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tee hee(I CANT TELL IF THIS IS SERIOUS OR JOKING HELP IM SRRY)

i’m gonna go insane i swear 😭😭😭😭 why job so hard.

ok my life has been so dramatic lately i need to start a diary or something bc wtf i need to rant!!!!

ok so there was this show at my hs that i was so excited to try out for bc i felt rlly connected to it!!! it was so interesting and made me think a lot. so i go try out i think i slay and I DONT GET CALLED BACK????? so now i’m pissed and me and some of my friends who also didn’t get called back are chatting and like… i alr knew this was gonna have a lot of favoritism involved bc it’s student directed, the guy has a lot of actor friends, etc. ik he’d alr promised one girl the MAIN role… like girl. callback list is like… ppl he likes, including two girls ik who he’s like…. their father at this point? idk. one girl i do have a crush on but UNIMPORTANT.

so i cry abt it big time and then sign up for auditions for another show for the next day, i do this w a couple of my friends who also didn’t get called back but were at the later slot so it’s basically just us and some seniors… eek. i honestly was 50/50 on my chance of a callback esp bc i told the director i couldn’t make callbacks(i have pickup rehersal for my current show that closes this weekend), but he was like ‘it’s fine i’ll just use today as your callback basically’ which… eek that makes me nervous but ok. and the email comes out and I GET CALLED BACK!!!!!!! i basically jump for joy lmao. it was iconic.

but the big thing is the cast list for the first show came out! the girl that was promised a role got it… wow such a surprise. one of the 2 girls i mentioned before got the main teen part(expected. she’s his freaking golden child ugh I LOVE HER, but ugh) but.. crush did not? which is UNHEARD OF for miss girl bc she is like so talented never been told no her entire life but not… spoiled? idk. and i realize when i was at auditions, i never saw her- the audition room for play 2 is right next to callbacks room for play 1 and they practice outside… so i don’t think she was even THERE???? there is tea to be had and trust i will sniff it out for you, like i need to know lol.

so yea. say your thoughts pls i need human interaction that isn’t from school. send an ask, reblog with thoughts, etc

love ya 💖

just got called back for one of my dream roles! stay tuned 🤞

i want a love like i’ve seen in the movies, that’s why i’ll never fall in love

pairing: valgrace (leo valdez x jason grace)

summary: jason is dead. leo writes letters to him to cope.

word count: 418 (oof)

a/n: GUESS WHO FINALLY GOT HER ACT TOGETHER!!!!!! title from ‘like the movies’ by laufey, relates to nothing i just thought it was cute lmao. wrote this at 2am while severely dehydrated and sleep deprived. i did not check, but hopefully the spelling is ok. enjoy!!!!

(dividers by @plutism)

jason,

you’ll never get this. trust me, i know it. you’re gone.

piper says you wrote letters to me when I was gone. gods, why would you write letters? you’re you were dyslexic, you idiot! i’m barely writing right now. this is hard.

i never found the ones you wrote when we were going through your stuff. i wish i did. maybe it could’ve given me some closure, i guess. i hold on to every part of you i can find. your clothes smell less like you every day. the flowers i put at your grave the first day are starting to wilt. 

i still can’t believe it; we were done, out of the woods.(will has been forcing me to listen to taylor swift to try and cheer me up. it’s torture.) now, you’re gone. what’s the point of anything at this point? nothing feels real. one day, i’ll go to elysium. see you again. hopefully. the judges better grant me that mercy. i’ve lived a shit life. i deserve a happy ending. at least, i think i do.

i would go to a therapist, but… i don’t think that would be good for me right now. too much thinking. i usually try not to think. instead, my therapy is building stuff in bunker nine. i’ve been looking at spheres. they can do so much! i almost lasered off my whole arm the other day and but it’s whatever, you don’t want to hear me ramble right now.

i’m reading more, too. you would always get on me about that. well, fake you, at the wilderness school. you were always so righteous. i guess real you was too busy saving the world to annoy me about my reading habits. anyways, i asked annabeth for recommendations. BAD IDEA. now she’s forcing me to read all the “classics”! it’s a nightmare. but some of them are okay, like jane austen. did you know she was a baddie? because she is. but i was reading the canterville ghost, by oscar wilde. there was one line that made me think, which i don’t do much, clearly.

“death must be so beautiful. to lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one’s head, and listen to silence. to have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. to forget time, to forget life, to be at peace.”

i know most of this is wrong. they don’t have any silence in elysium! but for what it’s worth, i hope you’re at peace. you deserve that, after everything.

i miss you.

leo

end note: ANYWAYSSSSSS

i am planning to make a prequel of one of jason’s letters eventually. i rlly hope you liked it! i’ll link it here when it’s done. lmk if you want to be added to the taglist!

GENERAL TAGLIST: @illneverforget365

VALGRACE TAGLIST: n/a

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people watching — conan gray (2021)

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bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

The House of Hades Cupid scene. Idea was that Cupid’s arrow was forcing his chest open to spill out his heart or something