What A Fun Game! I Love It! I Agree With Most Of These Headcanons. Now I Wanna Do One! 😁

Treat anything on Discord as media that will be lost

Do not use Discord to host your files. Do not rely on Discord to preserve your text. DO NOT RELY ON DISCORD FOR ANY KIND OF PRESERVATION OR HOSTING!!

It CAN be lost, it WILL be lost! You must consider Discord as a part of the Core Internet, controlled by one company that hosts the servers.

I thought it was impressive at first that it replaced IRC, but now I am horrified. If the company behind Discord went under today, how many friends would you lose?

How many relationships? How much writing?

You may think this won't happen, but I remember when AIM went down and along with it, entire novels worth of interaction with my oldest friend.

IT CAN HAPPEN TO YOU. IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN. NO COMPANY IS INFALLIBLE.

Back up your files! Download anything you've saved to Discord NOW, before the API changes go into effect! And DO NOT RELY ON THEM FOR HOLDING IMPORTANT FILES!

PSA: Ewan McGregor Movie Review

The next movie on the list for review is "Black Hawk Down." A film about the United States' military conflict with Somalia. On principle, I do not watch war movies. I believe that there are much better ways to learn about the devastation of war than watching a movie that, despite even its best efforts, will glamorize the tragedy. For that reason, "Black Hawk Down" will be skipped. The next movie to be reviewed will be "Attack of the Clones."

I feel like I'm dying. I feel like I'm floating. I'm not really here. I'm so tired. I can't sleep. I want a hug. I want to disappear. I want to cry. I want to bleed. I really don't want to go to work. I'm scared to not to. I'm so fucking tired. I'm so fucking worthless. I don't know what to hold on to. There's nothing. A hug could save me right now. One tender touch could make all the difference. I need...something.

The Ewan Match Maker Game

I've been tumbling this around in my head and I don't think it's nearly fleshed out enough but I wanna do it anyway 😅 What better way to work out the kinks, right?

Okay, so the game is that I'm going to match you to who I think is your perfect Ewan McGregor character boyfriend!

All I need from you is to reblog this post with the answer to 3 simple questions.

What is your favorite movie? (does not have to be Ewan related)

What is currently your #1 song on repeat?

Describe your favorite character in 3 words (don't tell me the character)

I'll send my answer to you in your ask box!

Let's see how well this goes lol

For the Ewan character ask game:

Q17 + Alex Law.

He’s my bbygirl 💚

17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

Well, this is an interesting question for Alex because, from what I recall, there are only six named characters beside him in Shallow Grave. The few other characters he interacted with are nameless and/or have no speaking lines. Plus, I don't think I actually ship Alex with anyone. So, I guess I'll say Cameron. He seems really sweet and maybe they could make up and start over.

Thanks for the ask!

17. Ewan McGregor Movie Review: Eye of the Beholder (1999)

Well, we're here. We finally made it to Ewan's last movie of the 1990's. Seventeen. That's how many movies our fave did in the 90's. That's not including tv shows and short films. Seventeen. Movies. Let me put this in perspective. Ewan's big screen debut was in 1994. In the span of FIVE YEARS he did SEVENTEEN movies! Five years, y'all! Out of those seventeen he starred in eleven! Who else is putting up these kind of numbers? Do y'all realize how astounding a career start that is? He wasn't a child actor. He didn't have insider connections. He was a nobody 22 year old with a dream. I'm sure even he never imagined that he would experience that insane amount of success in such a small amount of time. There's a lot that had to go into his success that I could ramble about for hours. But what I will say is that he has got to be the luckiest actor alive.

Genre: Thriller/Mystery

Rating: R

Director: Stephan Elliott

Starring: Ewan McGregor, Ashley Judd

Movie Synopsis: A British spy know as "The Eye" is sent on a mission to gather intel on his target. When he witnesses his target's murder at the hands of a mysterious woman, he feels an immediate connection to her and strives to keep her from getting caught. His strange compulsion turns into obsession as he secretly follows her and devotes himself to protecting her no matter the cost.

