What about cutie first season Spencer Reid who is desperately in love with his coworker and is kinda blind sided when Lila kisses himđ„ș He wants to make it really clear that the kiss was one sided but his soon to be girlfriend is jealous jealousđ©·
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader ( no use of y/n ) content warnings: reader being jealous , mention of lila ( obviously ) a/n: hiii !!! i hope you like this :)
When you read in books the phrase âjealousy boiled in her veins,â you never quite understood it. Sure, youâd felt jealousy before, in fleeting moments of insecurity or longing.
But boiling jealousy? That had always seemed like an exaggeration.Â
Not until four days ago.Â
Though, boiling wasnât the right word for it. No, what you felt then was explosive jealousy.
A kind of heat so intense it made your skin prickle, your throat tighten, your hands curl into fists at your sides. It was the kind of jealousy that made your stomach churn and your heart pound with something dangerously close to heartbreak.Â
Because four days ago, you saw them.Â
Spencer and Lila. In the pool.Â
The images were burned into your memory, tattooed on the inside of your eyelids like a cruel joke. Every time you closed your eyes, there they wereâher arms wrapped around his neck and their faces too close.
You had barely slept since.Â
And work? Work was even worse.Â
Two days ago, when you walked into the BAU for the first time since that dreadful moment, you told yourself youâd be fine. You could be professional. You could pretend it didnât bother you.Â
But you couldnât even look at Spencer.Â
Every time he stepped near you, all you could see was her in his arms. Every time he spoke, all you could hear was the laughter they shared in that damn pool. You forced yourself to act normal, to keep your voice steady and your posture composed.
But it was so, so hard.Â
Elle had noticed. She kept shooting you those pointed glances, raising an eyebrow in silent question. Are you okay?Â
Of course you werenât.Â
How could you be when you had been crushing on Spencer for so long, you could barely remember a time when you hadnât been? How could you be okay when the sight of him with someone else had nearly shattered you?Â
Spencer noticed too. Of course he did.Â
He wasnât obliviousânot when it came to you. He saw the way you avoided his gaze, the way your once warm smiles had faded into stiff nods and clipped responses. He saw the way your shoulders tensed when he entered the room, how you kept your distance like even standing next to him was unbearable.Â
And it was unbearable.Â
He wanted to talk to you, to explain.Â
To tell you that what happened was one-sided. That he hadnât meant for it to happen. That he hadnât wanted it to happen. That it had been unexpected and overwhelming and, ultimately, meaningless.Â
That he was in love with you, not Lila.Â
But how could he say that when you wouldnât even look at him? When every time he tried to get close, you turned away? When the words on the tip of his tongue kept dying in the silence you forced between you?Â
Today, when you walked into the bullpen, the first thing you noticed was Derek. He was leaning against Spencerâs desk, a smirk playing on his lips as he held a paper in his hand.
The moment he saw you, he straightened, casually tossing the paper into the trash, his expression softening as he placed a warm hand on your shoulder.Â
âMorning, sweetheart,â he greeted smoothly.Â
âMorning,â you replied, offering him a small, tired smile.Â
You already knew what he had been holding. The pictures. The ones of Spencer and Lila in the pool. The same ones Derek had undoubtedly been using to tease Spencer with before you arrived. You also knew why Derek immediately threw the magazine away.
Because Derek, just like the rest of the team, knew exactly how you felt about Spencer.Â
And how Spencer felt about you.Â
Everyone with eyes and ears could tell. The way you gravitated toward each other, how you always seemed to seek each other out, how Spencerâs face lit up when you laughed. It wasnât just friendship. It had never been just friendship.Â
Spencer glanced up from his desk as you passed by, flashing you a hesitant, almost hopeful smile.Â
You only nodded, forcing yourself to keep walking.Â
You settled into your chair, taking a slow breath as you forced your hands to stay busy, flipping through the files on your desk. You could feel Spencerâs gaze lingering on you, like he was trying to gather the courage to say something.Â
Spencer missed you.Â
He missed the conversations, the inside jokes, the way you used to nudge his shoulder whenever you walked by. He missed the way your voice softened when you said his name, the way you actually listened to his rambles instead of tuning them out like most people did.Â
And he wantedâneededâto explain.Â
But every time he opened his mouth to speak, the words tangled in his throat. Because what if he ruined everything? What if trying to explain just made things worse?Â
He had been so close before all of this happened.
Just a few days ago, he had been sitting right here, talking to Elle, asking for advice on how to ask you out. He had been nervous, but excited. He had a plan, one he had been going over in his head a hundred timesâsomething simple, something meaningful. He just wanted you to know how much you meant to him.Â
But then Lila happened.Â
And now, instead of planning a date, he was trying to figure out how to make you look at him again.Â
He couldnât take it anymore.Â
Spencer stood abruptly, pushing back his chair with a quiet scrape against the floor. He hesitated for only a second before crossing the room, stopping just beside your desk.Â
âCan we talk?â His voice was quieter than usual.Â
You didnât look up right away, your fingers tightening around the file in front of you. A moment passed before you finally let out a slow sigh and nodded.Â
âOkay.âÂ
Spencer felt his heart stutter in relief.Â
The two of you walked to the breakroom in silence.Â
Spencer closed the door behind him, the soft click sounding much louder in the quiet space. He hesitated, shifting from foot to foot, fingers twitching slightly at his sides.Â
âIââ He stopped, inhaling sharply. Then exhaled. Then hesitated again.Â
You leaned against the coffee counter, arms crossed, waiting. Your heart pounded a little too fast in your chest. You felt awkwardâjust a tiny bit. Because Spencer wanting to talk to you meant he had noticed your behavior. Not that you had been subtle about it.Â
But it also meant he had noticed your jealousy.Â
And that was almost worse.Â
Finally, Spencer spoke, his voice quiet, careful. Earnest.Â
âI miss you.âÂ
Your head snapped up and you just stared at him, wide-eyed.Â
You didn't expect him to be so direct.
Spencer was blushing, a deep red creeping up his neck, dusting the tips of his ears. He looked like he wanted to disappear, like saying those three words had been the most terrifying thing he had ever doneâwhich, knowing him, it very well might have been.Â
But the way he was looking at you, like he was afraid he had already lost you, made something twist painfully in your chest.Â
âIââ You swallowed, your throat suddenly dry. âYou⊠what?âÂ
Spencer gave a small, nervous laugh, running a hand through his hair. âI miss you,â he repeated, voice softer this time. âAnd IâI know youâre upset. I know why. And I just⊠I need you to know that what happened with Lila, itâit wasnât what it looked like.âÂ
You pressed your lips together, your fingers gripping the counter behind you. âIt looked like you were kissing her,â you muttered, unable to stop the sharp edge in your voice.Â
Spencer winced. âShe kissed me,â he corrected quickly. âIâI didnât expect it, and I definitely didnât want it. I pulled away as soon as Iââ He stopped himself, shaking his head. âIt wasnât what I wanted.âÂ
You stared at him for a long moment. He was shifting anxiously, his hands half-raised like he wanted to reach for you but didnât know if he could. His brows were drawn together, his lips pressed into a tight line, like he was bracing himself for you to tell him you didnât care.Â
But you did care. That was the problem, wasnât it?Â
You looked down, inhaling deeply before meeting his gaze again. âThen⊠what do you want, Spencer?âÂ
His breath hitched.Â
For a moment, he said nothing, just looking at you like he was memorizing every detail of your face, like he needed to get this right. Then, finally, he took a small step forward, eyes locked onto yours.Â
âYou,â he said simply.
Your heart stopped.Â
And then it started again, thundering against your ribs, because Spencer Reid had just admittedâout loudâthat he wanted you.Â
The jealousy that had been burning inside you for days was suddenly replaced by something else entirely.Â
Hope.Â
âIâwhat?â Your ability to form sentences had seemingly vanished. Your mouth hung slightly open as you stared at him, heart hammering against your ribs.Â
Spencer, for his part, was barely looking at you. His eyes flickered to yours for a second before darting back to the coffee pot behind you, like it was suddenly the most fascinating thing in the world.Â
âMe?â you finally managed to say. That was it. That was all your brain could come up with. Me?Â
Spencer nodded, still not quite meeting your gaze.Â
Silence stretched between you, thick with unsaid words.
Then, finally, he spoke again.Â
âI wasâI was trying to figure out how to ask you out,â he admitted, his voice quieter now, more uncertain. âI was talking to Elle about it, actually. Trying toâŠto make a plan.â His hands twitched at his sides, like he wasnât sure what to do with them. âAnd then Lilaââ He exhaled sharply, shaking his head. âEverything just got messed up.âÂ
âReally?â you asked, your lips curving into the smallest hint of a smile.Â
Spencer finally looked at you again, his expression both relieved and vulnerable all at once. âYeah,â he breathed out.Â
The heaviness in your chest eased, just a little.Â
You took a slow step toward him, close enough that you could see the way his breath hitched, the way his fingers curled slightly like he was stopping himself from reaching for you.Â
âSoâŠâ You tilted your head, your voice softer now. âHow were you going to ask me?âÂ
Spencer let out a short, nervous laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. âUh⊠I had a whole thing planned. Something about books and coffee and, um, statistics on first-date success ratesâŠâ He trailed off, his face burning. âIt was probably a bad plan.âÂ
You bit your lip, your smile growing. âI donât know,â you mused, your heart pounding. âI think I wouldâve liked it.âÂ
Spencer blinked at you, hope flickering across his face. âYeah?âÂ
âYeah.âÂ
The silence that followed wasnât awkward this time. It was warm.
You took another step forward, and this time, Spencer didnât move away. He was still nervous, still hesitant, but he didnât look away when you reached out and brushed your fingers against his.Â
âI still would,â you said quietly.Â
Spencer swallowed, his fingers twitching against yours before he finally, finally curled them around your hand. His grip was unsure at firstâlike he was waiting for you to change your mindâbut when you didnât pull away, his shoulders relaxed.Â
âThen,â he said, his lips curving ever so slightly, âwould you maybe want toââÂ
âYes,â you interrupted, grinning now.Â
Spencer smiled, a real, relieved smile, and you felt something settle in your chestâsomething that had been in turmoil for days.Â
Cuteeee
can you write about cold!reader where the team finds out they're together? ahh i love them so much!
UNDENIABLY YOURS. /spencer reid/
you pick up the wrong phone.
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a/n | love a good cliche :)
Spencerâs apartment is quiet. Not the kind of quiet that feels awkward or hollow, but the kind that settles over you like a warm blanketâa gentle hush made of ticking clocks, the occasional hum of traffic outside, and the soft shuffling sounds of a man whoâs currently making tea in the kitchen.
Youâre on his couch, half-curled under a throw blanket that doesnât quite cover your feet. The place smells like old books and something herbal, likely the blend Spencer claims is âsoothing to the parasympathetic nervous system.â You never asked what that meant. You suspect itâs just chamomile with a marketing degree.
