you know shit! Live please! Being an asshole does not make you evil, just an ass. You must live man! Oh okay you’re not dying just tracking someone…. Bitch you better not get killed.

Oh you fucking douchebag you shot him!!!!! ……..

Hey doc, I think you should tell your doctor besties what all has been going on with you. At least then they can support you more. And since everyone is focused on you they wont really go for the others yet. Plus I think the others might be just slightly better at keeping things hidden. They’ve been helping you so far.

Oh he ate the chip, fucking genius of course he did.

Sorn? Sorn and That, is that their names? I hope they’re a crime fighting duo, or well more like a protect each other one.

Episode 6

Doctor besties!! I love you guys!

Hold up why are they using that tape? It looks like the type I’ve had to use for projects and I loathe it. I’ve had to make sculptures out of that shit. The tape actually isn‘t that bad, I just don’t have a good relationship with it.

Aaaauuuuuuuugh. I don’t trust it. I don’t trust anything. Beyond Evil, I miss you. You made me doubt literally everything but damn why do I gotta go through it again.

Ah inspector M, the better one (in my opinion). He’s just been more cordial and respectful so far, plus I find him friendly and amusing.

Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh-I have work I need to do T^T. Do I procrastinate or do it? Hmmmm, imma do my work. I shall continue this show later.

Ahhh I freaking love Zombie Detective. It’s sooooo good. It’s a Korean comedy drama. There is a romance but I view them more as besties. (That’s just me though.) I am all in for the friendship vibes from this show. I love it. The characters are all so lively. It makes you laugh and cry but mainly laugh. It’s just so fun.

Why do all my fucking comedies stab me in the heart man. What was that, you can’t fucking wound me like this man.

Anyway on an only slightly related note I finish Highschool Return of Gangster and damn I cried. Loved it but damn.

Also, Last Meal Universe, fucking love you and your sillies and the pain man. Love my silly shows also loved the ending behind the scene/bloopers clips during credits. Fucking great.

Oh no here comes trouble, one day I shall be able to finish you. Once i figure out my best option of watching you, one day I'll manage it. Same for you Missing the Other Side. How dare you disappear from the streaming service I have access to just to reappear as season 2, I wasn't fucking done with season 1. But ill get there eventually.

Damn I’m so fucking hungry, I should probably eat. Hmmmmmm. But it’s finals week. Gotta finish this painting. But food. Both is the answer. Of course. Never mind food is the answer, I shall return momentarily finals. And this time, I’ll just create you the way I want to. Without getting wrapped up in my head thinking it won’t be right I’ll just do it my way. It should meet the requirements and I believe it shows some of what I learned but it feels better to me this way. Who knows, but I’ll have it down. And I’ll like it. No matter what happens, I’ll like it.

Ah my mind is too much for me right now so let’s see, what should I ramble about? Ah I can’t think of anything at the moment so this is gonna be one of those existential crises posts. This will include topics that may trigger readers so please do not read if you think this will affect you. This is your final warning, please do not continue reading as this deals with mature topics and sad feelings.

Okay. Here I go. How do people live knowing they will one day die? It took me a while to fully understand that I wanted to live and now I’m scared of death. I really hope there is an afterlife. If there isn’t I guess the point of life is the experience itself. We’re all headed to the same place in the end. I guess one thing that helps is that I won’t be alone in facing it as this is something we all will face. I don’t know how to deal with this viewpoint. When I go out I just see the ending making it hard to enjoy the present. And I guess the ending scares me. But I shouldn’t let that stop me from enjoying myself. Life is beautiful. If there is nothing after the end that would honestly be a damn shame. Experience can be overloading, good, bad, it’s just a whole mess. But I love it, I love being able to feel, to connect, and be with other beings. So I guess I pray to whichever entity I believe in that they do exist. Cause I don’t want this to be the end.

Ah okay I guess this helped me get rid of some thoughts. Have a wonderful day/night.

I realized something. The reason I don’t like going out while I’m sick is cause normally I have to pretend I’m fine. I don’t know since when I started to do that but I think it has to do with school. Healthy or sick one always had to go and I didn’t like to make noise cause it felt like disrupting the class. Now though, just going out and being upfront about the fact that I’m sick but I can’t afford to not be here honestly takes a weight off me. It’s like a yeah I’m sick, it sucks but it is what it is. And then I don’t have to pretend to be healthy. I can just exist in my misery without feeling like I’m being a bother. Or at least not as much. It’s nice.

Ahhhhhhhhhh

My rambles about Hidden moon the series. Spoilers for episodes 1-9.

Like I already thought Khen was dead and that they could have been stuck in limbo but I didn’t think that would happen. T^T whhyyyyyyy. My heart. Not a shred of happiness for my lovelies. These shows are breaking meeeee. I wanted more friendship moments between the main group but all I got was pain and suffering and then… and then that just happens. I hope they’re happy wherever they ended up. I don’t expect this show to have a happy ending but I hope it’s at least a bittersweet one. Let them find peace, please.

I’m gonna go cry in a corner. Maybe I’ll rewatch Rak Diao for healing or finish Your Tooth My Love (just started and it has the fluff I need right now).