Madampizzadog - A Person Who Exists

I AM SOBBING 😭😭 THIS BOOK

In my mind palace/alternate history to the alternate history, Robin goes home with Ramy.

He travels with him all the way to India just to meet his family, to enjoy their hospitality, and to explore Ramy's home through his eyes. It is joy, because they never imagined that this luxury would be afforded them. Freedom. Solitude together.

Escape from Oxford doesn't exactly change their relationship, but it somehow magnifies it. For all that they know about each other, there are parts they can never quite see clearly, living in a city where Ramy is always performing, and Robin is always hiding.

Mischief, stubbornness, native tongues, old songs, memories, irreverence, childhood passions they laugh to remember, it all bubbles to the surface.

It is the first time Robin understands the word home in a very long time. The lightning and thunder between them rumbles. It transforms. It explodes into fireworks that Robin can hold in his hands, for just a moment.

In a quiet moment under a banyan tree, Robin scoots close to Ramy and says softly, without looking at him, "If I ever lost you, I don't think I could go on".

Ramy says gently, fondly, "There's no need to be morose, Birdie, we are young and free, which means that we are immortal," and he slings his arm around Robin's shoulders.

Robin wiggles closer, against his warmth, and insists that he means it. He can't say what he means, but inside he knows that he has lost so much, he truly thinks that his soul is too damaged, he wouldn't be able to weather it. Ramy is the embodiment of love, the very definition. He is home. He doesn't say it, though. He sits tongue tied. Ramy was always the brave one, not him.

Ramy looks at him quizzically for a moment. Then he promises with a gallant grin that even if he ever dies, he won't leave. He will haunt Robin in his dreams. They laugh, and somehow Robin is reassured. And then after a moment of peaceful silence, Ramy leans over and kisses him.

Brave Ramy.

Beautiful Ramy.

It is Robin's first kiss. Ramy's too. It doesn't matter that it is wobbly and awkward. It is soft and warm and it is love.

Chapters: 4/12 Fandom: Sherlock (TV), Sherlock Holmes & Related Fandoms Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sherlock Holmes/John Watson Characters: John Watson, Sherlock Holmes, Mike Stamford, Irene Adler (Sherlock Holmes), Sally Donovan, Molly Hooper, Greg Lestrade, Harry Watson Additional Tags: POV Alternating, First Meetings, Developing Friendships, Friends to Lovers, Falling In Love, Alternate Universe - Earlier Meeting, Angst and Feels, Fluff, Coming Out, Demisexual Sherlock Holmes, Gay John Watson, First Love, Suicidal Thoughts, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Homophobic Language, Unilock, Idiots in Love, Best Friends, Friendship/Love, Awkward Flirting Summary:

London, 1998.

In a time of hollowness and upheaval, two wayward young men wander into each other’s lives, forever altering the course of history.

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“You’re worried.”

“Am I?”

“Mm. Uncertain.”

“Aren’t you?”

Sherlock’s eyes flutter open, piercing and pure in the train’s low light. “No.” He says it with such conviction John’s breath sticks in his throat, rushing out of him a moment later on a shuddering sigh.

Review: This story is completely sucking me in. So beautifully and sparely written. Lovely reading! I look forward to seeing how they come together.

just said "fruity eyeliner wizard" out loud while talking about magnus and it's the best thing I've ever said goodbye

reblog if you'll come with me to revolt against the duffer brothers if byler isn't canon

Around 1977, Sirius showing up at Grimmauld at night to take his sensible little brother around the rowdy bits of London where the punk scene is developing and all his favourite people and pubs are, just trying to get this prim and proper little idiot to relax and at least try to act as though he likes these people

He's so wary of it that Sirius is practically parenting him, walking with a hand placed between his shoulders to keep him walking forward while reg looks around in fear

They absolutely meet some super chill lesbian with a massive Mohawk and millions of hand-made patches whom reg is terrified of until she decides to take him under her wing and off Sirius' hands for a couple of minutes to get to know him. To his surprise he has never felt so genuinely cared for in a conversation with a stranger before.

He ends up feeling so comfortable that on the tube journey back home, he's sitting in silence playing with the 'queer is punk' badge she gave him as he tries to process what just happened. Sirius is smugly sitting on the other side of the carriage watching the thoughts race through his mind and knowing he's planted a couple of seeds of doubt in his mind while also managing to do something together to bring them closer to being friends again

honestly so many words sound like pretty baby names but then it turns out you can't use them bc they have Other Stupid Meanings. i mean come on. Allegra. Edema. Nitroglycerin. pretty! pretty baby names

....but.... why?

so Finn said this..

“don’t worry it’ll pay off in the end” 👀 

“we’re gonna be like yes something went right for him” 👀👀

and..

also ..

Mike thought the painting was for a girl Will liked then Will brought it with him and gave it to him and for a few seconds he thought he was the one Will actually liked but then Will lied and said El commissioned it (which is why he told her all those things during the monologue scene) and in s5 he’s gonna find out Will loves him back 

so the painting reveal (and the gay Mike reveal) will happen later in the season.. probably in the 5th episode.. oh and Finn’s wearing blue and yellow socks (yes he knows about the “when blue meets yellow in the west” byler thing)

Between the new percy jackson tv show coming and the hunger games prequel no-one will stop me from going back to my 2012 self