Feeling An Incredible Need To Be Bent Over

i hate when “girls girls” start immediately hating when they see another girl getting attention because they’re pretty.. u are not welcome here 😒

As a former twitter user I really hate that this is something we’re all feeling.

Tumblr harbors a community that avoids and doesn’t engage in drama and clearly the tripouts don’t understand that. Clique like behavior and apologies and gross behavior is not something tumblr was ever supposed to have.

It’s really disappointing to see the safe space that tumblr once was turn into something like tiktok or twitter, creating passive aggressive content and the inevitable consequences of saying slurs or weird comments is strictly for the platforms that thrive off that.

If you people can’t grasp the concept of tumblr being drama free, you should go back to twitter.

literally every time i open this god forsaken app

dear diary,

i don’t want to be “beautiful” i want to be cocaine. once you get started on me you’ll never stop and you’ll keep on wanting more. the recovery process is the hardest part. harder to quit than to start. toxic but addicting; harmful but euphoric

-𝒶𝓇𝒶𝒷𝑒𝓁𝓁𝒶༊*·˚

(june 26, 2023)

hi guys🤭

so full update of the current school situation i have.

i’m completely not going to school, i’ve missed so much of this semester and i’m not mentally or physically capable of attending, so we’ve switched me into a credit recovery class and i will probably do summer school (maybe?)

but that’s not what i’m here to say,

i emailed Mr.K and as we know, he’s the cutest thing on earth.

i emailed him, here’s the bullet points

im not coming to school anymore

are your new classes as good as my class

hehe that’s silly no class can compare to mine ;)

i went on a date with a boy who was in our shared class with mr k

it was awful

i miss you

hey do you think i’ll regret not going to prom and graduation and such

do you? (he didn’t finish high school he went through a GED course)

advice?

love you miss you

and i finished it with a wholesome meme/picture of two bunnies and it said “no bunny compares to you”

and the next morning he emailed me back with

omg i missed you too

sad to hear you aren’t physically capable to come in for school

classes are good

definitely not you tho ;)

sorry about that date

i never liked that kid either

i do regret not going to prom and those experiences

but it worked out for the better

no matter what you choose i know you’ll be great

miss you bye

and signed off with a ~Mr. K

all cutesy like 🤭

i just love the kindness he naturally exudes.

anyway i love love love him, i really wish i could see him every day like last semester but emailing will do for now

Every single time he posts something from his Japan trip i go back and watch all the videos.

The ほらほら (look, look) video is by far one of my favorites. It’s one of his dialogue free vlogs, i love the subtle details of it. He adds subtitles with the Japanese translation, and the few times he does speak it feels extra special.

He went to Japan with friends, but he’s posted a few videos where he went out solo, like in this video, and it makes me so soft. He goes out to see something so calm, like when he hiked up Mt. Takao all by himself in Spend a day in Tokyo with me. Or in ほらほら, or おい、この野郎 ! (Hey, you bastard!). It’s such a sweet moment where he actually lets go of his character. Of course the captions he gives us aren’t so calm. These videos feel like the most honest version of himself.

And, god, he looked amazing while in Japan! I wish he wouldn’t wear hats as much as he does, his hair is so cute and fluffy, it causes a real reaction in me. Like it’s so dumb but Japan schlatt is my soft spot, my Achilles heel.

please fucking vote

Small thing that breaks my heart:

When I was in third grade, I told this boy that it would be my birthday in four days, and he said, “okay, then I’ll buy you flowers.” Four days later he comes up to me and says, “my mom wouldn’t let me get flowers but I found you this violet in the grass.” That in and of itself was iconic and so so sweet, but it gets better.

A month later, I had to move, and because it was third grade, the teacher made everyone write me letters to say goodbye. His said, “I hope you have so much fun in your new house that you forget about me. I hope that you’re always happy and you never miss us. I’m sorry I never gave you flowers, but I can give you some now.” And he fucking. Drew me flowers.

No, Joey, I never forgot you. You are the reason I have standards in this life, and I’m so grateful to have known you. I hope you’re happy, wherever you are, and I hope that the rest of your days are filled with as much joy as you gave to me. I spilled water on the card about five years ago, and half of it is a a jumbled mess now, but I still have it. It’s the only card I still have.

The funny thing is this dude and I hardly ever interacted. I knew he played football because he was on the town’s kids’ team and my brother was on the middle school team, and I knew he was one of, like, three Joeys in our year. I had a crush on him but obviously never communicated that because it was fucking third grade, but somehow those three interactions imprinted on who I am as a person. I am forever changed by Joey from third grade.

tired of being misunderstood when i talk to my irls about my man (schlatt) and how hot i think he is and then they tell me they don’t see it at all and say mean things. like bruh you don’t get it. but you know who does? the tumblr mfs 🎀 they have my back and are writing the most insane smut about this same man for me to consume and enjoy💞

La Nymphée by William-Adolphe Bouguereau (1878)

Why. Why in the intro are their names closest to the character that isn't the one they're playing, please Neil why would you do this it ruins my day, everyday. I know full well you're not the one who made the intro, but you may have answers to my predicament.

We had a meeting to decide what would upset you most. Most of the guys were for creeping into your kitchen late at night and swapping over the salt and the sugar, but David Tennant held out for placement of the names on the opening titles, and he's been insufferable about it since.

If anyone has swapped over your salt and sugar it was probably those scalawags from Dick Turpin. Not us.