Ewan Review: Ewan plays the character Stephen Wilson aka The Eye. Stephen is a quiet and withdrawn person. He is emotionally and mentally fragile ever since the abrupt loss of his daughter and still sees her everywhere. When he first sees the mysterious woman, he feels a paternal instinct ignite inside him and believes she can fill the hole left by his daughter. I think Ewan gives a good performance in this role. The character is subdued yet intriguing. His motivations are just as mysterious as the woman he stalks which pulls you in. He doesn't have a love interest. He gets into two fights and beats someone bloody in one of them. He doesn't have any nudity but Ashley Judd does. Truth be told, the draw of this movie truly is the acting. Both Ewan and Ashley Judd's performances are amazing. Watching him fall deeper into his obsession is disturbingly mesmerizing. You wonder how far he will go and how long he can keep this up. If you're into yandere and Ewan McGregor then this was made for you.

Screentime Percentage: Ewan McGregor is on screen for a grand total of 48 / 102 minutes making his SP 47%.

To Ewan or not to Ewan: Is the movie worth watching for Ewan content alone? Yes. Is it worth watching in general? Yes.

Warning Before Watching: This movie features a lot of violence with much of it being bloody. There is also an attempted rape scene where the victim is beaten and drugged.

Where to Watch: You can watch "Eye of the Beholder" for free on Peacock. It is available for rent on YouTube, Google Play Movies and TV, and Fandango at Home. You can watch it on the following streaming platforms if you have a subscription: Starz, YouTube Primetime, Hulu, Sling TV, Amazon Prime Video, YouTube Premium, and Philo Premium.

Closing Thoughts: This movie was not a commercial success yet I consider it to be a diamond in the rough. It's high on my list of favorite Ewan movies. On YouTube, there is fascinating behind the scenes footage on the film-making process that made the movie that much more endearing to me. It's called "Documentary about making Eye of the Beholder with Ewan McGregor" on the account "Ewan McGregor Vault".

I fucking love that name! And the meaning lol 😁

I've been wanting to come up with an oc but I also can't draw ☹️ I think I finally came up with a name though!

So Gerard once retweeted a fan who was asking for advice about peer pressure to drink alcohol and he called it "loserjuice" which I thought was a pretty sick name already tbh lol. I wanted to make a necklace with that word on it and then I thought, what if I replaced the "o"with an "a" to make it "laserjuice" 🤔 and BAM I knew that had to be a Killjoy name!

If I could draw, I'd absolutely draw our ocs together 🤙

Do you have a Killjoy oc?

No mostly cause I suck at drawing but my killjoy name is Hi-Def cuz I’m high sometimes and also can’t hear shit. I totally should make one, I think my color would be a slightly darker hot pink like Mike Milligram’s hair

This is my first poll! Something new I want to start doing before posting the EMSP.

Vent Post

TW: Suicidality

Life is changing around me and I can't stop it. Not only can I not stop it, I can't keep up! I can't keep up! I'm falling behind! I'm being LEFT behind! I'm stuck. I'm such a failure. I don't know what to do. I relate to Alexander in A Gentleman in Moscow. I sympathize with him because he's been holding on so tightly to the past as his one last comfort until reality gives him no choice but to face the hard truth. That how I feel now. There's no more faking it until I make it. Adapt or die. Those are my options. But I can't adapt so instead I'm dying! I feel so lost. It was never supposed to be like this. This wasn't supposed to be my life. Like Fantine says in Les Misérables, "I had a dream my life would be so different from this hell I'm living...now life has killed the dream I dreamed." I don't see a way out of this. It almost seems prideful to continue living. For what? To say that I've won? I beat life? I will be a footnote in my family's history and that's if I'm lucky. I don't...have anything valuable to offer anyone...I know this is a dangerous path my thoughts are taking me. I truly don't see the point anymore. It's not that the world, my loved ones, wouldn't care if I died. It's that it wouldn't matter if I /did/. My absence doesn't matter now. It won't matter if it was permanent. I feel so far away.

For anyone who isn't able to use the link my moot sent this is what it was. SQUEEEE! 🥰

Fun fact about this blog: the "loyc" in my username stands for "Lipstick on Your Collar" which was Ewan's very first televised role!

Lipstick on Your Collar (1993)