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i’ve talked about this before, that i’m not very able to go to school. i have disabilities and mental illness blah blah. it makes school a really tricky thing, don’t get me wrong, i’d live in mr.k’s classroom if it meant i could always be around him! but i haven’t been to school in a month, and haven’t seen mr. k since last semester!

i’m getting greedy. i miss him and i keep rereading his emails and looking at pictures of us. i am genuinely missing him like he’s oxygen and when we last spoke i asked about his new classes, he said “they’re not you..but they’re nice”. i was in one of his first ever classes. this man had never taught solo before last semester and i was one of the first.

i miss him. i’m jealous of all the girls who sit and listen to him everyday. i sometimes wish i would’ve failed his class just so i could retake it. i wish i’d asked more questions, gave him full attention no matter what. i miss him so much.

i really need to go outside and get attention from a man jesus christ it’s like i’m a woman who lost her husband in the war

Part of me will know deep down that I am pretty cool

The part of me that knows I never cared for being cool

Every single time he posts something from his Japan trip i go back and watch all the videos.

The ほらほら (look, look) video is by far one of my favorites. It’s one of his dialogue free vlogs, i love the subtle details of it. He adds subtitles with the Japanese translation, and the few times he does speak it feels extra special.

He went to Japan with friends, but he’s posted a few videos where he went out solo, like in this video, and it makes me so soft. He goes out to see something so calm, like when he hiked up Mt. Takao all by himself in Spend a day in Tokyo with me. Or in ほらほら, or おい、この野郎 ! (Hey, you bastard!). It’s such a sweet moment where he actually lets go of his character. Of course the captions he gives us aren’t so calm. These videos feel like the most honest version of himself.

And, god, he looked amazing while in Japan! I wish he wouldn’t wear hats as much as he does, his hair is so cute and fluffy, it causes a real reaction in me. Like it’s so dumb but Japan schlatt is my soft spot, my Achilles heel.

it’s horrific. awful way to die. either you’re trapped with no chance of being found, air running out, everyone around you suffocating, or the hull is broken and you get turned to jelly by the crushing ocean depths. ik they’re billionaires so it’s very contentious for me. generally i prefer no one dies horrifically. like just as a fellow human being on earth. but i dont think the ultra rich ever extend that mindset to others. climate refugees. and just everything. it feels like something a greek god would do to punish them. it has a certain swagful je ne sais quoi if removed from the human suffering which billionaires have to do philosophically to maintain their positions. very haunting. the hubris of it all. old jalopy metal tube steered by a mad catz controller. to go look at the titanic. which is nothing but a rusted out metal wreck full of fish and silt. btw. the grandiosity of it is completely unrecognizable. one has to wonder what compels ppl to even look at it in the first place. like the prestige of seeing some filthy grown over shell? crazy thing to die for. very textually rich… bad way to die as a human being. great way to die as a narrative about human greed and folly i guess. good job. mission accomplished?

i need his hairy, bear body crushing mine as he pounds me thx 🎀

theres something so safe about the forest. the soft moss growing everywhere, the sun gently shining through the trees, and the sounds of the birds and the squirrels scampering around. soooo peaceful.

sorry i just… sigh. #needthat

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