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au work content, female! readers race not specified, dark content ( BAU content ), some nsfw content.
DEREK MORGAN & FOX! READER who had only been together for a couple months before his colleagues were sniffing at his clothes and giving each other knowing looks. of course, the looks donât go missed by derek himself but he simply chooses to ignore them and let your smell cling to his shirt for the next couple weeks.
DEREK MORGAN who fully intended on keeping you to himself for a whileânot out of shame, never thatâheâs just not quite ready to give up the privacy of having his little secret yet. he intended on leaving it at small teasing and âneeding to meet the misses soon.â a couple of grins, some smooth diversionsâthat had been enough. until one day, on the plane.
their places were already assigned by hotch, and there had been maybe two seconds of silence before emily broke it. âmâ just gonna ask what everyoneâs been wonderingâwhoâs the vampire?â emily teases, pointing at derekâs neck, her eyes bright with mischief. derekâs brow furrows until he mirrors her motion, his fingers brushing over the faint mark on his neck. then he remembers youâthe way youâd smiled at him that morning, kissed him soft and sleepy before leaving him with a playful nipâand his mouth stretches into a wide, satisfied grin.
everyone is watching now, waiting. ânone of your business. focus on the case,â derek says, his voice low and pointed. they all groan in unison. âohh,â emily sings, eyes wide with mock scandal. âokay, mr. hit-it-and-quit-it.â
derekâs head snaps toward her, offended. âfor the record, i am not hitting and quitting.â he points a finger at her. âItâs more of a hitting it and keeping it.â he gestures to spencer. âtell âem, spence.â spencer immediately stiffens, wide-eyed. he looks at emily, caught. sheâd had been interrogating him about for months. âiâ i just found out like two days ago!â
emilyâs mouth drops open. âso you did know!â she laughs, tossing a napkin at him. spencer looks down at it like itâs betrayed him. âwait, so youâve seen her?â jj asks, shifting forward in her seat, suddenly a little too invested. derekâs eyes narrow. âheyââ
âyouâre always worrying about who weâre interested in,â jj shrugs, shifting the file in her hand. âsheâs got a point,â rossi chimes in with a shrug. âhey!â derekâs tone is all faux-offense, but his grin is sharp. âalright, alright, letâs stop harassing morgan and focus,â hotchâs voice cuts through the playful noise, his tone completely contrasting his slight grin.
âthank you,â derek sighs, settling deeper into his seat. but the low sound of soft laughs and teasing smiles linger.
DEREK MORGAN who is more than a little selfish about you even though he has no real reason to be. maybe because you have nothing to do with the BAUâand he likes it that wayâor even though you donât, youâre always keeping him on his toes and very much entertained. you make him work for it without even realizing you are, and derek? he wouldnât have it any other way.
FOX! READER who always gives derek the illusion of control. heâs used to chasingâthrives off itâand the fact that you donât even seem to notice youâre being chased just makes him want you more. youâre the sweetest to everyone on the teamâalways polite, always warmâbut with derek, youâre different. you give him a hard time, whether on purpose or not, and derek loving this is an understatementâhe adores it. he lives for the playful push-pull, the teasing edge you give him. and when he needs itâwhen the weight of the day is sitting too heavy on his shouldersâyou donât hesitate to be soft for him. no teasing, no resistance. just quiet warmth and your touch, grounding him instantly.
FOX! READER walks with grace in every step, always in loafers or thick-heeled shoes that click against the floor with quiet confidence. derekâs eyes track you every time. he adores your legsâalways finding an excuse to slide his hand along your thigh, or press his mouth to the back of your knee when youâre curled up together. heâs obsessed with the necklace you always wearâthe delicate chain resting just above the neckline of whatever low-cut shirt youâve chosenâand heâll trace his thumb over it absently as he kisses your throat, lazy and lingering. youâre quietly confident, showing it in the way you move and the way you speakânot cocky, just assured.
FOX! READER who lets derek carry all the jealousy on his own because you almost have none. you know where his loyalty stands and youâre sure no oneâs taking derek from you. sure, you might give a hard glance to someone whoâs getting a little too close, but you donât need to say anything. derek handles it.
âthought she was gonna kiss you if you moved over an inch,â you say, amused as you lean back in your seat, eyes sharp. derekâs mouth twitches. comically, he shifts a little closer, arm resting along the back of your chair. âdo I get a kiss?â you raise an eyebrow, lazy smile playing on your face. âsure you donât want to try her first?â derekâs eyes darken, his hand sliding to your thigh. âiâm damn sure.â and of course, you give him that kiss.
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hiyaa, cold reader series is so so amazing i just read it all in one sitting again but i was wondering if you could do one where she's jealous of a woman who starts flirting with spencer on a case maybe? maybe she's pissed because it's "unprofessional" but really she's pissed because he's being flirted with
AS IT SEEMS â SPENCER REID!
a local detective seems to hang on spencerâs every word. the unprofessionalism of it all really frustrates you.
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a/n â is this⊠progression?
The flashing red-and-blue lights of the local PDâs vehicles paint shifting patterns across the asphalt as the BAU team steps onto the scene.
The air is thick with the scent of damp pavement and something acridâgunpowder, maybe, or the lingering remnants of a nearby dumpster fire.
Officers mill about with that particular brand of tension that comes from knowing the FBI has been called in, half-relieved, half-defensive.
You take it all in quickly, the details slotting into place in your mind like a well-practiced routine. The weight of your badge clipped to your belt, the holster pressing against your hipâeverything is familiar, grounding. But then she appears.
Detective Elena Foster is sharp-jawed and self-assured, the kind of woman who wears authority like a second skin. Her strides are long, purposeful, the confidence in her posture making it abundantly clear that she knows exactly how competent she is.
And sheâs looking at Spencer like heâs fascinating.
You stand slightly off to the side as introductions are exchanged, arms crossed over your chest, expression unreadable. Youâre practiced at thisâat keeping your face neutral, your tone cool, your presence sharp enough to command respect without ever needing to raise your voice.
Itâs always been easy. But right now, as Fosterâs hand lingers just a little too long in Spencerâs when she shakes it, something tightens in your chest.
âDr. Reid,â she says, eyes flicking over him with open appreciation. âI read your paper on statistical anomalies in serial offender data last yearâbrilliant work,â
Spencer, to his credit, looks momentarily startled. âOhâthank you,â he says, blinking. âThat was actually an extension of some previous research onââ
âThatâs impressive,â she interrupts, flashing him a smile. âIâd love to pick your brain about it later, if youâve got time,â
You watch as her fingers graze his forearm in a way that is entirely unnecessary.
He doesnât seem to notice, too preoccupied with processing the compliment, his mind already spinning with whatever information he had been about to share. You, on the other hand, notice everything. The deliberate lean-in, the way her voice dips just slightly when she speaks to him, the way her eyes linger.
Itâs unprofessional.
Thatâs what irritates you. Not the fact that her attention is singularly fixed on him, or that heâs being flirted with in the middle of a crime scene. Certainly not that sheâs touching him when she doesnât need to be.
Itâs the principle of the matter. This is an active investigation, and Foster should be focused on the case, not Spencerâs academic credentials and whatever else has caught her interest.
Your jaw tightens as you glance toward Hotch, who doesnât seem to care about the interaction as long as it doesnât interfere with the briefing. Morgan, beside you, exhales a quiet chuckle under his breath, like heâs picked up on something amusing. You ignore it.
âI assume we have a body to look at?â you say, voice even.
Foster blinks at you, as if only just remembering your presence. You donât react, donât shift under her assessing gaze, donât give her anything to work with. Eventually, she nods.