The night stretched longer than you intended. Dinner turned into wine, which turned into a slow tour through his cluttered bookshelves, which turned into another round of debate over Kantâs categorical imperative versus utilitarian ethics.
You were only supposed to drop by after work. A quick visit, maybe an hour. But Spencer always pulls time out from under you like a magician with a tablecloth.
And you stay. Again.
You donât touch much when youâre with him. Not like you could. Heâs all soft eyes and hesitant hands. He doesnât crowd you, doesnât demand declarations or affection youâre not ready to give. And you? Youâre good at compartmentalising. At keeping your feelings tucked into corners, neatly labeled and out of reach. Itâs safer that way. Less chaotic.
But you always show up.
That counts for something, right?
âTea,â he says, emerging from the kitchen with two mismatched mugs. He hands you the one with faded cartoon planets on it. You take it wordlessly.
âStill pretending this helps your parasympathetic system or whatever?â you murmur into the rim of the cup.
Spencer smiles. He always smiles when you needle him. Like he knows itâs your version of affection. Like heâs fluent in your brand of emotional repression.
âIâm not pretending,â he says, settling into the armchair across from you. âThere are studies,â
âThere are always studies,â
âYou want me to send you the links?â
âNo,â
âYouâd like the one from 2009. It discussesââ
âSpencer,â
âOkay,â he says, holding up both hands in mock surrender. âNo studies,â
You sip the tea. Itâs hot and bitter and tastes like him. Not literallyâhe doesnât taste like dried flowersâbut something about the comfort of the moment, the soft warmth of the mug against your palm, the way he looks at you like youâre not a puzzle to solve but a story heâs enjoying watching unfold. Itâs familiar. Steady.
Which is probably why youâre still here.
âYou staying?â he asks after a few minutes, voice casual. Too casual. Like he didnât spend the last half hour not asking.
You glance at the clock. Itâs past midnight. Late enough to make the excuse that youâre just tired and donât want to drive. Youâre already in the oversized hoodie he handed youâhis hoodie, not yoursâand your shoes are near the door, lined up next to his like it means something.
You should deflect. You always deflect.
Instead, you say, âYeah,â
He doesnât react much, just nods, but thereâs a softness in his eyes that makes your chest ache in a way you refuse to examine.
He doesnât ask for more. He never does.
Itâs part of the deal.
Instead, he turns on some lo-fi instrumental playlist (he claims lyrics distract his brain when heâs trying to wind down), and you both migrate to his bedroom.
â
You donât remember falling asleep. Just that at some point, your eyes fluttered shut, and for once, your thoughts didnât keep you awake. No spiraling worst-case scenarios. No calculating emotional fallout. Just warmth, and the slow, steady rhythm of Spencer breathing beside you. The kind of peace you donât admit you crave.
Until itâs shattered.
The phone ringsâsharp, insistentâand you jolt awake in an instant, heart pounding with the abrupt transition. The room is pitch black, save for the glowing screen on the nightstand. Spencer groans softly beside you, but doesnât move.
Still half-asleep, you fumble your hand over the nightstand. Spencerâs glasses, unfinished book, rectangle of impending doom. Thatâs the one.
âUnless thereâs an active terrorist threat,â you snap, voice rough with sleep, âthere is zero reason to be calling this late.â
Thereâs a beat of stunned silence.
Then, cautiously, ââŠWait, who is this?â
You rub your face with your free hand, already annoyed. âWho do you think?â
Another pauseâlonger this time. And then, sharply suspicious, ââŠNot Spencer Reid?â
You blink, finally focusing on the phoneâs lock screen. Itâs not yours. Definitely not yours.
You sit up slightly, stomach dropping. Shit. âUhââ
Spencer stirs beside you, blinking blearily. âWhaâs going onâŠ?â
And thatâs when it happens. A long, slow intake of breath through the receiver.
âOooooooooooooooooh,â
You try to recover. âGarcia.â
âOh my god,â she hisses, like she just found the holy grail. âI knew something was going on! Oh my god, I knew it!â
Spencerâs sitting up now, trying to make sense of the chaos. âWho is it?â
âPenelope,â you say flatly, glancing at the screen like itâs radioactive as you reluctantly put the call on speakerphone. âWhat do you want?â
âI need visual confirmation immediately,â Garcia is saying, way too awake for 2:07 AM. âIs he shirtless? Waitâare you? Never mind, donât answer that. I respect boundaries. Mostly. Oh my god.â
âGarcia.â you say, trying for a tone of calm, rational authority, but it comes out more defensive than intended. âWhat do you want?â
âWe have an urgent case my dear lovebirds,â Sheâs practically vibrating through the phone. Hotch wants everyone in the office. Oh I canât wait to see everyoneâs reactions,â
âGarciaââ
âNope! Too late! This is the best news Iâve gotten all year. JJ owes me twenty dollars, I knew I saw something in the way you looked at each other during the surveillance briefing last month. I have receipts.â
âWeâll be in the office soon,â Spencer mumbles, already resigned.
âOh, you better be,â she says, like sheâs the one running the FBI now. âBuckle up, lovebirds!â
The call ends with a cheerful âByeeeeeee!â and a click.
You sit there in stunned silence, phone still in your hand, the screen now dark and judgmental. Spencer groans, collapsing backward into the pillows.
âSheâs going to tell everyone,â
âSheâs already telling everyone,â you correct, flopping back beside him.
âThis is going to be so embarrassing,â
You glance over at himâhair tousled, face flushed, one arm slung over his eyes like heâs trying to hide from the world. Itâs honestly⊠kind of adorable.
You smile, just a little. âCould be worse,â
â
The BAU's conference room is already buzzing when you and Spencer walk inâthirty minutes later, coffee in hand, trying very hard to pretend this is just a normal Thursday.
It is not a normal Thursday.
Everyone is already there. Everyone is already looking.
Garcia practically explodes with smug glee the second she sees you. She doesnât say a wordâshe doesnât have to. Sheâs vibrating with the restrained chaos of someone who knows theyâve set off a very satisfying chain reaction. Her eyes sparkle. Her smile is enormous. Sheâs won something, and she knows it.
Spencer, for his part, looks like he wants the floor to swallow him whole. Heâs gone unusually quiet, hiding behind the rim of his coffee cup like itâs a shield. He keeps tugging at the sleeves of his sweater, hands jittery, face flushed, clearly regretting every decision that led to this moment. He wonât look at anyone.
And everyone else?
Well.
JJâs eyebrows are in her hairline. Emilyâs face is frozen somewhere between astonishment and visible mental recalibration. Morgan looks like he just got handed a particularly juicy tabloid headline. And Rossiâbless himâleans back in his chair, crosses his arms, and gives you both the kind of slow, impressed once-over usually reserved for rare bourbon.
Nobody says anything.
The silence stretches.
Spencer makes a small noise like heâs about to speakâprobably to stammer through some clumsy attempt at clarificationâbut you beat him to it.
You cross your arms, plant your feet, and deliver the line like a press briefing:
âYes, weâre dating. No, we havenât had sex. Weâve been together officially for three months. I will not answer any questions, so donât ask them.â
It lands like a bomb.
The room goes absolutely silent.
For a few blessed seconds, no one dares to move.
Then, from the corner, Rossi lets out a low chuckleâmore impressed than anything else. âWell. Thatâs one way to do it,â
Morgan whistles low under his breath, shaking his head with an admiring grin. âDamn, kid,â he says to Spencer, who is now actively hiding behind his coffee. âI knew you had game,â
Garcia looks like sheâs about to start clapping. You shoot her a warning glare.
âIâm just happy for you!â she chirps, hands raised in innocence. âThis is so good for team morale,â
You glance at Spencerâhis face still red, lips pressed tight like heâs trying not to die on the spotâand sigh.
Hotch remains blissfully unaffected.
Heâs sitting at the head of the conference table, scrawling something on a case file with his ever-present air of detached focus. His pen moves in slow, methodical strokes as if heâs entirely unaware that the team has just been thrown into chaos.
Everyone is staring at Hotch now, waiting for him to react, but he doesnâtâhe doesnât even look up from his paperwork.
Rossi, of course, is the first to break the silence. âYou knew about this,â
Hotch finally looks upâbarely. Itâs almost as if heâs taking a mental note of your existence before giving his usual level of minimal acknowledgment.
âThey informed me,â he says matter-of-factly. âHR protocols.â
The silence in the room grows exponentially. HR protocols?
Rossi looks betrayed. So does Emily. JJ blinks rapidly, trying to process the betrayal. Even Morgan stares at Hotch like he just said something deeply alien to their universe.
Garciaâs jaw drops in comically exaggerated shock. âWait⊠you knew and didnât tell us? Hotch!â She looks almost wounded by the injustice of it all.
Hotch, however, doesnât seem bothered in the slightest. He leans back in his chair, tapping his pen idly on the table. âI was informed of a change in personal relationships within the team,â he says, as if explaining why his coffeeâs not hot enough. âStandard procedure.â
Derekâs mouth twitches with the effort to hold back laughter, clearly fighting the urge to burst into full-on chuckles. âThatâs it? No âIâm happy for youâ or âThis changes everything!â?â
Hotch doesnât even flinch. âCongratulations,â he adds with minimal sincerity, glancing up briefly, before continuing, âbut we have an urgent case to focus on.â
Everyoneâs collective sense of betrayal is palpable. Thereâs a beat of stunned silence before Emily, trying to save face, says, âI⊠I guess we should focus on the case.â She says it with half a smile, but the effort is obvious. âBut seriously, Hotch. No heads-up? Not even a hint?â
Hotch simply gives them his patented âthis is serious businessâ look and straightens up. âFocus, everyone.â His voice brooks no argument. âWeâre being briefed on a new case, and I need all of you focused. Now.â
And just like that, the air in the room shifts. The humor fades, the teasing subsides, and everyone reluctantly pulls their attention to the matter at hand.
â
The rest of the day passes in a haze of good-natured (and sometimes not so good-natured) teasing. Derek, as always, is the first to crack a joke.
âSo, you two gonna make superhuman babies, or what?â he smirks, raising his eyebrows suggestively as he watches you and Spencer in the hallway.
Spencer nearly chokes on his coffee, his face turning an even deeper shade of red. âMorgan,â he stammers, voice barely above a whisper, âcan you not?â
Derek just grins wider. âOh, Iâm just getting started, loverboy,â He winks at you both and saunters off with the most obnoxious swagger imaginable.
Garcia, never one to be outdone, is already planning date ideas before you even step off the jet. âYou two should so check out that new fancy restaurant that just opened up down the street,â She nods at you, holding up her phone like sheâs already making the reservation.
You raise an eyebrow at Spencer, just to see his reaction. Heâs still turning red, but you canât help a small, satisfied smile at the sight of his discomfited expression.
