Loser. I'll Remember It.

fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

I had a fight with my boyfriend day before . It was something that I did and I cannot forget about it. Although we have mended it but I am still embarrassed about everything.

Imma say fuck you to each and every person tomorrow!

I get really quiet, when my mind is too loud.

― Albert Camus, Notebooks: 1935-1951

In a day that is so hot and sunny---a day in summer.... Children get to go out and play, Dogs get to go on short walks, and I get to stay at home and study physics. 🫤🙃

I am happy and lazy most days. Less sad days but when day come , they are here to stay longer. Recently I have been wondering if my sad days are meant to last