âOf course,â she says smoothly. âRight this way,â
She turns, and Spencer follows, already mid-sentence about some statistical deviation he had noticed in the case file. And you?
You stay exactly where you are for half a second longer than necessary, exhaling slowly through your nose before following after them.
â
You follow the team through the cordoned-off area, past uniformed officers and the murmuring press lingering at the edges, searching for scraps of information. The crime scene is up aheadâan abandoned warehouse, dimly lit and rank with the scent of stagnant water and decay. It should have your full attention.
But instead, you feel your focus splintering.
Just behind you, Spencer is still speaking, his voice carrying that familiar, eager cadence he gets when discussing something intellectually stimulating. âItâs interestingâwell, not interesting in the traditional sense, given the context, but rather statistically significantâthat the unsubâs victim selection aligns with a pattern previously seen inââ
âOh, I love that you talk like that,â Fosterâs voice is warm, teasing, admiring. âMost people dumb things down, but you donât. Thatâs rare,â
You stiffen.
Itâs unprofessional.
Thatâs what you tell yourself as you watch the way she tilts her head slightly when he speaks, as if absorbing every syllable. As if heâs the most fascinating thing in the room. She leans in a fraction closerâjust enough to make it noticeable, just enough to make your stomach twist.
Itâs unprofessional, you think again, but the words donât sit quite right in your mind anymore.
Because the truth is, you shouldnât care. You shouldnât be noticing the way Foster looks at him. You shouldnât be hyper-aware of the way her fingers brush the edge of his sleeve again, so light it could almost be accidental. You shouldnât be waiting for him to pull back, to shake off the attention like he does when social interaction becomes too much.
Except he doesnât. He just lets it happen.
And that irritates you.
So you do what you always do when something threatens to knock you off balanceâyou shut it down.
âReid.â
Your voice cuts through the air, sharper than you intended. The team stops, turning toward you. Even Foster straightens slightly, blinking at the sudden shift in tone. Spencer glances over, his expression a mixture of mild confusion and concern.
You exhale, tightening your grip on the case file in your hands. âWeâre here to solve a murder,â you say, your voice even but firm. âNot to make friends.â
Fosterâs eyebrows lift slightly, but she doesnât comment. Morgan, who had been watching the interaction unfold with barely concealed amusement, makes a low sound in his throatâsomething close to a chuckle. You ignore it.
âI wasnât aware discussing case patterns was off-limits,â Spencer says, tilting his head. His tone is neutral, but thereâs a hint of something else there.
You meet his gaze, keeping your own unreadable. âItâs not,â you say. âJust keep it relevant.â
Itâs not a lie. You are focused on the case. You do want to keep things professional. Thatâs all this is. Thatâs the only reason your patience is stretched thin.
Except.
Except you can still feel the ghost of Fosterâs laugh curling around Spencerâs words. Except your shoulders havenât relaxed since the moment she touched him. Except your own thoughts are turning against you, pressing in like a vice, asking the question you really donât want to answerâ
If youâre so unaffected, why do you have to convince yourself of it?
â
The investigation continues with the same steady pace, but your attention keeps wandering.
Every time you glance toward Spencer and Foster, you find her leaning in a little too close, her voice a little too sweet as she asks him to clarify some trivial detail. Sheâs carefulâalways carefulânever quite crossing a line, but the way she speaks to him, the way she looks at him, it grates at you.
The word âunprofessionalâ loops endlessly in your mind, but each time you tell yourself that, something inside you pushes back.
Youâre not jealous. You just want her to focus. This is a case, for Godâs sake.
But the more she smiles at him, the more he just stands there, absorbed in the conversation, oblivious to the subtle dance sheâs performing, the more that uncomfortable twist in your stomach tightens. Every laugh, every overly familiar gesture, stirs something inside you that you canât quite name.
You can feel your teeth grinding as they talk, your gaze hardening on the two of them. Youâre trying to focus on the case, youâre trying to ignore the nagging irritation building in your chest, but the more they interact, the more annoyed you become.
Sheâs practically flirting, and Spencer isnât doing anything about it. Or, if he is noticing, heâs pretending it doesnât bother him.
But it bothers you. Why does it bother you?
Your fingers tighten around the edge of the evidence bag in your hand, and before you know it, youâre standing too close to them, watching as Foster tries to steer Spencer away from the group to discuss something you know is irrelevant to the case.
Itâs not urgent. You know itâs not urgent. But when you hear the soft cadence of her voice inviting Spencer to join her for a âquick chatâ away from the others, the words explode out of you.
âReid.â you say sharply, the sound of his name a snap. The words feel harsh even to your own ears.
Spencerâs head jerks around, blinking at you in surprise. His lips part, but you cut him off again, your voice colder than you intended. âCome on, weâre leaving.â
Foster stops mid-sentence, blinking in confusion at the sudden interruption. Her eyes flick to Spencer, and then back to you. The tension in the air thickens, but you donât care.
You donât care.
Except you do. And that makes it worse.
Spencerâs gaze softens as he turns back to you, the furrow in his brow deepening, something akin to concern flashing across his face. It only makes you more frustrated.
âIâm not finished yet,â Spencer protests quietly, but thereâs a careful note in his voice, the kind that suggests heâs trying to be diplomatic, to avoid upsetting you.
You blink, realising youâve taken another step too far. Your heart skips a beat at the softness in his voice, and for just a moment, you feel guilty. Heâs just trying to help, trying to be professional. And yet, the only thing you can focus on is her.
You donât let the guilt linger long. âThen stop getting distracted.â you snap, then force yourself to look away, eyes darting back to the scene as if it somehow holds your attention now. Youâre already backing off, leaving the words hanging in the air.
Spencer stares at you for a beat longer than necessary, confusion and concern still flickering in his eyes, but he doesnât press it. He doesnât argue, doesnât question you further. Instead, he shifts back toward the group, muttering something to Morgan about a pattern in the evidence, and you hear the subtle shift in his voiceâheâs letting it go.
But you donât feel relieved.
The knot in your chest tightens again. Why did you say that? Why did you let her get to you?
You tell yourself itâs about professionalism. Itâs about the case. You donât have time for distractions, not when the clock is ticking. And you definitely donât have time to unravel this feeling thatâs spreading through you like an infection.
Spencer doesnât argue. He doesnât snap back at you, doesnât give you the defensive posture that you might expect from anyone else. Instead, he does something that immediately pulls the rug out from under you.
He looks at you.
Really looks at you.
For a moment, the world around you blurs, the noise of the crime scene and the murmurs of the team fading into the background. Itâs just Spencerâs eyes, filled with something you canât quite placeâconcern, maybe, or confusion, maybe a little of both. But itâs soft. Too soft.
Your pulse spikes, and for a split second, it feels like the floor is tipping beneath you. Itâs so disarming, the quiet concern in his gaze, and it makes the frustration building inside you flare even higher.
âAre you okay?â
The question is simple, unassuming, and it cracks something inside you. Itâs not a challenge, not a reprimandâitâs genuine, and thatâs what makes it harder to brush off.
No. Youâre not okay.
Youâre furious, but you canât explain why. Youâre hurt, but you canât pinpoint the cause. Youâre jealous, and the idea of admitting that to yourself is enough to send your thoughts spiraling. And all the while, Spencerâs standing there, oblivious to the storm building inside you, just waiting for your response.
You canât look at him anymore.
âIâm fine,â you mutter quickly, not meeting his eyes. You swallow, forcing your chest to loosen, fighting the sudden weight that presses down on your shoulders.
Your words come out stiff, rehearsed, and even to your own ears, they sound like a lie. But you say them anyway. Because itâs easier than admitting the truth.