âNo, Garcia. We shouldnât,â
âOh come on,â She beams. âI would die to be taken there on a date,â
You tilt your head at her, âYou really think we would enjoy a place like that? Really?â
âWellâŠâ
Emily, for her part, is still trying to process what the hell just happened. She keeps glancing at you both, trying to act casual but clearly still in disbelief. âSo soonââ She shakes her head. âIâm justâwow. Okay. Good for you, I guess? Iâve gotta go hide from Morgan now, completely unrelatedââ
JJ just chuckles, arms crossed. âCongratulations, both of you. Iâm really happy for you,â
You could almost thank the universe for the relief of normalcy. You donât. The universe didnât do shit. It was all you. And Spencer. Mainly Spencer. âThank you,â
The day finally winds down, and itâs time to leave. Spencer walks you to your hotel room, still looking like he might burst into flames from sheer embarrassment. Youâve let him be teased by the others, of course, but nothing too much. Heâs still wearing that sheepish, half-worried expression as you approach your car, and you canât help but smirk.
âWell,â you say, glancing up at him as you lean against the roomâs door, âNow they know,â
Spencer groans. Itâs low, and it carries all the weight of his supposed regret. âYeah,â
You lean in just a little, close enough that your voices are quiet but not enough for anyone else to overhear. You keep your tone flat, but thereâs something soft in your eyes when you speak.
âCouldâve been worse,â you remark, just barely meeting his gaze. A quiet reassurance, a little more tender than the rest of the day has been. Itâs not the most romantic thing in the world, but itâs yours.
Heâs helpless, standing there, still flustered. But the way he looks at youâfondness in his eyes and a soft laugh escaping his lipsâmakes everything feel more okay than it probably should.
You reach up a soft hand to brush over the side of Spencerâs face, a juxtaposition heâd never point out unless you asked, and he smiles against you as you kiss him goodnight.
Youâre barely parted when he speaks, foreheads pressed together and his declaration a whisper on your lips. âI love you,â
âThank you,â you nod softly as you separate, âGoodnight, Spencer,â
âgoodnight,â
I love this so much
Summary : Bucky needs to go on a mission, so he asks the rest of the team to take care of his girl.
Pairing : Bucky Barnes x reader (she/her) / Platonic!Thunderbolts x reader
Warnings/tags : Thunderbolts* spoilers!!!!!!! Established Relationship. TOWER FIC!!! Fluff, angst. Cursing. trauma. Death, nightmares, sleepwalking, hurt/comfort. Sam and Bucky arenât mad at each other in this one (Please let me know if I miss anything!!!)
Word count : 4.1kÂ
Note : This story is based on my own experiences with sleepwalking. If youâd like to be on the taglist, message me! It gets lost in the comments sometimes. Enjoy!
The New Avengers weren't as polished as their predecessors. You werenât even close to the universal beacon of hope they used to be â you flickered and survived.
This team was a patchwork of second chances and shattered pasts, proof that good people came with scars â that good people might have done things that kept you all up at night. It was a miracle anyone got any sleep at all.Â
Least of all you.Â
Ever since your first kill, you barely got a full nightâs rest.
By the time you joined the team, it had already been years of fragmented restâ twenty-minute naps stolen on ships here, an hour of sleep on dirty cots there. And when sleep did finally drag you under, it was rarely ever peaceful.
Sometimes, the worst part wasnât even the nightmares. Sometimes it was waking up in the living room, not even in control, your feet bare and your skin clammy from a sleepwalk you didnât remember beginning.
Youâd warned Bucky when you started dating him.Â
One night, you sat him down while your fingers nervously pulled at the threads on your sleeve and handed him a list. Not a literal one, but it felt like thatââIf I start talking in my sleep, donât wake me up too fast. If Iâm not in bed, check the bathtub or the closet. Donât try to hold me down if I fight in my sleep. Only wake me if it becomes dangerous. But most of the time, it passes. I promise.â And worst of all, âDonât be scared of me.â
Youâd braced yourself for rejection then, for an excuse or another that said âyouâre too much.â But Bucky had only taken your hand in his, metal fingers brushing gently against your palm like he understood in a way that no one else ever had.
One night, after youâd had a particularly brutal episodeâscreaming in your sleep, flinching from his touch even though heâd tried to soothe youâhe didnât say a word.Â
He just pulled you close once youâd woken, let you curl into his chest with your face pressed against his skin.
âIâm not afraid of you,â he whispered into your hair.
That night, you cried into him until your breathing slowed, and for the first time in a long, long while, you stayed asleep.
Over time, you found a kind of peace with him that youâd never had before. It didnât fix everythingâ Bucky would be the first to admitâ but it eased your nights. You rested better because he made you feel safe.Â
On bad days, heâd lie beside you, his arm around your waist, his thumb brushing circles into your side.
And sometimes, when sleep came like a gentle tide instead of a crashing wave, youâd open your eyes in the morning light and find him already awake, watching you protectively.Â
âYou slept,â heâd say with a proud smile, as if it were the most precious thing in the world.
For a while, things almost felt normal again. Maybe not perfect, but betterâ until you and Bucky got dragged to be part of the New Avengers. And just like that, for convenience's sake, you both moved in the Watchtower.
It wasnât awful. There was always someone around, always laughter coming from the common room. But adjusting was hard.Â
The bedroom felt too large, the ceilings too high, the Watchtower too big. It was⊠unfamiliar. Uneasy. Still, with Bucky lying beside you, it was manageable.
But some nights⊠some nights were worse than others. Youâd still find yourself drifting barefoot through the corridors, your eyes glassy, your fingers twitching restlessly. Youâd pull open drawers, rearrange cabinets, and unconsciously line pens up in perfect gradients. Once, Bucky found you curled in the closet with a granola bar clutched to your chest. You didnât remember getting there. You only remembered waking up in his arms, sobbing so hard even though you couldnât explain why you were upset.
That night, when Yelena peeked out of her room to see what all the commotion was about, Bucky smiled and said, âSheâll be okay, Lena. She just needs some peace and quiet, right, baby?â
You gave a small, hopeful smile. âY-yeah.â
Because with him there⊠it really was easier to breathe.
â
The next morning, you asked Bucky to tell the rest of the team of your condition, and he waited until you were in the shower to gather the team in the kitchen. Ava leaned against the counter with her arms crossed, John was already halfway through his second cup of coffee, Bob dropped his book, Alexei was drinking a glass of milk, and Yelena sat on the counter with a knowing look in her eyes.
Bucky didnât pace or shift or stall. He just said it.
âShe sleepwalks, sometimes. Worse when Iâm gone. Itâs not⊠always random. Itâs tied to stress. Or nightmares.â His voice was gentle. âYou might hear her moving around at night, maybe see her organizing weird stuff or⊠I donât know, in a closet. Donât freak out. Donât wake her up unless she's in danger, Donât make it a thing.â
The silence that followed wasnât awkward. It was understanding.
Yelena gave a small nod and muttered, âIâve done weirder.â John just said, âGot it, man,â and reached for another coffee pod.
Bucky let out a breath he hadnât realized heâd been holding. He didnât want pity for you. He didnât want tiptoes or whispers. He just wanted you to have a little space to exist without explaining yourself.
And when you wandered into the room an hour later, eyes still a little hazy, no one stared. No one asked questions.
They just said âHey,â like it was any other morning.
And somehow, that made all the difference.
â
Still, no one got involved... yet.
Bucky was the only one who knew how to reach you. The only person who could read your silences like sentences, who knew exactly when to speak, and when to hold you so tightly the pieces couldnât fall apart again.
So when Sam reached out to Bucky for help with an intel recovery mission in Madripoor, your heart dropped. You didnât tell him not to go, but Bucky saw the way your hands twisted in the hem of your sweater, the way your mouth stayed open like you were trying to find a reason to make him stay.
He found you in the kitchen the night before he left, staring blankly into a cup of tea you hadnât touched.
âSweetheart,â he said, stepping behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist. âLook at me.â
Your eyes slowly found his, and he knew.Â
âI hate this,â you whispered, the words brittle.
âI know,â he said, cupping your face in his hands. âIâll be gone for two days. Three, tops. I swear.â
You leaned into him, âI sleep better when youâre here.â
âI know, honey,â He pressed a kiss to your forehead, then your cheek, then the corner of your mouth. âI hate leaving you. But he needs me just for this one thing. And I promise I wouldnât go unless I knew youâd be taken care of.â
You looked up at him, âI donât want to be a burden to the team.â
âYou are never a burden,â he said firmly, his voice a low rasp. âNever. And while Iâm gone, theyâll keep you safe because they want to, not because they have to.â
Before he left, he gathered the others in the main room.
âKeep an eye on her,â Bucky said quietly. âSheâs strong â donât let her tell you otherwise â but she doesnât always ask for help.â
They all nodded, some more solemn than others.
âIf she does, donât wake her unless you have to. It can be⊠disorienting. But if sheâs not safe â if sheâs near stairs or rooftops or anything like that â then wake her up gently. No yelling. No shaking her. Itâll only make it worse.â
Yelena raised an eyebrow. âWhat if we throw a blanket on her and pretend sheâs a ghost?â
Bucky gave her a pointed look.
She raised her hand in defeat. âFine. No blankets. Understood.â
âThank you,â Bucky said, quieter now, looking over each of them. âJust⊠She means everything to me.â
They nodded again. Even John offered a pat in the back, and Ava gave a flickering smile.
That night, he kissed you once more at the door. âIâll be back before you know it.â
But time always moved slower without him. And sleep â if it came at all â would bring with it the ghosts you couldnât outrun.
â
The first night without Bucky was the worst.
You didnât sleep. Not even for a minute. You paced the compound like a spectre, wearing one of his oversized Henleys and a pair of mismatched socks. The halls were quiet but your mind was unbearably loud.
What if something happened to him? What if this was the one time he didnât come back?
You were awake in the kitchen at 2 a.m., your fingers trailing along the countertops. You made tea and forgot it on the counter. You folded a blanket you didnât remember picking up. You stood in front of the window for forty-five minutes, watching shadows move across the landing pad like you were trying to count sheep.
Yelena followed you silently, not intruding. She was nearby, perched on the kitchen island, tossing a grape between her fingers.
She didnât ask you to sit down. She didnât ask what you were thinking. She just waited.
âCanât sleep?â she finally said casually.
You shook your head. âIf I try, Iâll just end up with a bad dream.â
âThen donât try. Come,â she said, patting the spot beside her. âSit. Eat terrible snacks with me. I stole jerky from John .â
You offered a smile, and for a moment, it felt almost normal â like you were just friends pulling a late night, instead of trauma survivors outrunning your past.Â
â
The second night was harder in a different way.
Your body gave in, just barely, around 3 a.m.Â
You collapsed on the couch in the common room and curled into yourself. The others left you be â glad to see you resting at all.
But two hours later, you screamed in your sleep.
Bob got there first.
He found you thrashing in, tangled in the blanket like it was strangling you. Tears streamed down your face, and your hands clawed at the air as you whimpered words no one could quite make out.
