“im straight” “im gay” okay???? im at nicole’s house????
wearing sky-colored shoes to hide from the devil. earth colored hat to hide from god
whatever. go my scarab
I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.
And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.
In a safehouse in Scotland straight up opening it and by it haha well. Let's just say. The door.
if you hate gwen ianto wouldn't like you thats his best friend youre talking about
dbd headcanon: the boys have a list of office rules written out on a poster sheet hung on the wall. surprisingly enough, the rules were started, and most were created by, charles, but they have to be agreed on by both of the boys before becoming an official office rule (that's rule #4)
the rules date back to the beginning of their old/first office and moved with them to their current office.
dead boy detectives office rule #1 clearly states "edwin cannot suggest charles would be better off moving on" in charles' chicken scratch handwriting.
the rest of the rules are a bit of everything, ranging from "charles must disclose when he's been hit with iron in any form" to "there is no bubblegum incident of 04" and "edwin has to let charles mess with one ouija board per month." there are (currently) 46 office rules.
edwin takes these rules very seriously and will reference them whenever he chooses ("charles you're clearly in violation of rule 29 which states a ban on tommy gottas." "tamagotchis, eds.") but in taking them very seriously and to the book, he realizes he can't enforce them on crystal seeing as she's not a dead boy. he's still working on a solution to that.
but, as of late, charles has a second (secret) rules list, just for crystal. alive girl psychic rule #1 states that she can't inform edwin of this list's existance. rule #2 states that she cant respond to anything edwin says with "kinky"
the iliad it boy and tamer of horses