You donât wait for him to say anything else. You turn abruptly, your boots echoing on the concrete floor as you walk away, away from Spencer and away from the nagging feeling that he might see through you if you stay.
But youâre not running. Youâre not hiding. Youâre just⊠focused.
At least, thatâs what you tell yourself.
As you round the corner, your mind keeps racing, fighting to keep everything in order. You tell yourself you donât care about the detectiveâs attention.
You tell yourself itâs unprofessional, itâs inappropriate. And you tell yourself that youâve seen it all before, that Spencerâs just being Spencerâoblivious to the subtle ways people gravitate toward him.
But none of that feels convincing anymore.
By the time youâve reached the far side of the warehouse, your hands are trembling slightly. You push them into your pockets, trying to centre yourself. You feel the familiar coldness wrapping around you again, your professional mask sliding back into place like armour. Itâs easier this way.
A sharp breath escapes your lips as you lean against the wall, your head pressed back, eyes closed for a moment. Focus.
You force yourself to take another breath. Youâre here for the case. Thatâs all.
But as the minutes pass, the tight knot in your chest refuses to loosen, and all you can think about is the way Spencerâs face looked when he asked you that question. Are you okay?
And, just for a fleeting second, you wonder if he knows more than you think.
â
The rest of the case proceeds, but something has shifted.
Thereâs an undeniable tension nowâboth around you and within you. As you walk through the newest crime scene, examining evidence and speaking with witnesses, Spencer doesnât give you the space youâd expected.
He stays close, hovering just behind you, always near enough that you can feel the warmth of his presence even when youâre too busy to glance at him.
Heâs speaking to you more than usual, asking for your input first, even in situations where itâs clear he already has the answers. Itâs as if heâs checking in with you constantly, gauging your reaction before making any decisions of his own.
The subtle shift doesnât go unnoticed by anyone. Foster, who had been so eager to claim his attention earlier, is starting to back off, visibly frustrated by his sudden disinterest in her suggestions. She tries a few more times to pull him away for a âquick chat,â but Spencer doesnât respond to her advances the way he did before.
Instead, he looks to you.
âHey, I think we might need a second look at the victimâs phone records,â he says, voice casual but with an edge of expectation, like he already knows youâll agree. âWhat do you think?â
You pause, the request startling you slightly. Spencer doesnât usually ask for your opinion on the more technical aspects of a case, but you donât have time to process it. The words come automatically.
âYeah, definitely. It might give us a window into the unsubâs next move.â
Spencer nods in approval, his face softening slightly as he absorbs your response. But thereâs something else there, something unspokenâa quiet acknowledgment.
He doesnât say anything, just continues to stay close as the investigation progresses, as if heâs subtly keeping his distance from Foster without even addressing it.
Youâre still frustratedâat him, at the detective, at yourselfâbut thereâs a tiny, almost imperceptible shift in your chest. That small part of you that feels like youâve been seen. That he noticed.
Every time Foster attempts to direct him away from the group, Spencer brushes her off with a polite but clear, âIâll be right with you,â his eyes flicking to you before he moves to stand closer. You donât say anything. Youâre not sure you even want to acknowledge it. But itâs thereâan undercurrent you canât ignore.
Your mind still races with frustration. You canât shake the gnawing feeling that somethingâs off, and you canât decide if itâs the case, the detective, or yourself. But every time Spencer looks to you for direction, every time he positions himself just a little too close, your frustration starts to dull, replaced by something else.
Heâs noticing you. Heâs listening.
When the team breaks for a quick huddle to discuss their next steps, Spencer stands beside you. Not next to Morgan or Hotch, not pulling away to talk to Foster. Heâs deliberately close, his shoulder just grazing yours as he flips through his notes.
âYou alright?â he asks again, in that soft, concerned tone that makes you almost uncomfortable. Itâs like heâs waiting for you to admit something, like he already knows thereâs something youâre not saying.
You want to brush him off, to tell him to stop worrying about you, but the question catches you off guard. For a brief moment, the irritationâtoward him, toward Foster, toward everythingâsubsides, and you're left with something unspoken hanging between you two.
"Iâm fine," you mutter again, a little more convincingly this time, even though itâs not true. But you canât find the words to explain it. Not when youâre still trying to convince yourself that none of this should matter.
Spencer doesnât push. He just nods, the faintest flicker of a smile tugging at his lips before he pulls away to engage with the team, but he keeps an eye on you, always just a little more attentive than usual.
You try to shake off the feeling that thisâwhatever this isâmatters, but itâs hard to deny. The connection between you two is there, unspoken, and for some unknown reason youâre feeling a lot more vulnerable than usual.
And that, more than anything, is what frustrates you the most.
This is so sweet
synopsis: you switched your perfume, and suddenly Oscar has the sniffles.
pairing: oscar piastri x reader
not proof read! this oneâs like mega short
Your day followed its usual standard routine. You showed up to the track later than he did. Found him sitting in the back of the garage, cooling down, getting his head level before qualifying.
He hugged you briefly, too conscious of the cameras pointed in your direction. But he hovered near, his face inches from your neck. And then a sniff reached your ears. When he noticed your amused and questioning look, he pulled away, resuming a normal posture beside you. âAre you coming down with a cold?â You asked.
âNo.â He dismissed quickly.
You were willing to brush it off until it happened again. After qualifying, when he hugged you again, he lingered longer. And you swore you heard another sniff.
And again, when he took your hand on the way back to the hotel and kissed your palm. Your hand lingered around his mouth far longer than typical.
And again, when he kissed you later that night. He paid extra attention to your neck.
Thatâs when he finally spoke up. âDid you change your perfume or lotion or something?â He asked, nose nudging against your neck. Another sniff, this one more pronounced.
You nodded, fingers threading through his hair. âYeah, why?â Your question was pushed to the back of his mind, as it was too busy being plagued by the smell of vanilla and strawberries. âDo you not like it?â
He nodded quickly. âGod, no. I love it.â He sucked on your neck, drawing a gasp out of you. âYou smell like a dessert.â Breath fanning over your skin, tongue laying flat on the spot heâd just sucked a hickey onto. âSo sweet.â
You hummed and pulled away. âIâll keep that in mind.â
This is so cute đ
imma need some serious angst with cold!reader and spencer. Like spence gets MAJORLY injured and maybe cold!read even has to do like cpr on him, like the full angst kit and caboodle.
(love you queen đ)
WATER WEIGHT â SPENCER REID!
spencerâs not allowed to die. not yet. youâre not ready.
s10!spencer x cold!reader 1.3k angst cold!reader masterlist.
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WARNINGS | attempted drowning (by unsub of spencer), spencerâs heart stops momentarily, cpr
a/n â not the lip on lip action you guys wanted but close enough igâ
The air is sharp with the bite of winter, and the dull roar of the river accompanies every breath you take. Trees with skeletal branches loom overhead, casting long shadows in the dim light of late afternoon.
The case has been relentlessâten days of chasing a killer across state lines, culminating here, at the edge of nowhere. The unsubâs trail had gone cold this morning, but Spencer had insisted on canvassing the area near the river, claiming heâd seen something the rest of you missed.
You hadnât agreed, but youâd let him go. He was Spencer Reid, after all. Always right, always insistent. But when the scream came over the commsâshort, sharp, and unmistakably hisâyour heart froze in your chest.
Now youâre running. Sprinting, boots pounding against frozen earth as you follow the distant sounds of a struggle. Branches snag at your jacket, the cold air burns your lungs, but you donât hesitate. You donât even think.
