ok my life has been so dramatic lately i need to start a diary or something bc wtf i need to rant!!!!
ok so there was this show at my hs that i was so excited to try out for bc i felt rlly connected to it!!! it was so interesting and made me think a lot. so i go try out i think i slay and I DONT GET CALLED BACK????? so now i’m pissed and me and some of my friends who also didn’t get called back are chatting and like… i alr knew this was gonna have a lot of favoritism involved bc it’s student directed, the guy has a lot of actor friends, etc. ik he’d alr promised one girl the MAIN role… like girl. callback list is like… ppl he likes, including two girls ik who he’s like…. their father at this point? idk. one girl i do have a crush on but UNIMPORTANT.
so i cry abt it big time and then sign up for auditions for another show for the next day, i do this w a couple of my friends who also didn’t get called back but were at the later slot so it’s basically just us and some seniors… eek. i honestly was 50/50 on my chance of a callback esp bc i told the director i couldn’t make callbacks(i have pickup rehersal for my current show that closes this weekend), but he was like ‘it’s fine i’ll just use today as your callback basically’ which… eek that makes me nervous but ok. and the email comes out and I GET CALLED BACK!!!!!!! i basically jump for joy lmao. it was iconic.
but the big thing is the cast list for the first show came out! the girl that was promised a role got it… wow such a surprise. one of the 2 girls i mentioned before got the main teen part(expected. she’s his freaking golden child ugh I LOVE HER, but ugh) but.. crush did not? which is UNHEARD OF for miss girl bc she is like so talented never been told no her entire life but not… spoiled? idk. and i realize when i was at auditions, i never saw her- the audition room for play 2 is right next to callbacks room for play 1 and they practice outside… so i don’t think she was even THERE???? there is tea to be had and trust i will sniff it out for you, like i need to know lol.
so yea. say your thoughts pls i need human interaction that isn’t from school. send an ask, reblog with thoughts, etc
love ya 💖
haven’t posted abt shifting in a while but here i am!!
FIRST ALBUM: lovebomb
very very thought daughter sad hours.
track 1: snow angel, renee rapp
track 2: teenage dream, olivia rodrigo
track 3: lacy, olivia rodrigo
track 4/single: casual, chappell roan
track 5/mv: people watching, conan gray
track 6/title track: lovebomb, nessa barrett
track 7: kaleidoscope, chappell roan
track 8: dying on the inside, nessa barrett
track 9: illicit affairs, taylor swift
track 10: logical, olivia rodrigo
track 11: tolerate it, taylor swift
1. High inspiration, low motivation. You have so many ideas to write, but you just don’t have the motivation to actually get them down, and even if you can make yourself start writing it you’ll often find yourself getting distracted or disengaged in favour of imagining everything playing out
Try just bullet pointing the ideas you have instead of writing them properly, especially if you won’t remember it afterwards if you don’t. At least you’ll have the ideas ready to use when you have the motivation later on
2. Low inspiration, high motivation. You’re all prepared, you’re so pumped to write, you open your document aaaaand… three hours later, that cursor is still blinking at the top of a blank page
RIP pantsers but this is where plotting wins out; refer back to your plans and figure out where to go from here. You can also use your bullet points from the last point if this is applicable
3. No inspiration, no motivation. You don’t have any ideas, you don’t feel like writing, all in all everything is just sucky when you think about it
Make a deal with yourself; usually when I’m feeling this way I can tell myself “Okay, just write anyway for ten minutes and after that, if you really want to stop, you can stop” and then once my ten minutes is up I’ve often found my flow. Just remember that, if you still don’t want to keep writing after your ten minutes is up, don’t keep writing anyway and break your deal - it’ll be harder to make deals with yourself in future if your brain knows you don’t honour them
4. Can’t bridge the gap. When you’re stuck on this one sentence/paragraph that you just don’t know how to progress through. Until you figure it out, productivity has slowed to a halt
Mark it up, bullet point what you want to happen here, then move on. A lot of people don’t know how to keep writing after skipping a part because they don’t know exactly what happened to lead up to this moment - but you have a general idea just like you do for everything else you’re writing, and that’s enough. Just keep it generic and know you can go back to edit later, at the same time as when you’re filling in the blank. It’ll give editing you a clear purpose, if nothing else
5. Perfectionism and self-doubt. You don’t think your writing is perfect first time, so you struggle to accept that it’s anything better than a total failure. Whether or not you’re aware of the fact that this is an unrealistic standard makes no difference
Perfection is stagnant. If you write the perfect story, which would require you to turn a good story into something objective rather than subjective, then after that you’d never write again, because nothing will ever meet that standard again. That or you would only ever write the same kind of stories over and over, never growing or developing as a writer. If you’re looking back on your writing and saying “This is so bad, I hate it”, that’s generally a good thing; it means you’ve grown and improved. Maybe your current writing isn’t bad, if just matched your skill level at the time, and since then you’re able to maintain a higher standard since you’ve learned more about your craft as time went on
reblog for something lgbt to happen to you TODAY
guys i think i’m hyperfixating again lmao the last time this happened was in high school 😫😫😫😫😫😫 I CANT AFFORD TO BUY A SEWING MACHINE OR MATERIALS OR EVEN TAKE CLASSES I AM SO BROKE RN WAHHHHH
JUST FOUND OUT I GOT THE ROLE!!!!
MARY ELIZABETH WINSTEAD as Ramona Flowers SCOTT PILGRIM VS. THE WORLD 2010 - dir. Edgar Wright
Jason: I have no fears. Percy: What if you woke up one day and Leo was taller than you? Jason: I have one fear
every day i wake up and its blane i blink BLANE i sleep BLANE i dream BLANE the obsession is real
me.