âNoâpleaseâdonât take himâdonâtâ!â
Bob dropped to his knees beside you. He didnât try to wake you â remembered Buckyâs warning â but he said your name softly, voice like pattering rain on glass.
âItâs okay. Youâre safe,â he whispered, over and over. âYouâre not alone.â
Eventually, your screams died into sobs. Still asleep, you curled toward him, burying your face in his shoulders. Bob let you cry against him.
He didnât know if youâd remember any of it.Â
John had stood nearby the whole time, sleepy when he was woken up by the noise. When Bob looked up at him with tired eyes, he invited John to sit next to you both.Â
He did, because perhaps he thought he could help keep you both safe.
â
The third night was deceptively calm.
You seemed better. Youâd eaten half a piece of toast that morning. Youâd even made a small joke at Alexeiâs expense, and everyone had taken that as a good sign.
Still, the team took care of you closely.
That night, after the motion sensors in the living room went off because you started sleepwalking, Alexei, Ava, and John took the unofficial nightwatch dutyâ all of them too alert to sleep anyway. You shuffled into the hallway around 1 a.m., eyes half-lidded. You looked straight through Alexei, who had been sitting on the floor playing chess against himself.Â
He didnât say a word, just stood up and followed you at a distance.
You wandered into the kitchen and opened the same drawer four times in a row. Flipped the light switch on and off, on and off. Then you just⊠stood there, staring at the fridge.
John found you a little while later, drifting into the laundry room. He didnât panic.Â
âHey,â he said, blocking the doorway, âthis isnât your bedroom.â
You blinked slowly with foggy eyes, but didnât respond.
âCome on, letâs go back,â he said, not touching you, just using the calm voice heâd been practicing since Bucky left.Â
âCouch sounds better than tile, right?â
You followed him without protest, your feet shuffling over the floor. He guided you gently to the common room and helped you sit on the couch, draping a blanket over your shoulders.
Ava came to relieve him an hour later.
No one told the others to watch you. No one needed to. It had simply become understood â an agreement among people whoâd known isolation too well to let anyone else suffer it.
You were never left alone for long.
â
The fourth night, things only got worse.
Bucky's message came in just past midday â the mission was running longer than planned. What was supposed to be three days had stretched to four, maybe more. They were holed up in a safe house, radio silent except for brief check-ins. Your already-bad anxiety only spiked.
So, of course, it manifested in your sleeping habits.
You were beyond exhausted, though. Somewhere between 2 and 4 a.m., your body gave out before your mind could. And that's when the sleepwalking started again.Â
Yelena noticed first when the motion sensor on the jet landing pad pinged, lighting up the communicator on her bedside table. Her eyes snapped open in panic.Â
One glance at the screen by her bed andâ
Oh.
Oh no.
âBlyat,â she cursed, already half out of bed.
The security feed showed you barefoot and draped in one of Buckyâs shirts that hung past your thighs, drifting forward in a dreamy gait.
You were headed straight for the edge of the roof.
âAva!â Yelena barked into the intercom by her door. âSheâs upâsheâs on the roof!â
Ava didnât even answer. She was already phasing halfway through her bedroom door before the words had finished transmitting.Â
Her molecules blurred as she sprinted through walls and the glass doors leading to the edge.Â
She found you on the rooftop, barely more than a silhouette, the wind tugging at your hair and the cold bit at your bare feet.
You were standing at the edge. Right at the ledge.
The skyline sparkled as your fingers trembled to reach for something invisible in the air in front of you.
âHeâs gone,â you mumbled into the wind. âI have to find himâŠâ
Ava didnât shout your name. She didnât touch you too fast. She knew better.
She forced herself to become solid again and circled herself around your torso from behind.
âItâs okay,â she whispered. âYouâre safe. Iâve got you.â
You didnât react â not really. Your muscles twitched, but you didnât pull away.
John was next, thundering up the stairs with bare feet and wide eyes, stopping short the moment he saw you on the ledge.Â
His instincts wanted him to act, to tackle you into safety, but he didnât. Not when he saw how still you were. Not when he saw how gently Ava held you. He lifted both hands, palms out, staying back, like he might catch you if anything went wrong.
âEasyâŠâ he muttered under his breath, more to himself than anyone else.Â
Alexei arrived just after. One look at the scene stopped him in his tracks. âBozhe moiâŠâ he whispered. He took a cautious step forward and dropped to his knees, trying to be less threatening.
âDruga,â he said gently, kneeling just to your side. âYouâre dreaming, okay? Just a dream. Weâre here. No need to find anyone â youâre already home.â
Bob drifted up moments later. He didnât say a word. He just hovered nearby.
And then Yelena burst through the door, breath hitching as her eyes scanned the perimeter.
âIs sheâ?â
âSheâs okay,â Bob answered quietly, âWeâve got her.â
Yelena let out a shaky breath and moved closer.
You whimpered softly, your whole body trembling in Avaâs arms. Your hands curled into fists, then relaxed again. Tears slid down your cheeks even as your eyes stayed closed. Even asleep, you were breaking.
You were inching closer to the ledge, your toes just brushing the edge of now.
âI have to find him,â you mumbled again, voice cracking. âHeâs not safe. I have to find him.â
Alexei looked at Ava. At Yelena.
âSheâs not coming out of it,â Yelena whispered. âSheâs too far under.â
âDo it,â John said, tense. âNow. Before sheââ
Alexei nodded once, then reached forward, placing one palm on your shoulders. It was him who finally made the call. âTime to wake up now. Youâre safe. Youâre dreaming.â
Your body stiffened immediately. The moment your nervous system registered something was wrong, your fight-or-flight instincts kicked in.
And they kicked hard.
Coming back into consciousness in panic, you boltedâ or tried to.
Ava held you still, even as your eyes snapped open, and you screamed.
âNo! No, no, no! Let go of me! Let goââ
âItâs okay, itâs okayââ Ava said, tightening her grip, keeping you away from the ledge.
You thrashed. Alexei backed off, hands up, trying not to crowd you.
Yelena stepped forward and crouched, her voice firmer than the others. âLook at me. Youâre here. Youâre home. We have you.â
But your body didnât believe her. Your eyes were darting wildly, trying to make sense of noise and faces, adrenaline pumping so hard it made your vision blur.
John, who managed to grab a blanket, wrapped it over your shoulders while muttering, âItâs okay, youâre okay,â on repeat like a prayer, even though your eyes werenât processing him yet.
Bob moved in slowly, hoping just being there would help.
Eventuallyâeventuallyâyour eyes found something familiar.
The logo on the roof.Â
The view on the edge.Â
The ledge.
Your legs buckled the moment your body remembered gravity.
Ava and Alexei caught you instantly â Avaâs arms looping under your shoulders, Alexei scooping beneath your knees, reminding yourself he was a man who once threw tanks for fun.
âIâI didnât mean toââ your voice broke, and you curled in on yourself, clutching the sides of Buckyâs shirt like it could protect you from your own confusion. âI donât remember what I was dreaming. I didnât mean to come up here. I didnât meanââ
âWe know,â Yelena said firmly. âItâs okay.â
âNo oneâs mad,â John reassured, âYou didnât do anything wrong.â
You swallowed, and with a shaky breath, nodded once.
You werenât fully okay â not even close â but you were with them.
âLetâs get you out of the cold, druga,â Alexei said.Â
You didnât fight the suggestion.
The rooftop door swung behind you as Bob pushed it open.Â
All of you managed to walk back in.Â
No one said the obvious â how close youâd come to falling.
No one had to.
You reached the common room without question, because none of them wanted to put you back in your room alone. You wouldnât sleep, and none of them would, either.
They laid you gently down on the oversized couch in the center of the room. You blinked up at the ceiling, eyes still dazed, until Bob appeared beside you with a warm cup of tea. He placed it in your hands.
You didnât drink it. You just held it, palms wrapped tight around the mug, as if the warmth alone was enough to anchor you.
âIâm sorry,â you said, finally
âYou donât have to be,â Ava replied immediately, sitting beside you on the couches.
John sat on the floor in front of you, back against the coffee table, hands dangling over his knees. âWeâve all had bad nights. This just happened to be one of yours.â
Alexei brought in two more pillows and tossed one over your legs. He tucked the second by Yelena, who tried to wave him off before giving up with a sigh and letting him fuss.
Bob curled into an armchair nearby. âWeâll keep watch,â he said. âWe always do.â
And then, something remarkable happened.
The exhaustion hit all of you at once.
One by one, you all stopped pretending you werenât tired.
Yelena curled up beside you, legs tangled with yours, chin resting on the pillow between you.
John slid down to lie on the carpet, arms crossed over his chest like a soldier who could still sleep with one eye open.
Ava stretched out beside the couch, back against it as she put a hand over yours.
Alexei lowered himself onto the other couch with a dramatic groan, mumbling something about âtoo old for thisâ as he tucked a pillow behind his head.
Bobâs head tilted back and his breathing evened out.
And just like that, the common room became a patchwork nest of sleep. And it was some of the best sleep every one of you have had in a while.Â
â
An hour, maybe two, slipped by. Then, the elevator dinged.
You stirred, still in a haze, but some part of you registered the familiar sound of heavy boots followed by a duffel bag hitting the floor with a gentle thump, carefully placed rather than dropped.
âHey, sweetheart,â came Buckyâs voice.
Your eyes blinked open, just enough to catch a glimpse of him standing in the spill of hallway light. His hair was damp, rain clinging to the ends. His jacket bore flecks of concrete dust and char near the seams.Â
He looked like a man who hadnât stopped running home since he left.
âBuckyâŠâ you whispered, the name tangled in a yawn. âBaby⊠you came backâŠâ
Your words were fragile, barely more than breath, and already fading into the fog of dreams again.
Bucky stepped over John â who was still passed out on the floor, snoring like a freight train â and made his way to you without a sound. He crouched down by the couch and wrapped his hands around yours â the one not held by Avaâ and brought it to his lips to kiss your knuckles.Â
âIâm here,â he whispered, his voice cracking at the seam. âIâm so sorry I left.â
You made a nonsensical sound in response â half a word, maybe a memory. Something about rooftops, tea, jerky, his shirt. Nothing coherent, just the drift of half-dreams spilling from your lips. He knew you wouldnât remember any of this come morning.
But still, Bucky leaned in and kissed your forehead, letting his lips linger there. For the first time in days, he let himself breathe.
Then he looked up â and finally took the full picture in.Â
They were all there. The whole team, scattered in sleep around the living room like an improvised fortress. His girl â you â nestled safely in the center of it, wrapped in the arms of friends who had clearly refused to leave your side.
They looked worn down, but peaceful and content. Like being here, with each other, was exactly where they wanted to be.
So he moved quietly around the tower, opting for a quick shower and change of clothes. Then he walked to the hallway closet and gathered every spare blanket he could find.
One by one, he tucked them in.