When you burst into the clearing, the scene before you punches the air from your lungs. The unsub has Spencer pinned, his body half-submerged in the river, arms flailing weakly. Water churns as the unsub presses down with unrelenting force, trying to hold him under.
âReid!â you scream, voice tearing through the air.
You raise your weapon, but the angle is wrong. You canât risk hitting him. Instead, you lunge forward, but youâre too far away, and Spencerâs struggles are slowing. His hands, clawing desperately at the unsubâs arms, are slipping beneath the water.
âSpencer!â
The rest of the team crashes into the clearing behind you, shouts erupting. Morgan reaches the unsub first, tackling him away from Spencer with a force that sends both men sprawling. The unsub roars in fury, but Morgan lands a solid punch, silencing him.
You donât care. Your focus is on Spencer, who floats face-down in the water, unmoving.
Time slows, the world narrowing to the icy river and the too-still figure within it. Without thinking, you plunge into the freezing water, the cold like knives against your skin. Your hands find Spencer, and you haul him out with a strength you didnât know you had.
âReid, come on,â you mutter, voice trembling as you lay him on the riverbank. His face is pale, lips tinged blue, and his chest is still.
You check for a pulse and feel nothing but your own rising terror. âNo,â you whisper, the word a desperate plea. âNo, no, come on.â
âDamn it, Spencer, donât you dare do this to me,â you mutter through clenched teeth as you tear the bulletproof vest from his body, hands pressing into his sternum.
You glance up briefly, catching Morgan and Rossi watching with grim expressions. Emily is on the radio, calling for an ambulance, her voice tight with urgency.
You return to the task at hand, refusing to think about what it will mean if you canât bring him back. Your breaths come in gasps, but you keep going. Time blurs, the world narrowing to the rise and fall of your hands against his chest.
Your arms ache, your knees dig into the rocky bottom of the bank, but you donât stop. You canât. Youâve seen death before, so many times, but not his. Never his.
âCome on, Spencer,â you say, your voice breaking. âDonât do this. Not now.â
You press harder, your movements growing frantic. The tears stinging your eyes are a surprise, and you blink them away furiously.
âReid!â you shout, slamming your hands down harder than you should, desperation overtaking reason. âBreathe!â
Thereâs a crack underneath the heel of you palm, but you keep going.
âOne, two, three,â you count under your breath, forcing your voice to stay steady. âCome on, Spencer. Donât you dare.â
You alternate between compressions and breaths, the movements mechanical, but your mind is chaos. Images flash unbiddenâSpencerâs soft smile over morning coffee, the way his eyes light up when heâs unraveling a puzzle, the quiet moments when his presence is the only thing that grounds you.
âDonât you die on me,â you mutter, voice cracking. âNot like this.â
Another round of compressions, another breath, and thenâfinallyâa cough.
Spencer jerks beneath your hands, water spilling from his mouth as he gasps for air. Relief crashes into you with such force that you sag back on your heels, hands trembling.
Spencer blinks up at you, dazed and disoriented, his lips forming your name in a hoarse whisper.
âReid,â you whisper, your voice shaky and thick with emotion. You reach out, your hands hovering uncertainly before they settle on his shoulders.
He blinks up at you, confusion knitting his brow. âY-Youââ
âDonât,â you cut him off, your tone sharper than you intend. The flood of emotions crashing over you is too muchârelief, anger, fearâall fighting for dominance. âDonât you dare say anything right now.â
His gaze flickers to your face, and something in his expression shifts. He sees it then, the cracks in your cold exterior, the raw panic that lingers in your eyes.
âDo you have any idea what you just put me through?â you snap, your voice rising. Your hands tighten on his shoulders, shaking him gently as if to drive the point home. âYouâYou scared the hell out of me, Spencer!â
His lips part as if to respond, but you donât give him the chance.
âYou couldâve died,â you continue, the words tumbling out in a rush. âYou did die! And if you everâif you ever do something like that again, I swearââ
Your voice cracks, the anger giving way to a wave of helplessness that leaves you trembling. Without thinking, you pull him into a hug, your arms wrapping around his shoulders and holding him tight.
His body is cold and damp against yours, but you donât care. The steady rise and fall of his chest against yours is the only thing that matters now.
âYouâre an idiot,â you snap, voice trembling with anger and something dangerously close to tears. âDo you have any idea how scared I was?â
Your voice cracks again, and you bite down on the emotion threatening to spill over.
âDonât you ever do that to me again,â you murmur against his shoulder, your voice a quiet, trembling whisper.
For a moment, he doesnât move, then his arms come up slowly, hesitantly, as if heâs unsure whether youâll shove him away at any moment. But when his hands settle on your back, the warmth of his touch feels grounding.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers, his voice barely audible over the sound of the river.
You donât respond. You just hold him tighter, unwilling to let go, as the rest of the team works to secure the unsub and call for medics.
The cold bites at your skin, and the weight of everything presses heavy on your chest, but none of it matters.
I love him đ€đ€
summary â spencer goes easy on you in a game of chess
pairings â s1!spence x shybaufem!reader
a/n â part 2 of this also requested so thank u! also when they talk they sound so nerdy so just smile and nod
The gentle hum of the jet engines had become a familiar soundtrack to these impromptu moments with Spencer. This time, the battlefield was a chessboard, the pieces miniature soldiers poised for strategic combat on the small pull-down table.
"Your move," Spencer said softly, his gaze steady across the board.
You considered your options, a nervous flutter in your stomach mixing with a spark of anticipation. He had a remarkable ability to make you feel both challenged and completely at ease, though the former often made your cheeks flush. You moved your knight, a calculated risk, your gaze flicking up to meet his shyly before quickly returning to the board.
Spencerâs eyes flickered over the board, a thoughtful pause before he responded. His move was swift and precise, countering your advance while subtly positioning his own pieces. You couldnât help but notice that he seemed less intensely focused than usual. Almost indulgent.
"Interesting," you murmured, studying the new configuration. "Are you perhaps taking pity on my distinct lack of chess prowess, Dr. Reid?" The question was soft, laced with a hint of self-deprecation.
A faint smile touched the corners of his lips. "Pity? My analysis indicates that you possess a developing strategic mind. Though perhaps lacking in aggressive tendencies."
"Aggressive?" you echoed quietly, fiddling with the base of your queen. "I prefer a more cautious approach. Less confrontational."
He chuckled softly, a low rumble that made you jump slightly. "A pacifist on the chessboard. A novel approach." His eyes flickered up to meet yours, a hint of amusement in their depths. "Though sometimes, a well-timed offensive can be surprisingly effective."
"Perhaps," you conceded, a small, shy smile gracing your lips. "But I find a well-defended position rather comforting." You moved your rook, a safe, predictable move.
"Comforting, perhaps," Spencer replied, making his next move. "But comfort rarely leads to victory."
"Maybe not victory in the traditional sense," you countered softly, your gaze lingering on his thoughtful expression. "But perhaps a quiet draw has its own merits."
"A draw," Spencer echoed, a hint of a smile playing on his lips. "An interesting proposition. Though I confess, I find the pursuit of a decisive outcome rather compelling."
"I can imagine you do," you murmured, your cheeks warming slightly. "You do seem to have a⊠decisive nature."
"I believe in efficiency," he corrected gently. "And in identifying the optimal solution."
"Even if the optimal solution involves letting me one across the board almost capture your knight?" you teased softly, your gaze finally meeting his with a touch more confidence.
A genuine smile now touched Spencer's lips. "Sometimes," he said, his voice softer than usual, "the optimal solution involves a more nuanced approach."
