What Made You Decide To Get Back With Beth? I Thought You Were Doing Pretty Well, Especially With Nigel.

How could I not hate myself for the blindness that led me to believe she might ever have loved me as I am?.

Surely, I must despise myself as I do her. In the end, we both betrayed me.

Beth always hated the idea of this blog. She didn’t want me posting as much so I didn’t.

All this time I tried so hard to make her happy. I stopped interacting with people I like because it made her uncomfortable, I stopped talking as much because it made her uncomfortable, I stopped behaving like myself because it made her uncomfortable.

I hate her and I hate myself.

Thank you for asking.

I’m not allergic to anything, but I do have some sensory preferences.

I usually avoid strong cheeses, anything with an overly soft or slippery texture like oysters or foie gras and very gamey meats. I tend to prefer simple proteins and vegetables prepared cleanly. No need to go out of your way. Just something light is fine.

Beth’s more adventurous than I am when it comes to food. She likes trying new things. I think she’d be excited about whatever you make.

I took the job offer in Baltimore.

I will be working as a guide at the Davis Planetarium. I’m very happy it worked out. The planetarium has such a rich archive and so many exhibits in rotation! I’ll have a lot to learn and organize, and even more to share. I am already experiencing a lot of excitement about that.

That means Beth and I will be moving to Maryland soon, leaving New York behind. I will miss New York. But I’m looking forward to seeing some people in Baltimore. And it’ll make getting to Dr. Lecter’s appointments easier, once he returns from his retreat.

Soooo... Are things okay with Beth? Heard something happened, and someone got really upset/sad/angry? Whatever it was, I hope both of you are doing better now ❤️

Thank you for asking. I am doing good.

Beth apologized to me yesterday. I got an offer for a job interview and she will help me with practicing for that. Beth is important to me so I try not to think about it anymore. She seemed really overwhelmed that evening, I can relate to that.

Assuming you don’t have Alzheimer’s disease, you must either been intoxicated or unwell.

If it’s the latter, you should see a specialist; if it’s the former, I’d suggest minimizing your substance intake.

I hope that helps!.

Draw a clock.

It s nromal .

Best of luck with the move, and don't forget to breathe!! I know moving can be enervating, and it's tempting to just shut everything off. I make that mistake sometimes, so you're not alone. You have a great group of friends, and you're a wonderful person, Adam! I hope you have a really good rest of your day. :)

This message reminded me of someone I know..

Although it’s not groundbreaking, you’re right—breathing is something I have to do more intentionally. Thank you for your words. I feel a lot warmer around my heart now, in the metaphorical sense.

I hope you have a nice day or night!, depending on where you live.

No, not in a frightful way.

You do not come off as scary. You seem reliable, I suppose. There is something very effortlessly calming to you.

If you could assign constellations to your associates/friends what would they be and why?

I don't know much about constellations but I'd love to hear you talk about it :)

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I actually spent some time thinking about this. It’s a interesting question, astronomy as a mirror for people. It’s not the first time I’ve made that comparison in my head.

So Nigel would probably be Andromeda. There’s something about Andromedas story that reminds me of him , chained and waiting, not exactly helpless, but holding back. Andromeda’s one of those constellations that’s easy to overlook unless you know where to look. But once you do, you stay looking. He’s like that. Quiet and beautiful, and much more capable than most realize. There’s distance there too. Something unspoken and mysterious. And maybe that’s part of it.

Abby is Lyra. Steady, constant sound in the background that makes everything else feel less chaotic. She’s the kind of friend that doesn’t try to change the rhythm, she plays along, and somehow makes the melody make sense. She won’t try to change but instead accept the people around her. I trust her more than I trust most people. Probably more than I know to articulate.

Duncan is definitely Ursa Major. He’s calm and grounded. One of those people you automatically listen to when they speak. Like the Big Dipper, It’s just always been there. Reliable. Big presence. Never unpleasantly overwhelming.

I see Tonny as Gemini. There is some sort of double-sided energy to him. Always talking, always bouncing between ten things at once. Sometimes it’s annoying. But he makes things feel alive. That counts for something. Very unapologetically himself.

Beth… She’d be Scorpius..I think. There was beauty, but also something sharp underneath. I thought I understood her. Maybe I didn’t. It’s hard not to associate that constellation with betrayal once you’ve been stung by someone you trusted. But I also think Scorpius is about change. You don’t walk away from it unchanged.

Lastly Hannibal , Aquarius. There’s a logic to him that i understand. The kind of person who thinks about everything three steps ahead. Our conversations are always sharp. Always interesting. We don’t need to be close emotionally to have a kind of mutual respect, and I appreciate that.

That’s how I see it right now.

That could change, maybe it won’t.

Beth was over today. She took this picture while I was reading and said I should post it.

So I am.

A hooker and a car thief. You seem determined to compare me to the most questionable people you’ve met. Should that concern me ?

You’re like.. crazy pretty

Errr the name’s Tonny btw.

-@coke-n-dope

That is very direct. Hello, Tonny

hi adam :3 opinion on raccoons

My opinion on raccoons? I like them.

They have highly dexterous front paws with five fingers, which allow them to open latches and even solve simple puzzles. Their problem-solving skills are comparable to primates.

I also think that they look cute.

Introduction

Hello.

This is my blog. My name is Adam Raki. I live in New York City, but I prefer looking at things that are very far away, like galaxies and nebulae.

I am an electrical engineer, but I am currently between jobs. I know a lot about space, physics, and astronomy. If you ask me something, I will answer it as accurately as possible!. If you are imprecise, I may ask you to clarify.

The parallax shift is how the position of a star appears to change when viewed from different locations. It is not actually moving, but perspective makes it seem that way. That is how I got the name.

I do not know exactly what people post on blogs, but I will post things about space. If I like something, I might reblog it. I do not always understand jokes, but if you tell me it is a joke, I will try to understand.

Topics I will post about:

• Astronomy

• Space exploration

• Interesting facts

• Possibly answering Questions

OOC:

Hey ! I’m Tej (he/him) and I made this as an rp account for Adam because I adore him. Feel free to interact no matter who you are , just be respectful :) you can always send OOC asks just make sure to mark them as such !

(I also just wanted to clarify that I am neurodivergent myself and I will do my absolute best not to make a mockery out of Adam’s character !)

AO3 :

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65369347/chapters/168209467

Tags :

#spacetalks : Adam‘s life

#spacereposts : Adam‘s repost

#spacefriends : Adam and Abigail

- ( @deerrdarling )

#spacesessions : Adam and psychiatrist Dr. Lecter

- ( @therealhannibal )

#spacedogs : Adam and Nigel

- ( @1nvictus )

#spacecousins : Adam and Will

- ( @straydogcollector )

#spacekaiser : Adam and Duncan

- ( @notblackkaiser )

#spacepusher : Adam and Tonny

- ( @coke-n-dope )

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