Of Course I Couldn't Help Myself And I've Drawn My Crazy Queen Again.

I'm tired of people hating on Atyd specially on the characterization of Remus. People often say " I hate how rude and inconsiderate he is sometimes, he would never do that" as if his personality and the way he reacts isn't a direct reflection of the hostile environment he grew up in. He didn't have anyone growing up, his father decided to leave this world and his mother left him in an orphanage where he never had anyone.

I can feel my life slip trough my fingers

Most of the time I don't even know what day it is

Most of the time I don't like the answer.

I miss you in my broken bones

I look for you in my dreams

My heart aches for you

And everything you said you'd be.

After the finale I started to re-watch the whole series and I HAD to draw my queen.

You know what's truly devastating? That people often overlook Mary's grief. She lost everything she held most dear to a war she never wanted to be part of and had been affecting her since it started, and I'm talking about the segregation and mistreatment that she had to suffer all of her teenage years. Because a war doesn't start in the field, it starts in the mind. In the minds of those who choose to hurt others for simply being different, thinking different and sometimes just for existing.

In the end she chose to wipe her memory, all of those years that brought her so much joy that now only brought her to tears. She chose to live in ignorance, but ignorance is the greatest gift and the biggest curse.

I've been in the Marauders fandom for a year now and it's actually crazy to me how much it changed my life. I remember I found it because I was in the podcasts section of Spotify and suddenly the name " All the young dudes" appeared and, to this day, I do not know why I clicked on it. I didn't even read the description I just threw myself head first into it and hoped for the best. I'm so glad that I did, I'm so glad that I clicked on that audiobook without knowing anything and preventing prejudices that come with it being a fanfic. It changed my life, it changed me like a person and I no media had ever been capable of doing that. I got into a lot of old music, I started thrifting, I started writing more and I found something to relate and find comfort in.

They are my little bit of magic.

One of the most annoying things in school for me was always when the friends of my brother followed me around and tried speaking to me just because I was the sister of my brother... and you know all those jokes about sisters.

So I kind of imagine Regulus having to deal with the same, specially being Sirius so known around the castle. And it would make Regulus want to kill everyone and himself.

And this would be even funnier when James tries to talk and flirt with him and Regulus in his mind is just thinking " How many laughs will he get with this? He'll probably tell Sirius... and he'll be annoyed. Good." And my poor James is just in love.

I've been drawing all of the yellowjackets while I re-watch to cope with the fact that we're gonna have to wait for season 4. Of course I had to draw my favorite girl Misty.

Today I was out in my balcony taking photos of the sky. When I got back in I wanted to check the photos, but then I realized that I had been holding the camera so hard that I had stained it with the piant I had been using earlier, all because I wanted to protect it and keep it from falling.

When we are in situations of danger and risk we tend to try and protect our loved ones, even if this stains them.

Do you ever think about McGonagall crying in her office when she read the careers Remus wanted to pursue, knowing that her bright little boy could never become a teacher because of his condition?

Do you ever think about how emotional devastating would be for her to see Remus become the new Defense against the dark arts teacher after losing everything and everyone around him to the war?

So... I'm finally reading tcoptp after refusing to read it ,for no reason in particular, for several months now. And I love it! I HAD TO draw this scene as soon as I read it, it was so perfect.