I Really Honestly Believe That There’s Not Enough Appreciation For Internal Contradiction And Conflicting

I really honestly believe that there’s not enough appreciation for internal contradiction and conflicting elements both in terms of characterization and relationships.

Like Cas both wants to belong and has the impulse to just go out and do things on his own. He is both proud and ashamed. He is ancient and new. Etc etc.

Dean both feels the need to be the moral authority and is crushed by the burden of it. When he needs the people around him is exactly when he pushes them away. He clings to this rough-and-tumble individualist masculinity, but all he really wants is his family to be together.

And the main thing I've been thinking of is how with Dean and Cas, we always talk about how there’s a fundamental disconnect and miscommunication between them. But I think that sometimes we forget that their relationship is built on their fundamental similarity, on them relating to one another. Like there’s at least a couple of things Misha has said about Cas that I disagree with, but one that i find really interesting is (and I wish I remembered when/where this was) that sometimes Cas feels like Dean is the only one in the world he can relate to.

Like these are contradictory things, but they are all true, and it's important that they’re all true, because contradictory things being true at the same time is was creates tension and creates movement, it's what keeps things dynamic and interesting.

The other day I mentioned a post that had a quadrant chart with a war criminal-angel axis and a virgin-slut axis, and how someone said that Cas was in the middle. But he’s not in the middle, he's at the extremes simultaneously. Like he’s not in some milquetoast little-bit-of-both center. He is all the way at the edges. And you would think it's untenable but that's exactly what makes it interesting.

And I guess that’s also my number one critique on Cas mischaracterizarion. When he's just one thing. When he’s just the poorest little self-doubting wet cat, or just a badass bamf, or just understanding and wise and empathetic, or just alien and clueless. None of those are right. And he’s not in the mushy middle of these things. He's flipping between them, he exists in the overturn, in the revolution.

Castiel is the best, most loyal soldier, and he is the most zealous rebel. He is inhuman and the most human. He is full of self-doubt and he has the courage of his convictions.

This started out as a general post and then became a Castiel post. Because Castiel. But yeah, I don’t think you can fully understand Cas, and therefore understand destiel, unless you embrace internal contradiction.

Tags

THIS i like when people write down all those brainrot thoughts and things i sometimes may miss or like not fully understand a big thanks to all those tumblr text posts ops you keep me living

More Posts from Microwavebeeep and Others

microwavebeeep

7 months ago

waste of some perfectly good coffee

Tags

soft sooo cute same dean same

5K notes View Post

microwavebeeep

10 months ago

Silly eepy kitty 🥱

Overworked little kitty 😔

Two lovely kitties! 😊

And one full page

Tags

art sketch traditional art genshin impact kaveh alhaitham kavehtham haikaveh kaveh genshin alhaitham genshin i love drawing little things like these so much drawing silly anime men keeps me alive does anybody here feels the same way?

74 notes View Post

microwavebeeep

5 months ago

Touch starved

speech bubble translation under the cut ⬇️

Dean: your hair is so fluffy in the morning :D

Cas: Dean, stop!

Every moment with cupping face gets me

Tags

art artists on tumblr traditional art supernatural dean x castiel dean winchester deancas castiel spn destiel castiel novak i still can't decide how to draw Cas' hair why is it so hard please at least i decided about his boobs...

58 notes View Post

microwavebeeep

7 months ago

I've felt normal about spn for the past year and now I find myself suddenly caught with the burning need to resume writing 2 huge fanfiction projects, start a new destiel fanvid and post fandom stuff what is GOING ON

Tags

yes same i just wanted to rewatch one episode for fun but somehow i ended up thinking about destiel 24/7 again after 4 years episode was 6x20 so actually no fun...

54 notes View Post

microwavebeeep

9 months ago

I Just Love Mettaton From Undertale And Aoyama From Hero Academia! They REALLY Have The Same Vibe! Ok,

I just love Mettaton from Undertale and Aoyama from Hero Academia! They REALLY have the same vibe! ok, but... what if you combine them?

(don’t judge strictly, this is my first full-time job in digital :3)

and sorry, my English is terrible because I translate through a translator, hahah

Я просто обожаю Меттатона из андертейла и Аояму из геройской академии! У них ДЕЙСТВИТЕЛЬНО один вайб! окей, но... что если совместить их?

(не судите строго, это моя первая полноценная работа в диджитале :3)

33 notes View Post

microwavebeeep

4 months ago

Actually, this girl is my veeeery old oc I redraw every two years... And I'm not sure what this one tells about me. Maybe that I change materials chaotically. Or that her personality has changed from silly little teen to depressed young girl and then again to silly but more adult.

🎄 Is she decorating a tree or making a noose? 🎄

Close-up bc quality sucks

The last full colored art work I did this year hooray!

Tags

art artists on tumblr redraw original character

7 notes View Post

microwavebeeep

3 months ago

This song is very much so Destial coated in my opinion and it brings tears to my eyes.

I can imagine a fic written around this song.

Castial has been consumed by the empty. Dean is alone replying all the small touches, longing stares, and the most profound “I love you” he has ever received. All he can think or dream about is Cas’s eyes. Sorrow filled blue seared into the back of his mind, yet the happiest that damn angel has ever been.

He drinks to drown the Cas shaped space missing from his bed. Mind spinning on all the missed moments when he could have let his best friend know that he does in fact love him back.

‘There was a time, there was magic in the air

In my mind, there are memories everywhere of you and me together

I thought it would last forever

There was a time, oh, there was a time

I lost you, thought I had you but you were never really mine

So I'm crying, yeah, I'm dying, you're not next to me tonight

If I could get that close, oh, heaven only knows

I wouldn't be blue over you (blue)

Blue over you

Now that you're gone, I don't know what to say (say)

Just trying to think that everything's okay (everything's okay)

It's too quiet, but I'm trying to fill this empty space