He threw a thick crocheted navy blue throw over John, who mumbled something but didnât wake. A quilt draped gently across Yelena and Ava. One across Alexeiâs legs, already half off the couch,
Bob didnât even stir â just sighed, as Bucky knelt, and carefully tugged a fluffy yellow blanket under his chin. It was like Bob somehow knew Bucky was there.
On the coffee table, Bucky found a scrap of paper and scrawled a quick note, placing it where they would see it in the morning.
Thank you for taking care of my girl. â J.B.B
Then he returned to you.
He stood there for a moment, watching you sleep â curled up in the middle of everyone who had held the line while he was gone.Â
He was so in love with you â god help him â because all he could think about after the long mission was taking you back, holding you close, and not sharing you with anyone tonight.
So he picked you up in his arms effortlessly, like you belonged there, like heâd done it a thousand times and could do it a thousand more.
You stirred just a little, your cheek pressing into his chest.
âYouâre homeâŠâ you murmured again, barely awake.
âI am,â he whispered, brushing a kiss to your temple. âAnd Iâm not going anywhere.â
He carried you back to your shared room, the weight of the world finally lifting from his shoulders.
There, he laid you down and pulled the covers up over you both, sliding in with one arm around your waist, the other across your chest like a shield.
You were finally asleep in his arms, and he wasnât about to give the world a single piece of you until morning.
-end.
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This made me cry đ€
Minutes before your wedding is supposed to start, Spencer gets cold feet, and you have to find out why.
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: fluff (a smidge angsty) content warnings: alzheimers, weddings, children, babies, sad!spencer, reader wears a dress and makeup, cursing word count: 1.8k a/n: so this became sadder than I had initially intended. also i decided to try something new and write in a different POV and i don't know if i like it. this is my entry for @imagining-in-the-margins' new beginnings challenge, because nothing says new beginning quite like getting married! thank you for having this challenge!
If it were up to you and Spencer, your wedding wouldâve taken place at a courthouse with no fuss, just rings and a certificate. Especially after he shot down your idea of a 24-hour wedding chapel in Las Vegas.
In your defense, you pitched it to him as an intimate wedding in his hometown, but he didnât take the bait.
But when the team found out that the two of you were planning what they deemed unsuitable, they all volunteered to help throw together a ceremony and reception. Everyone was under the duress of Penelope at the time, but they all volunteered.
She could be very formidable when she wanted to.
Your now maid of honorâs eyes were shimmering as she carefully adjusted some of the last few strands of hair upon your head, you had managed to talk her out of a tiara, but to Penelope Garcia, a veil was non-negotiable. âYou look gorgeous,â she says, âthe perfect bride.â
Laughing uncomfortably, you turn to look at yourself in the full-length mirror and take a deep breath, âThank you, Pen.â
âI know I may have slightly nudged you in the direction of a bigger wedding-â
âMore like punted,â you interrupt, an affectionate smile on your face.
Rolling her eyes, she leaned over to grab her buzzing phone on the velvet chair in your ready room. âWhatever, I just think that after everything you and Spencer have made it out of, you deserve a celebration that reflected that,â she speaks passionately, as she always does when discussing people in love.
Turning around to look back at the mirror, the tulle of your veil cascading over your shoulders as you grew giddy. Your dress was a whimsical, white chiffon that fell to the floor and moved with you as you walked. Small straps of fabric were delicately draped over your arms for an off-the-shoulder effect, you had never felt more glamorous. Although, if there was a day for glamor, your wedding day would certainly qualify.
You snap your head around to see Penelope furiously typing on her phone, âUh oh,â she whispers, looking at the screen.
Humming, you step off of the pedestal and over to her, careful not to trip on your dress, âWhatâs wrong?â You murmur, trying to see what was distressing her. Dread built in your stomach; the team couldnât be getting called away? Two of its members were about to get married. This is why you shouldâve just gone to the courthouse; you never shouldâve let Garcia talk you into this.
Jolting you out of your panic induced stupor, she answers, âSomethingâs up with Reid.â
Your heart clenches, âReid? My Reid?â You whisper, âIs he okay?â
The two of you jump when someone bangs on the door, and she moves to open it, just a crack at first â to see who it is â and then all the way open to reveal Luke on the other side. Naturally, the members of the BAU made up your wedding party, and Luke as the best man was the easy choice.
He was mostly dressed, save for the bowtie that remained undone around his neck, âI need to steal Y/N.â His shoulders were rising and falling quickly like he had run across the building.
âSheâs getting ready for the wedding. Her wedding,â Penelope answers, gesturing back to you. âBesides, itâs bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the wedding.â
Really, you were mostly ready, you just needed to put your shoes on and line up. âThere wonât be a wedding if we canât get the groom out there,â Luke replies.
You warily approach the doorway, peeking around the door, âWhatâs wrong?â
âHe just needs you,â Luke explains, gesturing toward you with his hands.
Nodding determinedly, you step out the door and run over to the other side of the building to where the groomâs ready room is, pulling the fabric of your dress up so that you donât trip. Along the way, you pass a few guests, but you donât stop.
It wasnât news to most of them that you were a grounding force for Spencer, the two of you had been put through, as Luke put it, the wringer together and still managed to come out the other side. You skid to a halt in front of the door and knock quickly, âSpence, itâs me.â
âItâs bad luck to see the bride before the ceremony,â he murmurs through the door, echoing the earlier sentiments of Penelope. You know he doesnât believe in it, which only adds to your concern.
You couldnât help but roll your eyes, fidgeting with the doorknob just to discover itâs locked. âIf you donât unlock the door, Iâm going to go find Derek and have him kick it down for me,â you threaten, wondering if the reminder of all of the people here would coax him out.
There was no response from the other side of the door.
Sighing, you turn to look at Luke, âCan you give us a minute?â He nods, letting you know heâll talk to Garcia before walking down the long hallway.
Once heâs gone, you hear the tell-tale click of the door unlocking, âGarcia will kill you if you walk in here.â
âPenny isnât here, baby. Itâs just you and me, okay?â You speak lowly, âWhatâs wrong, my love?â Dropping your hand on the doorknob, you startle slightly when it turns and the door swings open.
You yelp when Spencer pulls you in, closing the door behind you before he wraps his arms tightly around your waist. Immediately, you feel his body relax against yours, âIsnât this supposed to be bad luck?â He murmurs.
Humming, you return his hug gratefully, âWeâve had enough bad luck, donât you think? Itâll be okay.â His arms loosen around you, and you pull away slightly so you can look up at him, placing your hands tenderly on his chest, thumbing the satin fabric of his lapels. âAnd besides, Iâm not fully dressed yet. Iâm fairly certain that means it doesnât count.â
âYou look beautiful,â he whispers, holding you out at armâs length. âYouâre perfect, and IâmâŠâ His voice trails off as he takes a step back from you, sighing as he takes a seat in one of the white chairs in the ready room.
Tilting your head to the side, you felt the fabric of your veil flow to the side, âYouâre what, Spence?â You ask, slowly approaching the chair he was sitting in.
He furrows his brows in apprehension, âI think I might be scared of you,â he answers candidly.
You couldnât help the giggle that spurted from your lips, âAm I really that scary?â You inquire softly, seeking more answers from him. You saw him better now, the darkness of his tux offset by the purple bowtie and handkerchief, joined with the light florals of his boutonniĂšre. Spencerâs hair was a mess, a tell-tale sign that he had been running his hands through it.
Clearing his throat, Spencer looks up at you with a look in his eye that you canât quite place, âI passed by your room earlier, and I heard you laughing.â He took a deep, tentative breath, âI thought you sounded so happy, and now Iâm not sure I can keep you happy.â
Sighing, you duck your head slightly, âSpencer,â you say seriously, âare we still getting married today?â
âWhat?â He says in disbelief. âOf course we are, thatâs not- Iâm sorry,â he murmurs, shaking his head. âWeâre still getting married; Iâve quite literally never wanted anything more in my entire life. Iâm just worried,â he speaks quietly.
Gingerly, you step closer to the chair before he reaches out for you, placing a hand on your waist and gently guiding you down until you are sitting on his lap. âYou make me so happy, Spencer Reid. I know that somewhere in that gorgeous brain of yours you know that, but I also know that you are your own worst critic.â
Youâre sitting sideways on his lap with your legs latticed on top of each other. Gingerly, he places a hand on your thigh and another on the small of your back, âYou deserve everything you want in the world.â
âAnd I want you. Doesnât that count for something?â You ask him, emotion beginning to rise in your throat â you cannot cry, then the wedding would really be delayed. âSpencer, Iâm so ecstatic that at the end of today, I get to be your wife. Thatâs such a privilege to me. You and I, we get to be so fucking happy today. We deserve that.â You tell him gently, âWe get to be married and go on our honeymoon and come home and we can tell all of your stories to your mom, and weâll have a baby or two and weâll be so fucking happy.â You swallow your emotion, looking up at the light in the hope that it will clear your tears. âFor the rest of our lives, weâll be so happy.â
Then it came, âI donât want to forget you.â His voice is almost imperceptible, but you hear him still.
The ache in his voice feels like a stab to your heart, you were well aware that his mother had Alzheimerâs. She wasnât having a good day today, but the two of you had gone to visit her in the morning. Ever since she was diagnosed, itâs been like Spencer has a storm cloud hovering over him â he canât be tested for the gene markers, not for a few more years. Taking a deep breath, you reach over and smooth his hair back, âIf you get Alzheimerâs, I will sit down with you every day and remind you. Iâm going to walk down that aisle today and tell you that Iâm going to love you in sickness and in health and Iâm going to mean it.â
âIâm scared,â he murmurs, leaning into your touch.
Using your free hand, you reach up and tenderly wipe a tear from his cheek, âWe can take it.â
He nods in agreement with you, âTogether, as a team,â he concurs, a slight amount of confidence returning to his voice.
Resting your head on his shoulder, the two of you take your moment. The last moment before you officially unite as one, and you let that moment take as long as you need. âI should go,â you whisper, looking over at the clock, the ceremony was supposed to have started by now.
Spencer leans down and kisses you, âIâll see you out there?â He asks expectantly.
Nodding assuredly, you reach up and wipe a smudge of lipstick from his mouth, âIâll be there.â
During the ceremony, you impressively were able to keep yourself together, until you promised him you would love him in sickness and in health.
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Derek Morgan x reader warnings: language, some body insecurities, smut, squirting A couple of different req's combined into one. I'll admit it sat in the wip pile for a little too long, but let's hope that doesn't happen anymore!
Derek was fresh out of the shower, towel wrapped around his waist when he entered the bedroom, finding you in front of the mirror with a frown on your face. You were fiddling with your shirt, tucking it in then untucking it, pulling it tight, pinching at it to fall loose, pulling it over to only one side all while you turned in various degrees to see all the angles of your body. You let out a huff, hands dropping to your sides as your head tilted and you pulled up your shirt, pinching at your sides and stomach, pulling at your skin.
