Melanchollymonkey - Mutual Mass Confusion

what was it about me that wasn’t enough for you?

i can change

“We wouldn’t have worked out anyway.” He says, laughing quietly. But I notice the uncertainty in his voice, how the words roll off his tongue strangely; as if he’s trying and failing to convince himself of his own words. My eyes flicker to his for a moment, long enough to notice the vulnerability beneath them.

I turn away from him and I force a laugh and nod in agreement, desperately trying to ignore the dangerous thoughts forming in my head. I can’t afford to think of what if’s and what could’ve been. To think of us happy together, had we done things a little differently. That would be torture.

- cece (melancholicwritings)

https://iglovequotes.net/

https://iglovequotes.net/

I don’t want to miss your voice, don’t want to miss your care and love and if I miss these I am missing what makes my life worth living.

Always. Time and time again.

https://iglovequotes.net/

Feeling lost in loss.

I wish I were able to articulate myself when speaking to you. I love you so much. I have loved you since we were just friends, flirting with each other across the table. My love for you has omy grown since then, & continues to grow, even if my heart is broken. I am sorry I ever let you feel I Was not interested or no longer loved you. I tend to get sucked into a pattern of comfort & familiarity, & since you don't say anything, I figure were good. NEVER BELIEVE I DONT Love You. You are my everything. I have no idea where we go from here, but I pray its together. I have no family, & few friends, & To lose you I would be losing a great friend and even better lover. Not even counting how much Id miss the Puppy Monkey Baby. I love you so much & hope you still love Me & are willing to Mend our relationship. I truly feel we only need to learn to talk to each other. I know it sounds easier than it is/will be, but I want you with me forever. I would ask you to marry me, if you werent still married, & I had my shit together enough to deserve a wife such as you I just hope you stick with me until I get myself back on track. I know you have been patient & given more time for me to do this, than most people would put up with, & I thank you for this. I just ask you to keep on believing in us & Ill get it together as soon as I can. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone before, & truly believe you are my One. Never doubt my love for you. Never think Im going to leave you, Never think ive lost interest. You are always with me. In my heart, mind,& soul. Even if Im not so good at expressing it. Know it to be true. I am totally & utterly in love with & love you.