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I can never explain what is happening in my mind
nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words
Love love love đ€
spencer never needed to define what this was, until you did. now, the box is open, the outcome inevitable, and he has never been so happy to lose an argument.
pairings: spencer reid x fem!reader warnings: situationship (ish? it gets resolved fast lol), mutual pining, friends to lovers (except they've been kissing for months), mention of heavy makeout, lap sitting, shirt removal, spencer kissing you to shut you the fuck up, cat does not survive the experiment (metaphorically speaking, there is no animal killing in this fic LOL) wc: 1.4k request: here
Your body is warm in his lap, your weight pressing down just enough to be distracting â no, disorienting â and Spencer is trying very hard not to look at your lips. Not just because theyâre parted, slick, and kiss-swollen, but because the soft smudge of your lip gloss is evidence that this has been happening. That heâs been kissing you long enough to leave proof of it.
Mascara has clumped just slightly at the corners of your lashes and thereâs a half-moon of pink polish chipped at the very edge of your thumbnail.
Heâs obsessing over details. Your pupils are dilated, swallowing every fleck of color. He knows itâs a physiological response â dopamine, norepinephrine, oxytocin, all working in tandem to make you look like this, flushed and increasingly pretty on his thighs.
Itâs easier to focus on biology than it is to focus on the fact that this moment exists in a state of suspended reality.
This was new. Not just in the way that everything between you had been new, in the way that months of small, careful steps had led to this, but in the way that Spencer had never felt like this. Overheated. Overwhelmed. Overrun with sensation. It had started as everything else had â soft and slow, the kind of kissing that didnât lead anywhere except to more kissing.Â
And for months, he convinced himself that he could exist in this purgatory of lips meeting and parting, of hands resting politely at your waist. That he could always pull away before the ground gave away beneath him.
Today the ground was gone.
Spencer had never been particularly drawn to categories â not in the way people seemed to crave them. Labels had always felt limiting, reductive, forcing the complexities of human relationships into neat little boxes that never quite fit. He had been content in ambiguity, had never needed something to be named in order to understand it.Â
With you, the lack of label wasnât liberating, it was frustrating. Because if this wasnât something that could be named, then what was it?
âIâm just saying, I feel like if Rossi can write a whole book about a case, then I should at least be able to mention it in passing at brunch.â Your fingers skate absentmindedly across the dip of his throat, and Spencer, entranced, forgets to do something as basic as breathe. Oxygen is apparently optional. âBut no, apparently thatâs an inappropriate topic over eggs benedict. Which, okay, sure, but if I have to sit through another conversation about Carlyâs fianceâs fantasy football league, I think I deserve to liven it up a little, you know?â
Your genuine need for an answer is clear, but Spencer canât even remember what brunch is.
You gesture when you talk, and itâs so innocent â just emphasis, just a habit â but right now, itâs destroying him. Your fingers drag absently up his arm, over the soft material of his sweater, mapping the line of his forearm before skimming back up his neck. And then, like you donât even realize youâre doing it, your palms smooth over his chest, fingertips tapping lightly against his collarbone like youâre idly counting his heartbeats. Spencer is painfully aware of every single one.
This is it, he thinks. This is how he dies. But he canât decide what would kill him faster â how you touch him, or the moment you stop.Â
Spencer manages to clear his throat â barely.
âI think your friends donât appreciate you enough.â His voice sounds strained, but any attempt at analyzing tone evaporates the second his fingers breach the barrier of your shirt.Â
Warm fingertips skim over bare skin, and suddenly, the conversation seems wildly misplaced. Because what was that about appreciation? If heâs trying to prove a point, heâs making it very convincingly.
You hum, shifting against him â not intentionally, probably, but it doesnât matter, because he feels it all the same.
âWell, I canât just hang out with you constantly.â
Spencer isnât sure how to respond â because if heâs honest, thatâs exactly what he wants. You, constantly. No breaks, no buffer. Just you.
Instead, he stares at your mouth again, because his brain is broken, and this is the inevitable destination. He never really understood the appeal of making out before you â before that first time, when he was supposed to just kiss you once and somehow ended up losing entire minutes of his life to your lips, to the sheer pleasure of pressing against you, of drinking in your sounds.
His broken brain is built to reinforce pleasure-seeking behaviors. Neurochemical feedback loops, all of it designed to keep him coming back. To keep him wanting. As if he needed the help.
Spencer doesnât even pretend to think about it before saying, âYou say that like itâs a bad thing.âÂ
Your lips twitch. Youâre about to tease him, he can tell.
âIt wouldnât be a bad thing at all,â you say, tilting your head. âBut wasnât it you who went on that tangent about how platonic relationships significantly improve cognitive function?â
Spencer tries to find a loophole in that statement.
âAnd we,â you say, tracing a path down the trail of hair at his navel, âare not exactly fulfilling the platonic requirement.â
There was a time when he would have insisted â vehemently, even â that their relationship was strictly platonic. Foolâs errand.
âI mean, technically, if we wanted to be platonic, we could just⊠say we are.â That alone is egregiously incorrect. Spencer prepares to say as much, but then you pause, rolling the thought over like youâre actually considering it, before adding, âLike if we donât label it, then it doesnât count, right?â
His first instinct is to argue. His second instinct is to really argue. But neither one survives the sensory overload of you pressed against him.
âItâs like when you donât open your credit card statements,â you continue, lips pursed. âSure, the debt exists, but if you donât acknowledge it, then it doesnât feel real. So technically, if we just never say what this is, then itâsâŠâ
âSchrödingerâs relationship?â
Spencer doesnât know why he gives you the words â why he hands you the metaphor like a loaded gun and watches as you take perfect aim.
âExactly! We exist in a state of undefined possibilities. Weâre both platonic and not platonic until we open the box.â
Spencer sighs, rubbing at his temple, because now his entire brain is consumed by the implications of your logic.Â
Schrödingerâs cat was never meant to be a real experiment â just a way to illustrate how, in quantum mechanics, particles can exist in multiple states until measured. The cat is placed in a box, along with a vial of poison triggered by a completely random quantum event. Until the box is opened, itâs both alive and dead, trapped in an impossible in-between, a paradox that shouldnât exist but somehow does. The problem is, that concept doesnât translate perfectly to relationships. People arenât quantum particles. Relationships donât exist in probability states.
Except, apparently, this one does. Because as long as neither of you put a definitive label on whatâs happening here, you exist in an undefined state.Â
He glances at you, at the expectant look in your eyes, and something about it makes him laugh, not because this is funny, necessarily, but because of course it would take a physics analogy for him to see whatâs been obvious all along.
âIâm fairly certain that if we opened the metaphorical box, we would find that the cat â that is, our relationship â was decidedly not platonic.â
He hopes youâll take the words for what they mean. That, for once, you wonât take the obvious escape route, wonât let yourself tuck this moment nearly into the realm of plausible deniability.
Because what he really said â what he really meant â was that he wants you. Only you. Singular, exclusive, definitively. If you pressed him for stronger language, heâd give it to you.
Your face was quick to light up.
âAre you asking me to go steady? Because Spencer, thatâs a serious commitment. That means shared desserts, and, like, the expectation that I text you goodnight. And whatâs the policy on PDA? Full access or ââ
The rest of your sentence vanishes into fabric as Spencer pulls your shirt over your head, words muffled into cotton. You let out a muffled protest, momentarily caught in the fabric, and Spencer swears heâs never been more tempted to laugh at anything in his life.
By the time he tosses your shirt aside, youâve recovered, blinking at him like nothing happened, hair adorably mussed.