âWhatâs going on in that pretty little head baby?â He asked, crossing the room and you let out a huff, finally pulling your gaze away from the mirror.
âAre these jeans too small?â You asked, frown still on your lips as you turned back to the mirror, continuing to pinch at your skin.
âDo I have to fight somebody?â Derek asked, only half kidding as his arm wrapped around your waist from behind and he pressed a kiss to the crook of your neck.
âDid you see that pic Elise posted on insta from lunch?â
âMmhmm.â He nodded, kissing at your neck again.
âMy mother so kindly, and very publicly commented on it that it was looking like I should be laying off the fries and cocktails.â
âBullshit.â He huffed in annoyance.
âJust made me think maybe sheâs right.â You face dropped as your eyes returned to the mirror and you continued picking at your skin and adjusting your shirt. âWe went shopping after and nothing I tried on fit properly in my regular size, maybe I need to do a cleanseâŠ.â You trailed off as your head tilted, gazing at your body in the mirror.
âBaby, I wish you could see the way I see you.â
âWhatâd you mean?â You asked, your head twisting to see his face and he pressed a kiss to your cheek before turning your face back toward the mirror.
âWell for starters, these jeans are your tightest pair.â His thumbs slipped into the waistband, tugging gently at it to prove the point as they barely moved from your body, âand I know that because theyâre the ones that show off this gorgeous fuckinâ ass.â His hands moved around and squeezed at your ass, spanking you gently and he was happy to hear the little squeal you let out was followed with a laugh. His hands ghosted around your waist, taking your hands in his so you would stop scrutinizing yourself, âtheyâre so tight it doesnât matter how tiny someone is once youâre sitting down theyâre gonna push in on your stomach.â His hand brushed over your tummy, âand youâd just finished a big, fueling, nutritious lunch with carbonated drinks, a little bloat is natural.â He kissed the side of your neck again, âyou are perfectly fucking stunning just the way you are. I think youâre the sexiest,â another kiss, âmost beautiful,â another kiss, âstunning woman I have ever seen.â This time he nipped at your sensitive skin and your head fall back against his shoulder as you let out a little sigh.
âDerekâŠâ
âBaby, you and this gorgeous body drive me absolutely wild.â He rolled his hips against your ass and you could already feel his cock starting to get hard, âand I will absolutely show you how much I love it and you.â
âPleaseâŠâ You murmured and he chuckled, spinning you in his arms so he could kiss you properly. He caught your chin in his hand, directing your lips to his and you couldnât help but moan into the kiss.
Every time Derek kissed you he put every ounce of pleasure and love into it, lips molding to yours, moving with grace in the dance youâd perfected over the years. Your arms wrapped around him, fingernails tickling at the back of his neck and the arm he had around your waist tightened, pulling you closer to him. His tongue slid across the seam of your lips and you gladly parted them, letting him slide into your mouth. He began to back you towards the bed, his hands slipping under the hem of your shirt, breaking the kiss to tug it over your head. Returning to the kiss he started work on the offending jeans, shoving them down your legs along with your underwear and you did your best to kick them the rest of the way off while he got rid of your bra.
âLie back princess.â He nudged you toward the bed and you were quick to drop down onto it, shuffling backwards until you were nestled against the pillows. âGod just look at youâŠâ He purred, hands ghosting up your legs as he climbed onto the bed.
You let out a little giggle, your cheeks heating as your arms crossed over your body, turning your face away from him and into the pillows. âDerekâŠâ
âOh câmon baby girl, none of that.â His hand softly gripped your chin, turning your gaze back to his, âthereâs no reason for you to play shy.â
Derek ducked down, kissing you gently while his hands moved your arms, guiding them to loop around his shoulders while he deepened the kiss, tongue slipping into your mouth. You couldnât help but relax into the bed, your whole body melting at the feeling of his embrace as his tongue rolled against yours. One of his hands crept up your side, fingers tickling your skin, drawing patterns across your body as he went, teasingly slow. He traced the shapes and curves of your body, somehow leaving a pathway of both heat and goosebumps as he went, creeping closer to your more intimate areas. His fingers brushed just under the curve of your breast and his lips curved up into a smirk at the feeling of your back arching off the bed to lean into the touch. His hand came to rest, just there, just close enough for you to know it was coming but not bothering to move it any further quite yet.
You couldnât help it, letting out a small whine into the kiss as you felt the need beginning to build up within you, tingles shooting through your body from where Derek was touching you all the way down into your pussy, gently fluttering around nothing. His lips pressed into the corner of yours, trailing a hot and sticky path across your jawline before he nipped your earlobe, his breath hot on your skin.
âJust relax for me baby, Iâll make you feel good, promise.â He pressed a gentle kiss right behind your ear and your eyes fluttered shut as his lips made their way down the column of your neck.
Derekâs nose nudged at your chin, turning your face away from him so he had better access to your sensitive skin, teeth gently scraping your neck before he sucked at the same spot, tongue laving across it. He let out a soft groan against your neck, his body nearly grinding down onto yours as he bit into your pulse point and you moaned, a hand wrapping around the back of his neck. While his mouth made a home in the crook of your neck, determined to leave you with a few marks his hand finally slid upwards, groping at your chest.
âOh godâŠâ You moaned, your body arching into the touch and you could feel Derek chuckle against your skin.
âYou like that baby?â He asked, fingers pinching at your nipple, earning a small gasp from you as the tingles shot through your body once more.
While his mouth latched onto your neck he rolled your nipple between his thumb and forefinger, pressing harder around it at random intervals until you were whining underneath him. He shifted slightly so he could mimic the movements on the other side, barely pulling himself away from your neck so he could see the way your nipples had hardened from his teasing.
âMy princess does like that.â He teased with a grin and you were about to retort with something smart but his mouth was on your skin again, tongue licking its way across your collarbone and your head fell back into the pillows with a soft sigh leaving your lips.
Every touch from Derek was electrifying your senses, you felt him on your body, tongue, lips, teeth, hands, the weight of his frame on top of you as he left a path of kisses on the center of your chest. Fire prickled under your skin with each touch, tingling through you, lighting up your senses and sending pleasure shooting through you, building deep in your stomach with each pass of his mouth. One hand wrapped around one of your tits, groping it, thumb brushing over your sensitive nipple while his mouth found your other one. He bit at the top curve of your chest, tongue lapping out to sooth the burn before his lips wrapped around your nipple, sucking it into his mouth.
âFuckâŠâ You let out a gasp, feeling the tingles picking up and you couldnât help but rub your legs together in search for some relief, your pussy beginning to ache between them.
Derekâs tongue flicked at your nipple while his finger did the same on the other one, teasing and toying with you, teeth scraping against your tender flesh while you began to writhe on the bed underneath him. He pulled your nipple away from your body, letting it go with a lewd pop, watching the way your mouth fell open and you let out a breathy sigh at the feeling. It only took a moment for him to swap sides, repeating the motions, his cock twitching between his legs at the sounds coming from your lips.
âThatâs it babyâŠâ he husked against your skin, ârelax⊠I donât want you thinkinâ about anything aside from how good this feels.â
âMmmâŠâ you whined in response, your breath catching in your throat as his teeth sunk into your skin again.
His hands ghosted over your stomach, fingers trailing across your skin with a featherlight touch while his mouth stayed on your chest. He shifted between your legs, hands rubbing at your inner thighs as he spread them wider for himself, now able to fully settle between them, the towel around his waist falling to the side. His hands wrapped around your thighs, massaging gently, thumbs pressing into your skin just enough to help you relax into the bed, spreading your legs wider for him while his mouth continued to toy with your chest. Derek slid one of his hands between your legs, cupping at your heat, lips curving upwards at the quiet gasp that escaped your lips. His palm massaged your pussy slowly, gently, just enough to have your hips softly rocking into the touch while breathy moans came from your mouth. His lips stayed wrapped around your nipple, sucking it into his mouth deeper as he continued to toy with you.
âFuck Derek..â you sighed, feeling your wetness smearing across his hand each time he rubbed at you.
âRelax pretty girl.â He murmured.
Two of his fingers slid through your lower lips a few times, the tips of them barely dipping into your heat, collecting your juices before coming up to rub your clit and your breath caught in your throat. Your hips jumped up off the bed and he chuckled against your skin pressing harder on the nub before his hand returned to your entrance. One finger slid in easily, twirling inside you while the heel of his hand brushed against your clit,
âAlready so wet, baby.â He grinned, nipping at your chest and you let out a small whine.
âMore, please.â
âAnything my girl wants.â
A second finger slid in to join the first and you let out a soft moan at the feeling, gently stretching your soaked walls out. Derek hummed against your chest, his fingers pumping faster in and out of your cunt, beginning to scissor randomly. He reluctantly pulled his mouth away from your chest, sitting up between your legs and each time his fingers came out of your pussy they were slick with even more of your juices. Your sporadic moans were replaced with breathy whimpers, your hands clawing at the bedsheets as your body arched off the bed, pleasure shooting through you, you could feel it building deeper and tighter in your stomach, fire crackling under your skin.
Derek sunk his fingers as deep as he could into your pussy, letting out a soft groan as he did, feeling the way you were already pulsing around him.
âThatâs it baby, wanna feel you squeezinâ me tight.â
He placed his free hand down right above your clit, thumb angled so he could play with the swollen nub as he continued to finger you. Feeling you flutter around his fingers again he thrusted back into you before curling his fingers, quickly finding the sensitive spot inside you and the hand on your lower stomach pressed down gently, thumb flicking at your clit.
âFuck!â You moaned, your back arching off the bed, pleasure about to burst within you and all you could hear were the squelching noises coming from your cunt as Derekâs fingers picked up speed again.
âRelax pretty girl.â He purred, âjust let go⊠trust me.â
Derekâs thumb increased pressure and pace, rubbing at your clit with more intent, watching with pride at the way your hips continued to buck up off the bed, griding against his hands harder with each thrust of his fingers. Your juices had drenched his hand, slicking down his wrist and dripping down your cunt making a complete mess of things and you didnât have a care in the world, his touch electrifying your senses as you felt it twisting tighter and tighter inside you, the spark about to burst into a full flame.
âOh fuuu-ck⊠fuck!â
Your thighs began to shake, threatening to close if Derek hadnât been sat between them and he pressed down harder on your stomach, thumb rubbing faster at your clit while the fingers inside dragged across your g-spot. Your hips shot off the bed as you let out a cry, the damn bursting, the prickling under your skin exploding into pleasure you felt through your entire body. Your pussy clamped down around Derekâs fingers, juices spurting out, a second smaller wave coming when he pressed against your g-spot again and you swore.
