"It Doesn't Matter. We'll Work It Out"

two doodles for the next chapters of my fics

the first one is for the next chapter of Galaxy Days and the second one is for the next chapter of ‘A Moment’ yes im procrastinating

Cute best buds

I Can't Get Enough of the Crypt Scene

I love the crypt scene for so many reasons.  My favorite line though is: "It's me."   The way he says it implies that he knows that he's special to Cas.  "Hey!  It's me!  The guy you're in love with you have a profound bond with!"  (Though with less enthusiasm and more angst than I wrote).  He's admitting that there's a connection between them there with those two words.   Then he cements it with the "We're family.  We need you.  I need you."  The "we're family" brings Cas into the personal rather than the practical.  He's family, not a tool.  "We need you" brings Sam into the equation.  Sam and Dean need Cas on a personal level.  Then "I need you" denotes Deans affection for Cas on a personal level.  This reiteration means that Deans affections for Cas are different than the ones that Sam has which is basically a confession that he returns Cas' feelings. But I always get hung up on the "It's me" because it shows that he's aware of how Cas views him :3   I hope we get a reversal this season!!!  It would be beautiful!! 

Season 9: Dean and Cas "What Ifs"

I'm new to tumblr (this is my very first post), so please be gentle on my musings!! :)  But I can't help but wonder...

Dean has always been obviously upset whenever Cas dies or disappears.  But Cas has never exactly stuck around for long periods of time, flying off to do whatever it is that Cas does when he's not with Dean.  He's constantly gone, going, leaving, even when Dean asks him to just "stay here and get better."  It's just what he does and he has had the ability to do it without anyone being able to really stop him and Dean has understood (for the most part) that this is who Cas is. 

So Dean has become accustomed to Cas going off on his own (even if he doesn't like it) and the idea that Cas might not come back one day (when you live the life of a hunter, it's kind of hard not to).  He's definitely upset when it happens, but I mean, every time Cas dies Dean isn't exactly expecting him to come back.  

But things have changed now at the end of Season 8, Cas is basically human.  He's not going to be able to flit about and leave whenever he wants.  Which in turn means that Dean is going to have Cas around A LOT more (hopefully).  

What does this mean exactly?

Well more time together can create more time for developing that delicious profound bond of theirs, but it also means that Dean is going to get USED to Cas being around.  It means that it's going to be harder for him to let go.  

Me and my awful mind then proceeded to go down thoughts like:

What if Cas gets his grace back and continues with his plan and now that Dean is so used to Cas being around, Dean can't let him go?  Would he voice it?  What would Cas' reaction be after spending so much time with the Winchesters?  Would he continue with the plan to lock himself in Heaven with all his siblings or would he ditch out after hearing that?

What if they create a plan to get Cas' grace back and they finally get the chance and Dean realizes that if Cas gets his grace back then he can leave and Dean throws them off the trail or screws it up so he can have Cas with him even if it's just for a little bit longer?  What would happen if Cas found out?  Would it be another epic show down?  Or would it turn into the biggest goopiest admittion of man feelings?  (As much as I love the man feelings ending I don't really like the idea of them doing things that would hurt each other any more :(  that would make me sad)

Gaaah!!  So many things could happen this upcoming season and I can't wait to see what he writers have in store! :)  

Omg, today is my anniversay, this is seriously the best thing to wake up to!!  Love it!!

Happy Star Wars day, losers. 

This show kills me....

I have the most awful image of Dean after Castiel dying in my head.   I keep reading all these wonderful metas pointing out how Dean sleeps on one side of his bed and has it set up for two.  Now I keep picturing Dean taking a pic of Cas and putting it on the pillow where Cas should be and he just lies next to it on his side of the bed and stares at it while he falls asleep.   Can someone draw this for me please????  (Or if it's already out there can someone show it to me?! :) Thanks! )

Anyone else take this long to show effects of T?

Hey FTM community! I’ve been on T for 1 year and 4 months now and I have a few concerns.  I have had very little effect from the T (I do injections) and my T level according to my endocrinologist is where it’s supposed to be at (in the 600′s somewhere).  She says I can’t increase my dose because I’m starting to show signs of side effects of the Testosterone.   I’m trying to be patient here, but all I’ve gotten out of being on T is a little bit of acne, a voice that constantly breaks, and maybe a little more butt hair (tmi, sorry).  I still have my period, I don’t really have a deeper voice, I have no more facial hair than I did pre-T, my clit hasn’t really gained a whole lot of size, I have had no change in metabolism, muscle growing ability, smell, body fat shifting... 50+ % of the time I’m still labeled as female despite how I dress or carry myself.   I know it takes awhile to start having effects, but I’m just wondering if anyone else has had it take this long to start showing signs or know what might be up???  On a bright note, don’t know if it’s related, but all of my allergies went away like 3 months ago! Thanks for any and all input!

For a minute in that montage of Dean driving Baby while Sam was living his life I absolutely thought Dean was going to drive by Cas in the onion field and Dean would see him and then it would cut to Cas and Dean in the impala just talking and laughing while Sam lives out his life and then they end up on the bridge and we get the Winchester reunion. I got that from that damn onion meta lmao

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Cas As Dean's Romantic Interest

Reasons why I personally think Cas is a perfect choice to be Dean's romantic interest!  :)

These are MY PERSONAL OPINIONS!!  Don't take them to heart if they don't agree with yours!  :)

1.  The Playing Field

Originally Dean was drawn in by the apple pie life with Lisa and Ben and he loved it and them (I shipped Lisa and Dean when they were together :P).  But, it wasn't made to last, because it just wasn't who he was.  He wanted to keep saving people and being a hunter.  So, Dean needs someone who already knows about the things that go bump in the night.