â â case-by-case basis?â
Spencer drags his hands down your hair, smoothing out the worst of the damage. He sighs dramatically, but his lips are twitching. âIf I had known going steady required this much paperwork, I wouldâve reconsidered.â
You grin at him. âOh, you think this is bad? Just wait until we get into the holiday gift-giving policies and date night scheduling. Speaking of which ââ
He doesnât let you finish. He kisses you mid-sentence, less because he wants to shut you up (though thatâs a nice bonus) and more because he can. Because he gets to. Because somehow, without him even realizing it was happening, this wonderful, impossible thing has become real.
This thing between you, this thing that was supposed to be undefined, a quantum maybe â itâs never been uncertain. Itâs never been both platonic and not platonic, no matter how long he tried to pretend otherwise.
No, the box is open now. It probably always was.Â
And Spencer had never been so happy to kill the cat.
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Cuteee
summary: in which he sees you're not wearing your engagement/wedding ring and he totally handles it normally.
warnings: language!
drivers: 44, 4, 16, 1, 81, 55
note: idk why the quality of the pictures is fluctuating but alas, i tried my best LOL
disclaimer: i do not allow my work to be copied/translated/reposted in any capacity!
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What about cutie first season Spencer Reid who is desperately in love with his coworker and is kinda blind sided when Lila kisses himđ„ș He wants to make it really clear that the kiss was one sided but his soon to be girlfriend is jealous jealousđ©·
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader ( no use of y/n ) content warnings: reader being jealous , mention of lila ( obviously ) a/n: hiii !!! i hope you like this :)
When you read in books the phrase âjealousy boiled in her veins,â you never quite understood it. Sure, youâd felt jealousy before, in fleeting moments of insecurity or longing.
But boiling jealousy? That had always seemed like an exaggeration.Â
Not until four days ago.Â
Though, boiling wasnât the right word for it. No, what you felt then was explosive jealousy.
A kind of heat so intense it made your skin prickle, your throat tighten, your hands curl into fists at your sides. It was the kind of jealousy that made your stomach churn and your heart pound with something dangerously close to heartbreak.Â
Because four days ago, you saw them.Â
Spencer and Lila. In the pool.Â
The images were burned into your memory, tattooed on the inside of your eyelids like a cruel joke. Every time you closed your eyes, there they wereâher arms wrapped around his neck and their faces too close.
You had barely slept since.Â
And work? Work was even worse.Â
Two days ago, when you walked into the BAU for the first time since that dreadful moment, you told yourself youâd be fine. You could be professional. You could pretend it didnât bother you.Â
But you couldnât even look at Spencer.Â
Every time he stepped near you, all you could see was her in his arms. Every time he spoke, all you could hear was the laughter they shared in that damn pool. You forced yourself to act normal, to keep your voice steady and your posture composed.
But it was so, so hard.Â
Elle had noticed. She kept shooting you those pointed glances, raising an eyebrow in silent question. Are you okay?Â
Of course you werenât.Â
How could you be when you had been crushing on Spencer for so long, you could barely remember a time when you hadnât been? How could you be okay when the sight of him with someone else had nearly shattered you?Â
Spencer noticed too. Of course he did.Â
He wasnât obliviousânot when it came to you. He saw the way you avoided his gaze, the way your once warm smiles had faded into stiff nods and clipped responses. He saw the way your shoulders tensed when he entered the room, how you kept your distance like even standing next to him was unbearable.Â
And it was unbearable.Â
He wanted to talk to you, to explain.Â
To tell you that what happened was one-sided. That he hadnât meant for it to happen. That he hadnât wanted it to happen. That it had been unexpected and overwhelming and, ultimately, meaningless.Â
That he was in love with you, not Lila.Â
But how could he say that when you wouldnât even look at him? When every time he tried to get close, you turned away? When the words on the tip of his tongue kept dying in the silence you forced between you?Â
Today, when you walked into the bullpen, the first thing you noticed was Derek. He was leaning against Spencerâs desk, a smirk playing on his lips as he held a paper in his hand.
The moment he saw you, he straightened, casually tossing the paper into the trash, his expression softening as he placed a warm hand on your shoulder.Â
âMorning, sweetheart,â he greeted smoothly.Â
âMorning,â you replied, offering him a small, tired smile.Â
You already knew what he had been holding. The pictures. The ones of Spencer and Lila in the pool. The same ones Derek had undoubtedly been using to tease Spencer with before you arrived. You also knew why Derek immediately threw the magazine away.
Because Derek, just like the rest of the team, knew exactly how you felt about Spencer.Â
And how Spencer felt about you.Â
Everyone with eyes and ears could tell. The way you gravitated toward each other, how you always seemed to seek each other out, how Spencerâs face lit up when you laughed. It wasnât just friendship. It had never been just friendship.Â
Spencer glanced up from his desk as you passed by, flashing you a hesitant, almost hopeful smile.Â
You only nodded, forcing yourself to keep walking.Â
You settled into your chair, taking a slow breath as you forced your hands to stay busy, flipping through the files on your desk. You could feel Spencerâs gaze lingering on you, like he was trying to gather the courage to say something.Â
Spencer missed you.Â
He missed the conversations, the inside jokes, the way you used to nudge his shoulder whenever you walked by. He missed the way your voice softened when you said his name, the way you actually listened to his rambles instead of tuning them out like most people did.Â
And he wantedâneededâto explain.Â
But every time he opened his mouth to speak, the words tangled in his throat. Because what if he ruined everything? What if trying to explain just made things worse?Â
He had been so close before all of this happened.
Just a few days ago, he had been sitting right here, talking to Elle, asking for advice on how to ask you out. He had been nervous, but excited. He had a plan, one he had been going over in his head a hundred timesâsomething simple, something meaningful. He just wanted you to know how much you meant to him.Â
But then Lila happened.Â
And now, instead of planning a date, he was trying to figure out how to make you look at him again.Â
He couldnât take it anymore.Â
Spencer stood abruptly, pushing back his chair with a quiet scrape against the floor. He hesitated for only a second before crossing the room, stopping just beside your desk.Â
âCan we talk?â His voice was quieter than usual.Â
You didnât look up right away, your fingers tightening around the file in front of you. A moment passed before you finally let out a slow sigh and nodded.Â
âOkay.âÂ
Spencer felt his heart stutter in relief.Â
The two of you walked to the breakroom in silence.Â
Spencer closed the door behind him, the soft click sounding much louder in the quiet space. He hesitated, shifting from foot to foot, fingers twitching slightly at his sides.Â
âIââ He stopped, inhaling sharply. Then exhaled. Then hesitated again.Â
You leaned against the coffee counter, arms crossed, waiting. Your heart pounded a little too fast in your chest. You felt awkwardâjust a tiny bit. Because Spencer wanting to talk to you meant he had noticed your behavior. Not that you had been subtle about it.Â
But it also meant he had noticed your jealousy.Â
And that was almost worse.Â
Finally, Spencer spoke, his voice quiet, careful. Earnest.Â
âI miss you.âÂ
Your head snapped up and you just stared at him, wide-eyed.Â
You didn't expect him to be so direct.
