Yes I Am Adam.

[OOC] Hi!! :D I was curious where you intend Adam’s storyline to go? Or if you have any set plans at all. Will you follow some of the plot of the movie or just entirely do you own thing ?

[OOC] Hey!! 🫶 Yes, I actually do have some plans! At least regarding how I want to incorporate the plot of the movie and the HEU.

Basically, I’d like everything to be similar to the movie. Adam will get to know Beth, meet her parents at the theater, and Beth and Adam will get into an argument but make up—UP UNTIL the part where Adam finds out that Beth lied to him and actually knew her parents were coming to meet him all along.

As we all know, Adam needs a new job after he got fired. Since Adam already has to drive from NYC to Hannibal for his therapy and has now made friends with Abigail, I plan for his new job offer to be close to Baltimore. He’ll start a new life and become more involved in everything going on in Maryland, all while navigating his own life as well.

So, that’s roughly what you can expect, but we never know what might happen!!

I am currently watching the Raccoons while listening to this album.

Good luck with talking to Beth 🤞

If it goes south, just make sure you take care of yourself first.

- 🧷 (safetypin-non)

Thank you. It went well.

Errr Tonny here, you haven’t reported back to me since i gave you that xan.. you okay man?

( @coke-n-dope )

If by ‘okay’ you mean having ‘a fascinating exercise in futility,’ then sure, it went great. I did my research. I was responsible. I accounted for every possible variable—set a timer, had water ready, prepared an ideal environment, even had a list of things to do in case I started feeling weird. Which was, in hindsight, incredibly naive, because there is no logical preparation for feeling like your brain is unraveling in slow motion. No amount of planning prevents the creeping dread that your heartbeat is somehow both too slow and too loud. At one point, I was convinced I had unlocked a hidden layer of reality where time moves at half-speed and all sounds echo.

Long story short: I will not be pursuing further studies in pharmacology

Do not take any medication from Doctor Hannibal Lecter. This is a warning Adam.

I don’t understand the concerns about Dr. Lecter.

I have yet to have any negative experiences with the way he handles my therapy. However, I didn’t take any medication from him; he didn’t prescribe any to me.

Thor's Helmet taken by Chris DeCosta and Martin Pugh on February 28 2019

NGC 2359, also referred to as Thor's Helmet, is an emission nebula in the constellation Canis Major. At the heart of this nebula is a Wolf-Rayet star WR7, which is in this phase briefly before a supernova occurs.

The bubble appearance of this nebula is due to the strong stellar winds coming from WR7. These winds contribute to forming a complex structure, with a huge mass of ionized material. The high energy radiation coming from the star ionizes hydrogen to produce red light and doubly ionizes oxygen to produce blue light.

The gas absorbs and then reemits this light, leading to the name of "emission nebula".

Pretty sure this is you

You made me into an alien plushie? That is very creative.

I like it. Thank you for drawing me, I appreciate it.

Hiii Adam :3 I was wondering if you have a type? It doesn’t matter if in men or women but you can specify (if you want). I was wondering if there is anything specific you find yourself gravitating towards.

I have found that I find myself gravitating towards people somewhat older than me. I often find comfort in that.

Generally, I don’t feel like I have the experience to make out a type. I don’t find myself in control of who I end up liking.

Do you like theater? If so, what are your favorite plays and/or musicals?

I don’t dislike theater, but I struggle with the social environment around it.

It’s loud. It’s crowded. People clap too much. But I do like the mechanics of it the structure, the rhythm, the way a story has to rely on timing and restraint. I like plays that don’t talk down to their audience.

Copenhagen is a good one,it’s about physics and ethics. The Effect by Lucy Prebble was interesting too, mostly because it plays with psychology and perception in a way that felt grounded. Musicals are harder. Most are emotionally overstimulating, but I think Hadestown had merit. I like mythology. And I appreciate when something ancient gets recontextualized in a modern structure. That’s how understanding evolves.

Hey Adam! How are you doing today?

Hello,

I did not manage to answer you in time. I do not remember how I felt on May 2nd.

But if I apply your question to today, I’d say I feel desolation and a sense of culpability regarding my emotional state.As for what I’m doing; I’m packing boxes.

I’ve been trying to organize them methodically, much to Beth’s frustration. We argued about it yesterday. It makes my skin itch to watch her throw everything together without care.

Tonight, I’m going to the park to watch the raccoons. I hope it’ll settle my thoughts. I know it won’t, there’s no magic in distraction. But maybe if I keep myself occupied long enough, I can crowd out what’s pressing on me.

After all i understand that my routines aren’t efficient for moving. So, I’ll dissociate as much as I can.