Mentalsstuff - Lou

Having an eating disorder is far too goddamn fucking annoying. I'm either torn between starving myself until it hurts or eating because I know I'll just fail at starving.

when suddenly the door opens in the ancient temple that you and your 68 year old uncle broke into and you find out he had already been trying for 65 years when he realised you are the key because youre now 14 years old and your middle name is Kile which by the way is not even Key or Kilo but is somehow still good enough to unlock the kilo door (KILO DOOR) and so he lured you into the temple to then get you to go down 100 miles to the kilo door (KILO DOOR) using the rope you got as a present from your mom which coincidentally is exactly 100 miles long while this whole time your uncle has been pretending to forget about all the booby traps even though he'd been in there every single day since he was 3 which he did admit to but yes OH MY GOD what a shock

the SOUND of the slaps is incredible

I didn’t plan for a future. I didn’t expect to live

I've failed myself so much these last 3 weeks.. I've been eating without looking at the calories and giving up even trying to limit what I've been eating, making these dumb excuses for myself.

I feel unbelievably disgusting and fat. So angry at myself for letting it get to this point.

This is the time that something needs to happen, because I know that I won't be able to hold on like this for long.

'Am I going to be able to deliver this slap? What if I just slooowly turn around and as I'm turning I keep talking to distract hi- YES I DID IT!'

'Sorrysorrysorry (I really enjoyed that)'

I bought a scale to weigh myself, I just did and now I feel disgusting

#lovemyideas /s

Listen. Cut your own hair. Dye it blue, then shave it off when you’re bored of it. Wear that outfit with those shoes. Paint your nails with all the colors of the rainbow. Get that tattoo. Go to the movies alone. Get coffee, then drink it at that special place you like. Mouth the words of the song you’re listening to on public transport. Put that thing on your wall. Bake. Draw. Dance in your underwear. Life is so much better when you don’t give a fuck

me trying to teach music to a classroom full of little kids now that I've got my bachelors degree in music

AJ really felt that 'well done' from Sam