Spencer was blushing, a deep red creeping up his neck, dusting the tips of his ears. He looked like he wanted to disappear, like saying those three words had been the most terrifying thing he had ever doneâwhich, knowing him, it very well might have been.Â
But the way he was looking at you, like he was afraid he had already lost you, made something twist painfully in your chest.Â
âIââ You swallowed, your throat suddenly dry. âYou⊠what?âÂ
Spencer gave a small, nervous laugh, running a hand through his hair. âI miss you,â he repeated, voice softer this time. âAnd IâI know youâre upset. I know why. And I just⊠I need you to know that what happened with Lila, itâit wasnât what it looked like.âÂ
You pressed your lips together, your fingers gripping the counter behind you. âIt looked like you were kissing her,â you muttered, unable to stop the sharp edge in your voice.Â
Spencer winced. âShe kissed me,â he corrected quickly. âIâI didnât expect it, and I definitely didnât want it. I pulled away as soon as Iââ He stopped himself, shaking his head. âIt wasnât what I wanted.âÂ
You stared at him for a long moment. He was shifting anxiously, his hands half-raised like he wanted to reach for you but didnât know if he could. His brows were drawn together, his lips pressed into a tight line, like he was bracing himself for you to tell him you didnât care.Â
But you did care. That was the problem, wasnât it?Â
You looked down, inhaling deeply before meeting his gaze again. âThen⊠what do you want, Spencer?âÂ
His breath hitched.Â
For a moment, he said nothing, just looking at you like he was memorizing every detail of your face, like he needed to get this right. Then, finally, he took a small step forward, eyes locked onto yours.Â
âYou,â he said simply.
Your heart stopped.Â
And then it started again, thundering against your ribs, because Spencer Reid had just admittedâout loudâthat he wanted you.Â
The jealousy that had been burning inside you for days was suddenly replaced by something else entirely.Â
Hope.Â
âIâwhat?â Your ability to form sentences had seemingly vanished. Your mouth hung slightly open as you stared at him, heart hammering against your ribs.Â
Spencer, for his part, was barely looking at you. His eyes flickered to yours for a second before darting back to the coffee pot behind you, like it was suddenly the most fascinating thing in the world.Â
âMe?â you finally managed to say. That was it. That was all your brain could come up with. Me?Â
Spencer nodded, still not quite meeting your gaze.Â
Silence stretched between you, thick with unsaid words.
Then, finally, he spoke again.Â
âI wasâI was trying to figure out how to ask you out,â he admitted, his voice quieter now, more uncertain. âI was talking to Elle about it, actually. Trying toâŠto make a plan.â His hands twitched at his sides, like he wasnât sure what to do with them. âAnd then Lilaââ He exhaled sharply, shaking his head. âEverything just got messed up.âÂ
âReally?â you asked, your lips curving into the smallest hint of a smile.Â
Spencer finally looked at you again, his expression both relieved and vulnerable all at once. âYeah,â he breathed out.Â
The heaviness in your chest eased, just a little.Â
You took a slow step toward him, close enough that you could see the way his breath hitched, the way his fingers curled slightly like he was stopping himself from reaching for you.Â
âSoâŠâ You tilted your head, your voice softer now. âHow were you going to ask me?âÂ
Spencer let out a short, nervous laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. âUh⊠I had a whole thing planned. Something about books and coffee and, um, statistics on first-date success ratesâŠâ He trailed off, his face burning. âIt was probably a bad plan.âÂ
You bit your lip, your smile growing. âI donât know,â you mused, your heart pounding. âI think I wouldâve liked it.âÂ
Spencer blinked at you, hope flickering across his face. âYeah?âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
The silence that followed wasnât awkward this time. It was warm.
You took another step forward, and this time, Spencer didnât move away. He was still nervous, still hesitant, but he didnât look away when you reached out and brushed your fingers against his.Â
âI still would,â you said quietly.Â
Spencer swallowed, his fingers twitching against yours before he finally, finally curled them around your hand. His grip was unsure at firstâlike he was waiting for you to change your mindâbut when you didnât pull away, his shoulders relaxed.Â
âThen,â he said, his lips curving ever so slightly, âwould you maybe want toââÂ
âYes,â you interrupted, grinning now.Â
Spencer smiled, a real, relieved smile, and you felt something settle in your chestâsomething that had been in turmoil for days.Â
This was sooo cute
summary: spencer studies intimacy like any other subject, but nothing prepares him for the reality of being with you. in your arms, he finally learns that some things canât be understood- only experienced. pairing: inexperienced!spencer reid x reader warnings: fluff galore, lots of kissing (practically making out), intimacy, but no explicit sexual content! wc: 1.1k masterlist. a/n: this brilliant idea came from my very lovely moot @/jackiesistired over on twitter <33
Spencer had read five books about kissing.
Not just any books, no. They were scientific, psychology-based books that broke down the act of kissing into its most basic neurological, physiological, and psychological components. Heâd also skipped numerous peer-reviewed journal articles, and, at some point, had managed to venture into less scientific territory- modern dating guides that made his skin crawl but ultimately did provide insight into what people expected in relationships.
And then, there was the⊠other research.
The kind that led to him sitting in front of his laptop at 3 a.m., his ears burning as he read about intimacy in ways he hadnât yet experienced. He took notes. Intricate organized, handwritten notes in which he annotated his key findings, storing them away like highly classified information.
But all of it- all of the extensive research- meant absolutely nothing the moment your lips crashed against his.
â± âââââââââ {â . ⯠.â } âââââââââ â°
You and Spencer had been dating for a few months now, and while things had been progressing steadily, he hadnât made any major moves beyond gentle, lingering kisses and hesitant, shaky touches.Â
He was shy about it- not because he didnât want you to know, but because he was terrified of messing up. Heâd told you early on about his utter lack of experience, and you had reassured him earnestly that there was no pressure.
But he wanted more. He wanted to touch you the way you touched him. He wanted to kiss you until you were both breathless, and he wanted to see if reality could really live up to things he had spent so long reading about. He wanted to know if he was capable of making you feel good.
Most of all, he desperately wanted to stop overthinking.
Which is how he found himself here.
Spencer hadnât realised just how sensitive he was until he was beneath your hands, beneath your lips, and was trying (and failing) to stay coherent.
You had started slow and gentle, kissing him with a sweet, lingering tenderness, but the moment he responded- the moment he made the quiet, needy sound in the back of his throat- you deepened it. Suddenly, he wasnât sure if he could survive this.
Your fingers tangled in his curls, tugging softly, and the delicious whine that escaped him was so involuntary, so desperate, that you felt him tense in embarrassment.
You pulled back just enough to whisper against his lips, âDonât hold back.â
His breath hitched. His head spun as his grip on your waist tightened, unsure whether to pull you closer until there was no air between you or to push you away before he completely unraveled under your touch.
âI- I donât-â He swallowed harshly as your lips gently brushed across his jaw. âI didnât know I was this-â
âSensitive?â you supplied graciously, dragging your lips down his neck.
Spencer shuddered. âY-yeah,â he admitted, voice wrecked already.
You smiled against his soft skin. âI like it.â
He let out a ragged breath, his eyes fluttering shut as you pressed kisses down the column of his throat. âI- I think I do too.â
You laughed softly as you trailed lower, and Spencer actually whimpered.
Youâd never heard a sound quite like that from him before- so high and desperate- a noise that he clearly hadnât intended to make. His whole body twitched beneath your teasing touch, and he was gripping the couch cushions like they were his sole tether to reality.Â
âOh, God-â His voice cracked as your teeth grazed over his pulse point, his hips shifting instinctively beneath you.
He inhaled sharply as you went back up and pressed a kiss just beneath his jaw. Suddenly, his brain kicked into overdrive. "Did you know that the skin along the neck has an increased concentration of sensory receptors? Itâs why-" His words cut off with a sharp inhale when your lips gently caressed the skin where his neck met his shoulder.
"Why what?" you teased, brushing your lips lightly over his neck.
"Why- itâs- um- " His breath hitched. "Itâs a- an erogenous zone- highly sensitive- oh-"Â
"You were saying?" you murmured, dragging your lips up the column of his throat.   Â
"I-" He tried again, but when you nipped lightly at his jaw, his thoughts crumbled.   Â
You pulled back to take in the sight of him. He was flushed, panting, his pupils blown wide with something akin to pleading.
