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My discipline the year has improved so much. Patting myself on the back.

Finally going to start decorating my room.

there’s no rule as to how big or how small you’re allowed to dream. if you just want a small home and an orange kitchen and four cats that’s just as reasonable of a goal to work for as a big new york penthouse. and if all you really want is a simplistic career that isn’t the center of your life then that’s just as valid as dreaming of becoming a famous fashion designer or ceo. i know everyone keeps urging you to dream big, but dreams can be as simple and small as you want. they’ll always be valid. you decide how you want to live and what kind of life you want, no one else.

Back to school season means shaping your fyp to contain tons and tons of study and school content.

Why did this nasty girl sit right next to me during lecture and start coughing all in the air like crazy. Didn't even cover her mouth once.

I want to become more comfortable speaking up for myself, having audacity, and just embrace the close mouth don't get fed mentality.

Three areas of my life that I need to speak up more, is school, friends, and to be honest just in general.

My fear of being perceived as a bitch is holding me back and making me not speak up and express my mind.

I also hate confrontation which is also why it's hard for me to speak up when something goes wrong.

I will say this, my dad is a very confrontational person. It's to the point that I don't even like going to places with him because I fear he is going to cause a scene. I know I just said that I wanted to have more audacity, but he takes it too far. He's literally a male Karen (still love him). I guess its about finding that balance and becoming assertive not aggressive because as another saying goes, you get further with honey than vinegar.