cleaning up.
i don’t know why i’m back. it’s difficult to put all this behind me, it’s too soon to move on from an exam that i dedicated two years of my life to, so quickly- i feel like it isn’t fair to me. i don’t know if ill post but ill stick around, until im ready to leave? i don’t know honestly but i was cleaning up today- two years of my life has been solely this exam. i felt guilty taking breaks, going to sleep before 3 am made me feel like a failure and i compensated for that for the next day. all the breakdowns and self worth questioning- i put up with everything- just for this one dream- to be a doctor, to make my parents proud but here we are, on the floor- two days after the exam, still sobbing. how does anyone get over this? is there any point in taking a drop? they did this for two years, they’ll do it again. i feel so lost and purposeless. i’ve only ever dreamed of my life with this. my imagination never exceeded what happens after the exam. i feel directionless. i don’t know what to do with my time anymore. but i also don’t feel guilty for taking a break. maybe that’s a good thing? i don’t know.
was life ever more than the exam?
11 march 2025
alr so i woke up earlier than i normally do cuz i couldn’t sleep (it’s like a cocktail of insomnia, anxiety and stress) 😭 idk i don’t trust myself to remember all this content
anyways, today’s agenda is to just revise the entire syllabus. currently done with half. 🌸
also the paper got leaked like five times and they’re all the wrong leaks (wtaf is happening) but yeah 😭 i don’t trust these leaks so id rather just study the entire syllabus.
welp i just gotta revise all of this and go through mcq’s for all chapters cus that’s where i lose marks a lot, it’s gonna be another long night (when is it not) but i just gotta get this over with now.
anyways, have a nice day my loves <3
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alsooo the moon looked pretty last night <3
nhi hora mere se aur
hi! i'm a different anon, but saw your previous post with pictures of your beautiful desk and i was wondering if you had any tips on creating a nice workspace? Mine is immensely boring and i would love to change that.
Obviously if you're busy, no worries and feel free to ignore this. Love your blog! Hope you have a nice day :)
hii anon <3
it took me over 3 years of constantly changing my desk for it to look like this and honestly it rarely looks as organised as it was yday- life happens and books pile up, it’s left unclean for weeks on end cuz you’re too stressed about something else and that’s okay !
welll to create a nice workspace - i def don’t think i have achieved that yet cuz there’s a lot on my desk and to me, i love minimalistic workspaces where the desk only has things you *need*
but to romanticise your workplace here’s some tips that helped me out ehehe :
pick a colour scheme w one or two colours (one might be too monochrome so normally pick two- make sure they aren’t hard on your eyes and v subtle tones) mine is white and creamy beige :)
get some greens around : real plants are def pretty but not everyone can handle them (i killed a cactus in three days) so fake plants do an amazing job too ! i got mine from ikea :)
candles could be nice if you’re conscious enough to not burn down your desk !!
print out aesthetic stickers from pinterest or use postcards like i do around your wall in front of your desk <3 make sure the content on these is either motivating or calms your brain in some way :)
make it a habit to clean your desk every week and clean mainly where you work everyday :) even if it isn’t dirty, it tends to make you feel more motivated and better overall !!
cute stationary doesn’t make a lot of difference and is a lot to buy since it’s a repetitive thing to buy so i wouldn’t suggest it :) just find what pens/stationary that works for you and stick to it !
cute calendars make a difference to me! there’s a lot of printables online
maintain daily log diary to note down imp tasks, what’s on your mind etc :) i always make sure that my diary has a cute cover (the handwriting inside is vile but that doesn’t matter !!)
i have a lot of memoirs from trips i’ve been to on my desk which is a v cute and nostalgic reminder of memories :)
in the end, it’s your workplace and do what makes you feel comfortable and happy to work there :)
i hope these tips helped anon <3 thanks for the ask :)
i really wanna buy a digital camera :(((( (the second hand ones that give such a cute vintage look)
7 april 2025
picnic day out with friends - i had so so so much fun and i really needed this honestly 😭
i’ve been out for over 7 hours and just got home. time to lock in and finish 12th bio - except ecology i’m hoping to finish it all tonight and also i’m gonna have to fill manipal entrance form so i’ll get that done too. i’m super tired but well i need to study too so let’s get it done.
have a nice day loves 🌸
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soooo my dad told me i’m not allowed to do bpharma anymore, so no more plan b :/ neet is my only option apparently? lol i’m gonna crash out gn
damn.
the moon got shy?
5 march 2025
hihiiii
okay so i finished revising today, im doing questions for each chapter and hopefully i’ll be able to do at least half the portions by tonight. i’ve been trying to get in more productivity hours so i think ill have to start waking up earlier (ironic considering the insomnia) but yeah
to do list :
revise first seven chapters of physics with questions and derivations
plant kingdom reading ncert
welp that’s more or less it for today
have a lovely day <33
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20 february 2025
long time no seeeee 🫶🏽
it kinda slipped my mind to post, i haven’t been doing aloooooot but a decent amount everyday.
ok i don’t remember exactly what ive done this past week :”) i didn’t really follow my to do list so i don’t have a record of what ive done exactly but here it goes
what i’ve been up to :
alternating current - 200 questions + pyq
solutions - theory for boards, neet + questions (pyq is left)
haloalkanes and haloarenes - theory revision
sexual reproduction in flowering plants - theory + questions + pyq
human health and diseases - theory + questions
microbes in human welfare - theory + questions
excretory products and their elimination- theory
locomotion and movement - theory
neural control and coordination - theory
chemical coordination and integration - theory
coordination compounds - boards
d and f block - boards
electrochemistry - boards + neet + questions
so out of the last six days, i only studied for four (burn out hits hard) but im getting back on track now, hopefully. i’ve quit all my social media, so hopefully i’ll waste lesser time on my phone now. i plan to do one physical chemistry chapter everyday too since its my weakest subject. i’m also trying to do one chapter of organic chemistry, at least the theory. i’ve finished all of 12th zoology and only have three chapters left in 11th zoology which i’ll finish eventually. i’ve got ecology left but i’ll have to do it for my boards anyway so im not too worried about that. (i really struggle with ecology, it’s so boring) other than that, i’ve got 11th physics left and 12th physics questions that im doing one chapter a day, so i’ll be able to cover that too.
exams getting closer is really scary man 🥲 anyways, goodluck to yall too <33
tumblr update ??? or am i just slow
ill find a new place to be from :)🧿neet 2025, what a fucking joke.
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