âFuck..â your body shook against the bed, âoh my godâŠ. Oh my godâŠâ
âFuck that was hot as hell.â Derek murmured, finally pulling his drenched fingers from you, watching your cunt squeeze around nothing as you began to catch your breath. âFeel better princess?â He asked, barely giving you time to nod before he ducked his mouth down to your pussy, tongue lapping out to clean up your juices. He sucked and kissed at your thighs, avoiding the still sensitive spots until youâd finally stopped trembling and his tongue surged through your folds, letting out a groan at your taste, barely flicking against your clit before he crawled back up the bed.
âChristâŠâ You muttered and he laughed softly, âIâve never done that before.â
âFirst time for everything.â He replied, leaning over you to kiss you and you let out a soft moan at the feeling of his cock twitching against your thigh.
âNeed youâŠâ you murmured, feeling his lips curve up into a grin as he wrapped a sturdy arm around your waist and rolled onto his back.
âHow about you ride me? I wanna see this gorgeous body.â
A small smile on your face you pushed up to sitting, straddling his hips as you rubbed your pussy over his cock a few times, grinding down onto him, smearing your wetness and his head fell back into the pillows as he let out a low hiss. Your hand reached between your bodies, wrapping around his cock and lining it up with your entrance while Derekâs hands found your waist to help brace you as you sunk down onto him. A mutual moan and quiet swear echoed through the room as he filled you, now fully stretching you out.
âFuck, pussy feels so fucking good.â He moaned, his ever so slightly rocking up into yours and you let out a small squeak, pussy fluttering around him.
Bracing your hands on his stomach you pushed up until just the head was left inside your pussy and then sunk down all the way, setting a steady pace as you began to ride him. Still sensitive, your pussy was already pulsing, squeezing his cock in the perfect way, you could feel him throbbing inside you, the head rubbing against your g-spot with each rock of your hips. You began to let out small whines, your eyes fluttering nearly shut as the pleasure began to build up again. Derekâs hands squeezed around your waist,
âGod look at youâŠâ he groaned, âso pretty riding my dick. Always take me so well baby, youâre doing so good for me.â His eyes raked over your body, watching the way your tits were bouncing, how your lower lip was pulled in between your teeth and you brow was furrowed. He felt himself twitch inside you, resulting in your pussy clamping down around his cock and he let out a loud groan. âPlay with those gorgeous titsâŠâ
He squeezed at your hips again, making sure he had a hold on you to guide you riding him and your hands started to slide up your body. You cupped your chest, groping at the tender flesh as you let out a soft moan before pinching at your nipples and a small gasp left your lips.
âFuckâŠâ
âThatâs it baby.â He grunted, âso fucking hot.â He drove his cock deeper into you and you let out a louder whine. âGonna need you to come for me again princess, squirt all over my cock.â
He knew he was too close to last much longer and judging by the way you were clenching down around him and the wetness where your bodies were joined, you werenât far off either. You let out a needy whine, your head nodding as you continued to toy with your tits. One of Derekâs hands left your waist, fingers quickly rubbing your clit again and you felt the similar sensation beginning to build.
âOh god donât stop!â You moaned, thighs beginning to quake, âfuck, Derek, s-so good!â
âYeah?â He groaned, pressing harder against the pulsing nub, âyou like that?â
âMm-mm hmm.â You whined, âgonna make me come.â
âThen come for me baby.â
With a final press of his fingers, he rolled his hips just right and you cried out, your back arching before your entire body rocked forward, hands catching yourself on Derekâs chest as your orgasm rocked through you. Derek let out a low swear, feeling your juices drenching his cock, dribbling out around it as you did your best to continue to ride him.
âSo good for me.â He husked, your body trembling in his arms, as you panted. He braced his feet on the bed, driving his cock faster and deeper into you as he chased his own release, panting into the crook of your neck before letting out a low swear and a grunt, his hips stilling against your own.
âFuckâŠâ you muttered, feeling his release coat your walls as you finally relaxed against him, nuzzling into his neck.
Derekâs arms squeezed gently at you, pressing a kiss to the side of your head as you caught your breath. Once heâd stopped twitching and could control his breathing again his hands began soothingly rubbing up and down your back, finger tips tracing patterns across your skin, peppering your cheek and shoulder with kisses. You let out a satisfied hum at the feeling, turning your head to face his so you could kiss him properly.
You shifted slightly, a breath escaping your lips as his cock slipped from you and you dropped to the bed beside him. He did his best to kick up one of the blankets, wrapping it around your waists while you nestled into his side, welcoming the embrace of his arm around you. Derek softly played with your hair while you traced the outlines of his shoulder tattoo. You let out a very happy sigh, pressing a kiss to his chest and his finger curled under your chin, tilting it up to him and he pressed a tender kiss to your lips.
âFeeling better now baby?â
âIncredibly.â
âDonât feel the need to bad talk my favourite girl anymore?â He asked and you giggled, playfully rolling your eyes as you swatted at his chest.
âNo.â
âGood.â Smiling, he kissed you again, âbecause you are without a doubt, the love of my life. And your body is beautiful, gorgeous, stunning, sexy and I love it just as much as I love you. Woman, I would happily suffocate between your thighs.â
âDerek!â This time you laughed loudly, punching his arm.
âWhat? I would.â
âWay to ruin a sentimental moment.â You half scolded; half teased, rolling out of the sheets to sit on the edge of the bed.
âI had to get you moving somehow.â He joked, âif we donât get in the shower now weâre gonna be late for dinner.â
âJerk.â You grinned, moving toward the bathroom as he scooped up the towel discarded from earlier.
âHey, youâre the reason I have to shower twice.â
âUh.. pretty sure you instigated, and you would have no matter what.â
âYeah? How am I supposed to resist that ass.â He whipped the towel in the direction of your ass and you squealed, darting for the bathroom with Derek quick on your heels, âlove that ass.â
âPerv.â You retorted, turning back to him and he grabbed you around the waist, pulling you to him.
âBut I love you more.â He tapped the tip of your nose before his hand cupped your cheek and he kissed you deeply.
âI love you too.â
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Lodestar | s.reid
You call Spencer to tell him you've gone into labor just as he closes in on an unsub. He's determined to make it back to you in time.
Pairing: fem!reader x spencer reid Contains: fluff!, established relationship, husband!spencer, canon typical violence, reader is afraid of needles, epidural, pregnancy and labor and birth (not really described in detail lmao but does happen), girldad!spencer (supremacy), astrophysicist!reader, s12!Spencer but pre-prison, first part is from spencer's perspective and the second is from reader's Length: ~2.1k Note: this started as a joke and then became the silly "prequel" (idk it's just the same reader and daughter) to Star-Stuff, but it can completely stand alone!
Theyâre only three miles away from the dairy farm when Spencerâs phone rings.
Spencer nearly doesnât answer. JJ holds her phone out over the carâs center console so he can listen to Emilyâs update from the backseat, and at the rate Lukeâs driving, theyâll be on the grounds within minutes.Â
And, if the profile is correct, theyâre already running out of time. The rest of the team is too far behind. Spencer canât afford to lose focus.
But you're the only person who would be calling him right now, and instinct forces him to answer.
âHi,â he whispers.
In the rearview mirror, Luke furrows his brows at him.
âHey!â you answer, and the forced pep in your tone gives Spencer pause. âHowâs the case?âÂ
âUh, itâsâI canât really talk rightâhold on, are you okay?âÂ
âYes, yes, sorry. Everything is fine. I justââ you cut yourself off.
Spencerâs heart races. âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothing,â you breathe.
But he knows youâre lying. Your voice is strained, shaky.Â
He says your nameâstripped from its usual softness, now a demand.
JJ twists in the passenger seat and mouths something to him, but Spencer turns to the window as if it might give him privacy. Through the glass, he watches the overgrown grazing fields rush by.
Two miles away.
âOkay, okay,â you say. âSo, Iâm fine.â A pause. âBut⊠my water just broke, and I think Iâm in labor.â
Now, his heart fucking stops.
âWhat? Are you positive?â he asks.
âWell, Iâm pretty certain that I didnât just piss myself on our living room floor.â
âYou might have!â he says desperately. âIncontinence is extremely common in the third trimester! The fetus presses on your bladder and weakens your pelvic floor, and remember when youââ
âSpencer!â
âSorry! Iâmââ driving up to a dairy farm that was recently run out of business by an industrial dairy processing plant that undercut their prices, and the former owner is now systematically killing all of the employees that left his farm to work at the plant, including his own daughter, who he is holding captive somewhere on the farm and may have already killed. You knowâsmaller family farms make up the vast majority of farms in the US, but are responsible for less than 20% of production. Industrial agriculture operations, despite being fewer in number, control the market entirely. Anyway, this is the best day of my life, and I love you so much.
He still has the good sense to not say all that.
âAre you having contractions?â he asks instead.
In the front, JJâs eyes widen, and Luke mutters, âShit.âÂ
The carâs headlights illuminate a dirt road lined by wooden fences. A weather worn sign that says âWalker Family Farmâ swings in the wind.
One mile.
âYes, but theyâre not that strong.â
âWhen did they start?â
âLike. A few hours ago, butââ
âA few hours ago?!âÂ
âBut itâs still just early labor! Theyâre not evenââ You cut yourself off again. ââOooh my goooood,â you groan tightly.
âGo to the hospital!â
âItâsâitâs fine! First time births usually have pretty long labors, soââ
They pass the farmâs visitorâs center.
He says your name again, urgently, desperately. âPlease.â
âI know. I justââ Your voice wavers. âIâm⊠scared. I donât want to do this without you. I donât think I can.â
Spencer swallows. âIâll be there.â
âButââ
âI have to go. I love you. Iâll see you soon.â
He hangs up, because Luke has reached the end of the road, and there isnât time to say everything that he wants to say.
The car crunches to a stop on the gravel drive, headlights cutting through the dark. Beyond them, the dairy farm sprawls in eerie silenceâbarn doors yawning open, cattle stalls ghostly under fluorescents that still flicker despite the farmâs abandonment. Behind the silo, the creamery hums with electricity.
JJ looks back at him. âSpence, are youââ
âI looked at the blueprints back at the station. The creamery has two ground level entrances on the north and south walls and a cellar door in the middle of the east wall. Weâll cover ground faster and draw less attention if we split up,â he says. âIâll cover the north entrance.â
He doesnât let either of them get a word in before heâs running out of the vehicle.
Inside the creamery, the temperature rises, a sharp contrast to the frigid January air, and the air is perfumed by something sour, rotten. Between pasteurization vats are piles of rusted equipment jutting out like broken ribs, metal piping half-submerged in the shadows. As he makes his way through the labyrinth, he sees a still functional pressure gauge on one of the vats twitching into the yellow zone.
That faint mechanical hum runs through the buildingâgenerators still keeping something alive. The pipes running along the walls, between vats, rattle.
Thenâa soft, muffled sob.
Spencer takes a right and his flashlight illuminates James Walker standing behind his daughter, Millie, one hand clapped over her mouth, the other, holding a skinning knife to her throat.
âLet her go, James,â Spencer says, revolver aimed straight ahead.