Cas is/was an angel so we can all agree that Cas knows Dean's playing field.

2.  Ability

Dean is like a mother hen as we have all seen time and time again with Sam.  He would need someone who can take care of themselves if trouble came around.  If he were with someone who wasn't a skilled hunter or badass, he would definitely be fretting about their safety.  

Cas is/was an angel and while he is human now, that doesn't mean that he has forgotten how to throw a punch or kick an ass or two, just that he can't teleport or smite.  I think given time to adjust to being human, Cas will be about or just as formidable as the Winchester brothers.  Dean wouldn't have to worry about Cas and trust that he can take care of himself.

3.  Sam

Now, let me start off by addressing the issue of concern that "destiel going canon would draw the brothers apart" and become the "Dean and Cas" show.  Supernatural will NEVER become the "Dean and Cas" show.  The show writers and actors won't let all their hard work in developing this story and the familial bonds of the brothers to devolve into a common soap opera with monsters and a suddenly estranged brother (have some faith in the people that have brought us 8 amazing seasons!!! :D)

Now this applies to not just Cas, but anyone being romantically interested in Dean (or Sam).  No one wants the brothers with anyone, because of this (except their ship lol).

With Cas though, this wouldn't happen.  Cas has been involved pretty heavily in both the Winchesters lives (leaning more towards Deans') for 4 seasons now.  And he has had zero effect in driving them apart.  They already have a profound bond and love for one another.  

Please, don't argue with that last statement.  You know they do even if you don't see it as a romantic love.  Dean himself said it, he said that Cas was like family and a brother to him.  Dean loves his brother and he loves his family (Bobby, Ellen, Jo, John, Sam) so being family, Dean loves Cas.  He stated he would die for him, that he needs him.  Dean LOVES Cas.  That is CANON.  How you interpret that love is completely up to you though :)

As I was saying, they have had 4 years together of love and bonding time and this has not effected the brothers relationship.  If anything, it makes them talk more.  Like consulting with each other to stop Cas when he went of the rails and all Godstiel on everyone or discussing Deans' motives for praying to Castiel, etc.  

Cas becoming something a little more to Dean isn't going to drive the brothers apart and will help keep true to the story.  

Another randomly introduced person will most likely not get positive fan reaction as we have seen in the past with other potential romantic interests, and there would have to be a considerable amount of time put into Dean interacting with said character to build up a bond strong enough for the fandom to believe in it and accept it.  THAT would take time away from the brothers, because I'm sure we can agree that we hold high standards for these boys in their relationships :)  We love them!

4.  Sam

Although Dean doesn't need approval from Sam, I'm sure he would want it.  Why?  Sam is Dean's everything and Dean would want to make sure he is with a person that his baby brother gets along with, because Sam is for life and if this person was for life too, they would need to get along or else that person is going to get canned.  

Good news!  Sam likes Cas.  He is quick to defend him and considers him a friend, even if he finds him a bit awkward at times.  He even entrusted his brother to Cas and told him to keep Dean out of trouble!  Problem solved!

5.  Sam

Sam is a huge part of Dean's life and will always come first (just like he said in the finale).  Dean's potential partner would need to really understand this and accept their unhealthy co-dependence on one another.  

Good news again!  Cas has been watching these brothers for years and understands their devotion to one another and even  used it against them once by cracking Sams' gourd.  He gets their relationship and would never put himself before Sam for Dean.  In fact in the S8 finale, he brought Dean to Sam first before bolting and doing what he felt he needed to do.  

I feel another person could do the same, but most would probably feel jealous about it.  Even, Lisa with the patience of a saint knew that she couldn't have Dean if Sam was still alive.  She was kind enough to not make Dean choose, but a lot of people need that kind of commitment that he can't give.

Cas gets it and goes along with it.  Why?  Have no clue, but it's what he does.  

6.  Perfection

Dean has incredibly low self esteem as we've seen countless times.  If Dean was placed with someone who was perfect, I can't help but feel he might compare himself to them and feel that he wasn't worthy of their love.  Dean isn't perfect and he can't be with someone who is perfect.

Luckily, Cas is also not perfect.  Cas has made a TON of mistakes and Dean has seen most of them in action.  He knows Cas isn't perfect now, but he chooses to keep reaching out to him despite this.  

Dean also needs someone who knows his imperfections and accepts them wholely.  Someone who finds out that Dean mutilated souls in hell moooooost likely will turn tail and run from all his guilt and self worthlessness issues.  Cas saw him in action with that and pulled him straight out.  Despite seeing Dean at his worst, Cas keeps coming to him and reaching out as well.

Those are MY main reasons I think Cas makes a good candidate for Dean's romantic interest.  I mean there's all the usual things like their bond, eye sex, subtext, etc.  But I feel these are the core things that COULD make him a candidate.  

Not saying that there are reasons why he wouldn't, but hey!  Every relationship has some bumps yeah?  

I don't think I want to see them be all mushy and gooey, because that isn't either of them.  I think I just want at the end of the show to see Dean hop into the Impala with Cas in the front seat and they drive off together to hunt some monsters and be together forever while Sam lives a beautiful life with his own family that allows Dean to visit him as much as he wants.  :)