I Keep Telling Myself I Am Going To Give Guys A Chance, But Every Single Time The Opportunity Presents

This is your reminder to read the Bible.

You’re never too old to learn something new. Never stop studying. 

I want to become more comfortable speaking up for myself, having audacity, and just embrace the close mouth don't get fed mentality.

Three areas of my life that I need to speak up more, is school, friends, and to be honest just in general.

My fear of being perceived as a bitch is holding me back and making me not speak up and express my mind.

I also hate confrontation which is also why it's hard for me to speak up when something goes wrong.

I will say this, my dad is a very confrontational person. It's to the point that I don't even like going to places with him because I fear he is going to cause a scene. I know I just said that I wanted to have more audacity, but he takes it too far. He's literally a male Karen (still love him). I guess its about finding that balance and becoming assertive not aggressive because as another saying goes, you get further with honey than vinegar.

constantly thinking about how badly i need to be railed by a loving, sweet guy. (i’ve never never even been kissed.)

Being at university has allowed me to spend more time with my extended family, and honestly, it's been the highlight of my year.

Seeing the loving environment my mom grew up in, I now understand what she means when she says she didn’t feel poor growing up.

My birthday was three weeks ago, but I couldn’t see my extended family that weekend. I went last week instead, and my aunts and cousins surprised me with a small get-together. It was so sweet. I felt so loved.

My time here has really changed my mindset. I’ve always believed that money was everything and that you could be happy alone. But now, I’m starting to realize that no amount of money compares to having a loving family or community to share life with.

Something in my gut is telling me the year is going to be filled with even more blessings.

Academic Goals

-graduate top of my class

-graduate with at least a 3.7 gpa

-get my first job (don't care if its working in the library or whatever, just want to get my first job ever before graduating college)

-doing more of what I love and finding new hobbies

-intern at a hospital

-NETWORK!! (make more friends in general/I have some but honestly I need more variety)

-try all the local restaurants/clubs

-study abroad

-make contacts with professionals in my desired industry

-connect more with professors (struggling at this right now)

-join clubs

-date more

Basically I expect myself to graduate at the top of my class, secure a job at some of the top hospitals in the US (shoot for the stars, why not the world) , and become healthier, hotter, and smarter, while working hard until I establish myself and eventually settle down and have kids.

Sounds a little bit delusional, but hey if I do not succeed, at least I tried

Cant wait to get back from university and start my mini garden