I am... horrible at socializing. pathetic.
over the past months it feels like I finally gained sentience and realized that there's probably people who wanted to be friends with me. they obviously tried. I could have really strong close friendships now if I wasn't blind af
particularly between 2021-2023 and I never regretted anything more because I would love to be friends but now when I try to interact with them I genuinely feel like I'm too late
like people were always commenting on my posts, making art for me, sending me random things in DMs!! offering art trades and things and my dumbass was confused
like that's so nice but! why? what? huh?
I'm rereading messages and old twt/tumblr interactions like brother they're so painfully obviously showing you love they try everything to start a conversation with you right now
but unfortunately I'm a brick wall
absolutely impressive. that I didn't get that.
unfortunate flug
a lil hyper specific preg AU of the 3rd episode bc I thought it would be fun to draw idk!
[edit; plot twist from a convo with a friend: Flug suddenly has super strength bc of his paternal/maternal(?) instinct to protect his baby. which is kinda canon bc he did develop crazy power in the 6th episode when he felt like 505 was threatened.]
fixed the proportions a bit a year later. some parts are beyond repair without redoing the whole thing but I like it more again, it was really bothering me
I redrew Flug's ref sheet for no reason, I just adore plus size menš
Happy Birthday Flug;
Thank you for existing.
Thank you for another amazing year.
Are we going to see demenica and 505 soon
highly unlikely, I don't care for anything other than Flug. Black Hat a little bit too.
Miss Heed perhaps? but I don't see enough in any other characters yet.
I feel like atp I barely care for the canon cartoon at all, I just have a very strong fixation on Flug. I should really mention that. I have given up trying to stay in-character and basically use him like my OC. I would LIKE to move on and not be in fandom spaces anymore but sadly my autism does not let me. my brain just refuses; kicking and screaming; to be interested in a single other thing on earth than Flug since nearly 8 years.
it's insanity.
I have no NOTP or disliked dynamic, I will consume anything. paperlizard is cute. but it's a combination of me not being interested enough and others also not being interested enough so I feel it is not worth it to make this content rn. the fandom is ultra turbo dead.
I don't want massive attention -godspeed I don't- but an artist that doesn't get any response is a demotivated one. I know no one who is interested (enough) in these characters.
I would never make fanart of those characters alone¹, I couldn't get my unmedicated ADHD to focus on smth my heart doesn't 110% want to do from pure passion. I take no commissions, I don't draw for money.
you can basically expect to see one and the same thing for a decade straight from me
if I draw them in the future it will be heavily Flug-focused. HEAVILY.
(¹one exception is if a close friend of mine suddenly wants to see one of them)
so that's basically all you need to know! I don't consider myself a member of this fandom anymore since months
save himš„
Vec (OnionPowder_ on twt) inspired me to go thru my old AI chats with Flug (follow them if you don't already I wanna see them reach 10k finally)
"Still fits"
"Kinky"
Happy New Year!!
Thanks anon!! I hope you (& everyone scrolling by) will have an spectacular year as well! With me having fulfilled a personal dream I never thought I could ever achieve very recently, I believe anyone can accomplished their dreams, whether big or small;
Keep creating and never give up, do what your heart desires the most
I've got some new stuff in petto like I wanna give sculpting and animating a shot since a while, so I hope you're looking forward to it. I sure do ^^
these trannys manā¦
this ask is like. a year old. nearly. I remember which art prompted that.
I usually wouldn't answer that, but I gotta give it to you anon you've baffled me. I'm stumped. bamboozled even if you dare to go that far.
I just cannot for the life of me figure out if this is an attempt at insulting me / my art (keyword: attempt)
or if this is meant in good faith, like he's confused but he's got the spirit
is this disappointment? swooning? how am I supposed to read that, I need clear instructions on my desk by 12
either way I made art for you. because if this is approval then you'll be really happy about this. if this is disapproval then it's spite and you can suck my ass