âSpencer,â you murmured, running your fingers through his tousled curls, reveling in how he leaned into your touch like he was starving for it.
He looked up at you in a daze, his lips parted like he was trying to form words, but he failed to find them.
âI-â He swallowed hard. âI did research on this.â
You tilted your head slightly and bit your lip, amused. âUh-huh?â
âVery extensive research,â he admitted, his voice hoarse. âA lot of it.â
âAnd what did your research tell you?â You hummed softly as you trailed your fingers lightly down his chest.
He inhaled sharply as he tried not to react to your touch. âThat, uh- physical contact increases oxytocin, which promotes bonding, and- oh-â His voice broke when you pressed a kiss just below his ear, his whole body trembling beneath yours.
You grinned. âGo on, Spencer.â
âI- I-â His fingers clenched at your hips as you shifted, his breath stuttering. âOh, my God-â
You kissed him again, slow and deep, and he let out the softest moan against your lips, feeling utterly helpless.
His hands trembled where they held you, like he was overwhelmed and he didnât know where to move them. Like he was afraid that if he moved too much, or breathed too much, he might just lose control completely.
âYou are adorable,â you whispered against his lips, dragging your nails lightly down his back.
He exhaled shakily. "I- um- "
Your smile softened, pressing a kiss to the corner of his mouth. âLetâs practice more.â
Spencerâs hands tightened on your waist, and for once, he didnât overthink.
He just felt.
And it was so much better than anything he had ever read.
â± âââââââââ {â . ⯠.â } âââââââââ â°
Later, when you were curled up against him, fingers tracing lazy circles on his chest, he let out a quiet, disbelieving laugh.
You lifted your head. âWhat?â
He shook his head, cheeks still tinged pink. âI spent weeks preparing. Studying. Making sure I knew everything I could possibly know. And yetâŠâ He looked down at you, still dazed. âNothing I read could have prepared me for you.â
You smiled, pressing a lingering kiss to his jaw.
âThatâs because,â you murmured, âsome things you just have to experience.â
Spencer exhaled shakily, pulling you closer.
âThen I think I still have a lot to learn.â
You grinned, playing with the curls at the nape of his neck. âGood thing I loved teaching you.â
And when you kissed him again, he decided that practical application was his new favorite subject.
Perfection
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SUMMARY à§à ever since spencer gave you that delicate little flower necklace, itâs barely left your neck. even when you're getting all dressed up for a fancy night out and it doesn't quite match, youâre not taking it off. itâs his giftâitâs specialâand no way are you going anywhere without a piece of him close to your heart
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Youâre standing in front of the full-length mirror, carefully adjusting the straps of your dress as your heels click softly on the hardwood floor. Itâs elegant, timeless, the kind of dress that makes you feel like youâre starring in some classic black-and-white filmâonly with better lighting.
The zipper is just out of reach, and so, in a soft voice tinted with playful affection, you call out, âSpence, can you zip me up?â
From down the hall, you hear the soft rustle of fabric and the quick, familiar shuffle of socked feet on hardwood. Moments later, Spencer appears behind you, looking unfairly beautiful in his suit and slightly crooked tie, his hair falling a little messily over his forehead. He has his glasses on, which always makes your heart stutter for no good reason.
âI can do that,â he says gently, already stepping closer.
His fingers brush your back as he slowly pulls the zipper upward, the motion achingly carefulâas though heâs handling fine lace or some kind of sacred treasure. Which, knowing him, youâre pretty sure he thinks you are.
Once the zipperâs secured, you expect him to pull away. But instead, his hands settle lightly on your waist, and his eyes catch on the chain around your neck. His brows knit together as he leans forward to inspect the pendant more closely.
âYouâre wearing the necklace I gave you,â he says softly, a surprised note in his voice.
You glance down at it in the mirror. Itâs a simple silver chain, holding a small glass orb with a tiny, pressed forget-me-not encased inside. The gift he gave you months agoâafter one of those long, exhausting stretches where he was gone on a case for ten days straight. He had handed it to you, sheepishly, in the middle of your shared kitchen, mumbling something about permanence and flowers and how he hoped youâd like it.
âI am,â you say, your smile soft and content.
Spencer tilts his head. âBut⊠it doesnât quite go with the neckline. I mean, aesthetically speaking, it interrupts the visual line of the bodice, andââ He pauses, recognizing your expression of amusement in the mirror. âSorry, I was rambling.â
You giggle under your breath. âA little.â
He clears his throat, his fingers gently brushing against the clasp at the back of your neck. âI could take it off for you. Just for tonight. Iâll put it somewhere safe, I promise.â
But you immediately shoo his hands away, your tone light but firm. âNope.â
He blinks. âWhat do you mean ânopeâ?â
âI mean no.â You turn to face him now, reaching up to fix his slightly crooked tie. âYou gave it to me. Itâs yours. Iâm not taking it off.â
Spencer stares at you, blinking slowly, like heâs trying to process the words but his brain short-circuited somewhere in the middle.
âIâŠâ He exhales. âBut it doesnât matchââ
âStill,â you interrupt gently, smoothing your hands over his lapels. âItâs my favorite thing. You picked it out. You remembered what flower I said I liked when we watched that documentary about botanical symbolism and how they used to mean secret messages.â Your eyes meet his, full of warmth. âItâs the most you thing I own. So yeahâobviously, Iâm not taking it off. Ever.â
And thatâs it. Thatâs the moment Spencer Reid absolutely melts into a puddle of goo on the bedroom floor. His eyes go glassy, his mouth opening just enough to say somethingâanythingâbut no words come out. Just a breath. A shaky, wonderstruck breath.
âYou remembered I said that?â he murmurs, like he still canât quite believe it.
âOf course I did. Youâre you.â
He laughs, quiet and breathless, before pulling you into a gentle hug. His arms wrap around you tightly, almost like heâs afraid if he lets go, the moment might dissolve. âYouâre unbelievable,â he whispers into your hair.
âYou say that like itâs a bad thing.â
He chuckles, and you feel his lips press to the top of your head. âNo. Itâs the best thing.â
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Spencer walks into the bullpen looking like a man who just witnessed actual magic.
âSomeoneâs glowing,â Emily teases as he drops his bag by his desk. âDid the gala have an open bar or did your girlfriend finally admit sheâs secretly a time traveler?â
âShe wore the necklace I gave her,â Spencer says, completely unprompted. Heâs not even looking at anyone. He just says it with this dazed little smile on his face.
âOh?â JJ glances over. âThe pressed flower one?â
âYeah,â Spencer nods, adjusting his satchel strap unnecessarily. âIt didnât match her dress at all. Like, it was totally off. I offered to take it off for her, but she wouldnât let me. She saidâŠâ He trails off for a moment, eyes unfocused, like heâs reliving it all over again. âShe said it was my gift, so sheâs never taking it off. Ever.â
Thereâs a collective pause around the bullpen.
And thenâ
âAwwwwwww!â comes in stereo from Garcia and JJ.
âGod, thatâs so disgustingly cute,â Emily says, sipping her coffee with a smirk. âHow are you not married yet?â
âI love love,â Penelope declares, dramatically clutching her heart. âYouâve got the heart-eyes going so hard, Doctor Reid.â
Spencer just shrugs, a soft smile still pulling at his lips. âI guess I do.â
Thereâs a long pause. Then, almost absently, he adds: âI think Iâm going to get her another one. One for every flower sheâs ever told me about.â
And just like that, Emily squeals and Garcia nearly falls off her chair.
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