As A ND Person, I Hate Having To Take Communications Courses In College. It Reaffirms That NT People

I must be doing something right to get an invitation to both the Honors program and National Society of Leadership & Success at my college, right? I think? I have imposter syndrome despite all of this and having a 4.0 for my degree. My family reminds me that I’m doing well but it’s hard to remember sometimes.

This round of imposter syndrome is brought to you by receiving an invitation in the mail. Gah!

Horse got a new toy

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I’m somewhere between 4 & 5, closer to 5, with a dash of ADHD wtf-ness. Almost all of my brain noise is audio, and I have to really focus to see a vague shape of anything.

i have neither a good imagination nor aphantasia, but a secret third thing

Sings I’m struggling:

My body feels heavy & tired

I find it hard to respond to messages

I feel like nothing I do is good enough

I can't motivate myself

I can't stop myself scrolling through social media

I have panic attacks

I spend more time by myself

Little things get to me

I find it hard to get up & ready in the mornings

My usual coping mechanisms don't help very much

I can't focus or still my thoughts

Things become disorganised & untidy

I doubt myself

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Mental Health

I’ve always wanted to be on a jury but I never make it to the selection process. Closest I’ve been is in the waiting area and told they don’t need anyone else.

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Note taking day for my forensic science class. I have 2 chapters to read this week, plus a short answer assignment.

I’m also putting off making an outline for my research report for my business communications class. It’s stressing me out.

I’m done with my gender and society class and have 4 weeks left until I’m done with my associates. Almost 20 years in the making.

Yesterday I made the decision to go for my bachelors in data analytics and programming. It still feels crazy but I think it’s the right decision.

My brother got married. In December. I know we aren’t close but I still wish I would have known before now.

This is me. There are so many things I can’t eat because I hate the taste. I’ve always been a picky eater. When I was 4 and 5, I wouldn’t eat any pizza with seasonings in their sauce. I also associate foods with bad experiences and can’t eat them anymore - like the time I stopped eating grilled cheese for 2 decades because a fly landed on one when I was a kid. Food is such a hard thing for me.

shoutout 2 the autistic ppl w "picky eating" about tastes. i hear a lot abt textures but rise up my taste hating tumblrinas.

Everything by Richard Bach, but especially Jonathan Livingston Seagull and Illusions.

what's a book you read as a teenager that was so magical and personally profound to you it literally changed your life, doesnt matter if the book was actually well written or not. mine's probably the catcher in the rye