Trigger Warning: Suicidal Thoughts

Trigger Warning: Suicidal Thoughts

I saw some friends in my dream last night. One of them I haven't talked to in over a year, not for lack of trying. He just doesn't need my friendship anymore. Anyway, he was happy to see me in the dream and we hugged and fellowshipped. I was happy. It was nice.

Been really lonely lately. Been getting beat down by the cruelty of my coworkers. I don't understand why people are so mean. Wish I was stronger so it didn't affect me.

This life isn't worth living.

Feel like shit bothering my moots all the time. Not their fault I don't have a life. How do I explain that this is the only place I have to connect to people? My therapist would say, "Simple, you don't." All in all, I think I'm handling the isolation well.

"I think I'm gonna kill myself. Cause a little suicide." This song by Elton John came on shuffle yesterday... I'm not influential enough or powerful enough or whatever you wanna call it to make the world a better place. This was said as a joke, but I'm starting to believe it's true that the only positive impact I could make is if I go to sleep and never wake up.

Here's hoping.

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7 months ago

So boops are actually happening again, I just can't participate.

Are people actually able to boop each other right now? I'm confused on what's happening. Why can't I boop? I haven't seen an "opt in" option or anything to let me participate. I feel like I'm being pranked by everyone.

5 months ago

send this to all your favourite moots and roll a snowball! KEEP THE SNOWBALL ROLLING!β„οΈπŸ€β„οΈπŸ€β„οΈ :)

You're so sweet πŸ’™β˜ƒοΈπŸ’™

8 months ago

I ship you with Robert Lewis from A Life Less Ordinary because he's a passionate writer and a little goofy. You seem to really be into story analysis and fandom which some people might find goofy/nerdy. So I think y'all would get along.

I Ship You With Robert Lewis From A Life Less Ordinary Because He's A Passionate Writer And A Little

(this is for your reblog of the anon shipping post but you don't have anonymous turned on so I hope this is still okay)

I have never heard of this character before, but passionate, writer, and goofy definitely speaks to me lol

4 months ago

I'm glad to see you active, I've been worried about you. πŸ’–πŸ«‚

I had to take some time away for a bit.

Thank you for thinking about me. πŸ«‚ I didn't think anyone would notice my absence because for some reason, I believe that I don't exist unless I'm actively doing something for someone else, smh. It means a lot that you cared.

To those that left me kind messages after my last post, I don't know what to say. I didn't expect anyone to read it or care. Your compassion touched me deeply. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. ❀️

5 months ago

I like wondering what a Scarecrow music video would look like. Also, it's the last song I listened to on Spotify today 😁

I think my top choice for a music video would be DESTROYA. I feel like Gerard would make it a big spectacle filled production like Welcome to the Black Parade but...neon or something lol

What's a song from Danger Days that you wish got a music video?

Scarecrow or an actual plot video of planetary if that’s a possibility :3


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Oh Zoe was a Ewan movie that took me by surprise by just how much I enjoyed it. I love Ewan’s character in it! Cole feels deeply, is empathic, and is just so sad. I spend the whole movie just wanting to wrap him up in a hug and make him feel better. He’s smart and his smile and the way his eyes light up when he’s excited is just too adorable. πŸ’• must protect at all costs

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6. Ewan McGregor Movie Review: Trainspotting (1996)

6. Ewan McGregor Movie Review: Trainspotting (1996)

We've made it to another year and it's a big one! That's right, Ewan only had two projects in 1995, but that's because our boy was extremely busy in '96. He released FOUR movies that year! What's really wild is that isn't even his record number for movies released in one year. 😱

A quick fun fact before we get started: The producer of "Trainspotting", Andrew Macdonald, has a cameo in the movie as a prospective renter. He was also the producer for "Shallow Grave"!

Genre: Crime/Drama

Rating: R

Director: Danny Boyle

Starring: Ewan McGregor, Jamie Lee Miller, Ewen Bremner, Robert Carlyle, Kevin McKidd, Kelly McDonald

Movie Review: The movie "Trainspotting" reunited Danny Boyle as director, John Hodge as screenwriter, and Ewan McGregor as leading man. "It is about a group of friends/heroin addicts living day to day in Edinburgh, Scotland. Their only goal is to score their next hit of the drug by any means necessary. The story is told from the perspective of the main character, Mark Renton, who attempts and struggles at getting clean. The movie is essentially a day in the life of an addict. Like a train wreck, you can't look away, even as the characters speed towards death. It's unflinchingly honest, gritty and captivating. It was also a smash hit! Nowadays, people primarily know Ewan McGregor for his role as Obi-Wan Kenobi but may not know that his role in Trainspotting is what actually launched his career.

Ewan Review: Ewan McGregor plays the main character Mark Renton aka Renton. Renton is a junkie who loves being a junkie. For him, there is no greater pleasure than being high. Though he sometimes realizes that sobriety is the better choice, he can't help but to fall back into addiction. He's a selfish asshole (a recurring theme with Ewan characters) who is friends with selfish assholes. Renton also has a sexual relationship with a child. The movie doesn't frame this relationship negatively or explore any repercussions so do with that information as you will. Ewan gives a stellar performance and even lost around thirty pounds for the role!

Screentime Percentage (Numbers are rounded to the nearest whole number): Ewan is on screen for a total of 52/94 minutes making his SP 55%. This is his highest score yet!

To Ewan or not to Ewan: Is the movie worth watching for Ewan McGregor content alone? Yes. Is it worth watching in general? Yes. Fair warning, the movie can be dry-heave inducing. There's nudity, graphic depictions of drug use, lots of blood, two feces scenes, and decaying bodies.

Where to Watch: "Trainspotting" is currently for rent on YouTube or you can watch it for free on soap2day. You can also stream it if you have a subscription to Paramount+, MGM+, or Amazon Prime Video.

Conclusion: "Trainspotting" is a movie deserving of its accolades. The writing is phenomenal, the actors gave it their all, the soundtrack is perfect, and the opening monologue is iconic. It's my belief that everyone should watch this movie at least once.

6. Ewan McGregor Movie Review: Trainspotting (1996)

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