James takes a labored breath. The blade at Millieâs throat glints, a thin reflection of light dancing along the steel.
âI donât think so,â James responds.
âJames,â Spencer tries again, taking a careful step forward. âI understand youâre angry. They took your livelihoodââ
âNoâno.â Jamesâ hand tightens on the hilt, and Maggie sobs. âThey took my life!â
Spencer has seen grief manifest in hundreds of ways throughout his career. Some men turn it inward to let it hollow them out. Others forge it into righteous indignation and wield it like a blade. And James, hands shaking, eyes wild with devoted fervor, is the latter.
This isnât about work. It isnât even about family or betrayal or revenge.
This is about legacy, something passed through blood and dirt, roots sprawling deep beneath the earth to last centuries.
Cut down a tree, and it will grow again.
Dig it out by the roots, and the ground caves in, leaving only a hollow, a scar in the earth easily paved over, as if nothing had grown there at all.
But legacy is more than rootsâitâs the seeds carried away by the wind, shaped by their origin, but still meant to grow into something new.
James doesnât see that, and now, heâs willing to cut down his own future to avenge his past, ready to sacrifice his daughter at the altar of his loss rather than let her become something beyond him.
As if she is not his legacy, too.
Spencer knows that heâs supposed to deescalate first, but that takes time, time heâs not willing to spend on James Walker.
He has his own legacy to think aboutâhis family.
Somewhere else in the creamery, something clangs against a vat. It draws Jamesâ attention for half a second, and when it does, Spencer shifts his aim and fires.
The bullet slams into a pipe running behind Jamesâs head.
Steam erupts, shrieking into the air, and James jerks away, raising his arm against the blast.
Millie wrenches free, stumbling, gasping, and suddenly, JJ is there pulling her to safety.
James reels and turns to Spencer with his blade raised, but before he can even take a step, Luke surges forward and pries the blade from his grasp.
By the time theyâre escorting him out of the creamery, the rest of the team and local PD finally arrive.
Half an hour later, heâs back on the jet, staring out the window, counting the stars that seem to pale in comparison to the one guiding him home.
When Spencer rushes into the hospital room, youâre standing, gripping the bed rail like itâs the only thing keeping you tethered to the ground. The moment you see himâbreathless, wide-eyed, and grinning (asshole)âyou grit out, âWhat the fuck took so long?â
Spencer, to his credit, takes a second to reassess.
He stops short beside you, hands slightly outstretched but clearly trying to determine if you want to be touched.
You do not.
âItâwe had toââ He shakes his head. âIt doesnât matter. Iâm here. I love you.â
âI love you, too, obviously.â You glare up at him from beneath your sweat beaded brow. âBut If you ever hang up the phone while Iâm in labor again, I swear on my life, I will become a serial killer out of spite.â
âNoted.â His expression softens. âWhat can I do?â
âUmââ You squeeze your eyes shut and take a deep breath. âYou want to do this instead? Do a seahorse-type thing?â
âIf I had a brood pouch, I would do it in a heartbeat.â
You laughâbreathy and high pitched. âA what?â
âA brood pouch! Thatâs where male seahorses fertilize and incubate the eggs after the female deposits them. Itâs actuallyââ
Another contraction rips through you, and you squeeze your eyes shut, gripping the rail even tighter as you let out a quiet groan. When it passes, you pant and open your eyes.
âOh my god,â you breathe.
Spencer scans the screen with your vitals. âThat was sixty-two seconds. How oftenââ
âFour minutes,â you hiss.
âOkay, have you spoken to the anesthesiologist about the epiduââ
âNot doing that.â
He pauses and blinks. âAre you sure? I thought you wanted toââ
âChanged my mind.â You keep your eyes on your fists clenched around the guard rail. âItâsâitâs fine.â
Spencer pauses again, and you can feel him assessing you. âI just want to make sureââ
âItâs a giant fucking needle in my spine,â you rush out.Â
âTechnically the needle itself doesnât stay in your spine.â
Heâs the love of your life. Heâs also, apparently, your greatest adversary. You glare at him and hope he telepathically gets that message.
âThe risk of complications is extremely rare!â he says. âParalysis is only one in a million, and permanent nerve damage is one in 23,500 to 50,000!â
âOh, well, thank god for that! No!â
Spencerâs mouth opens. Then closes.
You groan softly and lean down, resting your head against the cool metal of the guard rail. âI would rather calculate the gravitational pull of a black hole on a rogue planet with nothing but a notebook and a pen than do this right now.â
You expect Spencer to comment on it, say something upbeat, like what an interesting challengeâhowever impossibleâthat would be.
Instead, he just brushes your hair away from your forehead and says, âYou could do it if you wanted to. And you can do this, too.â
You keep your head down to hide the quiver in your bottom lip.
After twenty minutes, you decide that your crippling fear of needles isnât so crippling, afterall.Â
And then, itâs a waiting game.
Untilâ
She arrives with the sun, and nothing else matters anymore.
Nothing.
Not the pain, or the frustration of waiting, or the fear. Not even the terrifying, all-consuming weight of your official parenthood.
Maiaâimpossibly tiny, infinitesimally small Maia, just a speck in the grand expanse of the universe, and yet, sheâs everything.
When sheâs bundled and settled on your chest, you and Spencer just stare at her. He sits in a chair beside your bed but rests his head next to yours.Â
âSheâs so wrinkly,â you whisper, voice horse. âLike a little alien.â
Spencer huffs a laugh through his nose. âDonât call her an alien.â
âCanât help it. Sheâs straight stardust. Carbon, oxygen, hydrogenâthe legacy of ancient supernovae.â You run a finger down her cheek, and she coos in her sleep. âThe universe spent billions of years making her,â you murmur.
Spencerâs quiet for several moments. Then, he tilts his head to kiss your cheek. âShe was worth the wait.â
You blink, throat tightening. âEverythingâs going to be different now,â you whisper. âOur lives are⊠Do you⊠will we be okay at this?â
You expect a statistic, a comforting fact, in response.
Instead, Spencer murmurs. âI donât know. I think we can only try.â
The gravitational orbits of two celestial bodies are easy to predict. Introduce a third, and the system unravels into chaosâunpredictable, unknowable, its future mapped only by imperfect simulations that can never quite capture reality.Â
Itâs a delicate dance on the edge of collapse.
But here, now, it has never felt so fragile.
Or so precious.
âOur very own three-body problem,â you muse.Â
Spencer breathes a laugh. âThereâs no closed-form solution to parenting, is there?â
âNerd,â you whisper.
He doesnât argue. He just squeezes your arm, his thumb tracing slow, steady circles against your skin.
For all the unknowns still to come, for all the unpredictable forces pulling at your lives, you know at least one thing will remain constantâher, this, your family.
And somehow, even without a closed-form solution, the math still works out.
"You can't tell, but I'm livid rn" is so iconic
Could you do an f1 grid text x reader where the reader is feeling very insecure and just misses their boyfriend and they make her feel better?
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â : summary :: texting your boyfriend while sharing your insecurities with your bestfriend(s) â : feat :: max verstappen, lewis hamilton, carlos sainz, charles leclerc, lando norris, oscar piastri â : genre :: hurt/comfort; heavy "insecurity" discussions
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Bombshell r loosing her mind when Spence walks into work late that one day and he has the âboy bandâ haircut
âWhatâs with the face?âÂ
Morgan raises his eyebrows at you, waiting for an answer you donât have.Â
âWhatâs wrong with my face?â you ask.Â
âNothingââ
âClearly.âÂ
âYou look way too happy, considering.â He gestures to the board currently displaying a grisly crime scene photo and the empty seat across from you. âAnother case, and a severe lack of your favourite toy.âÂ
âSpencer isnât my toy, heâs my sweetheart, and Iâm gutted heâs running late but Iâm toughing it out.âÂ
Being on the team is all youâve ever wanted. With Gideon long gone and enough time elapsed between Straussâ political push for Emily, youâre here permanently, where youâve always wanted to be. Itâs been the best few months of your life. A lot of that due to Spencerâs unfailing friendship. Heâs so kind to you. Youâre really getting along.Â
âLetâs focus in,â Hotch says.Â
You bridle with excitement, poorly contained. You donât get very far into spitballing when JJâs lips part in bemusement.
âWell, hello,â she says.Â
You turn in your chair away from JJ and Penelope where theyâre giving the presentation to the door, where Spencer is smiling genially. He sits down with his bag still on his shoulder, a heavy silence having fallen over the room.Â
Spencer has cut his hair. Gone is the long, mostly straight lengths of his hair. Did he get a perm? Youâre shell-shocked. âOh my god,â you mumble to yourself.Â
âWhat, did you join a boyband?â Hotch asks, frowning.Â
His lips part in small offence. âNo,â he says.Â
Emily and Morgan laugh. Spencer tucks his chair in, and you donât know who wants to say what or how quickly youâre supposed to pretend to get over this, but you donât care. âSpencer!â you say, âSpencer!âÂ
âL/N, please donât start.âÂ
Hotch is only saying please because he knows he had his own reaction he couldâve kept internal, how can he ask you to smother your own. You lean hard across the table and gaze at Spencer lovingly âstartled but inarguably infatuated.
âYouâve never, ever looked this handsome before,â you say, true and not true, âever. I gottaââ Your hand reaches out at the same moment your legs decide to stand. âCan I touch it?âÂ
Hotch sighs with disappointment.Â
You pass behind your teammates' chairs to look at him.Â
âStop,â Spencer says immediately, his palm to your stomach. âYouâre being mean.âÂ
âIâm being mean? You didnât even consult me.âÂ
âItâs my hair.âÂ
âSpencer, youâre gorgeous no matter what, but I need some warning if you donât want me to do this.âÂ
âSit back down,â Morgan says, rolling his eyes.Â
You tuck one lovely curl behind Spencerâs ear carefully. âI love it so much, I canât believe it. This is the best thing thatâs happened to me since I joined the BAU.âÂ
This makes me want a baby
You write fluff and flangst absolutely amazingly and Iâm in awe every dang time!
Buuut since youâve got spring break coming up, a little fic idea thatâs in my head that Iâll never do justice! (If youâre interested)
Fem!reader finding out an adorable way to tell Spencer sheâs pregnant. I donât care if theyâre dating or married or what - but like she puts together a crossword, or a puzzle and he just doesnât get it. (If you wanna throw angst in, he leaves without getting it for a case and then realizes it in the middle of the night.)
trying to tell Spencer you're pregnant, but he's too concerned with your well-being to fill out your custom crossword puzzle
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: fluff content warnings: pregnancy and misc. symptoms., talk of fainting and blood tests. word count: 1.69k a/n: welcome back to the spencer reid dilf agenda! i hope this does your request justice and thank you for entrusting me with this idea!!!! <3
you
It was your pride and joy, the collection of folded papers that sat on the kitchen counter, next to a cup of coffee that you had already filled for him.
On your fake newspaper, you had created a custom crossword puzzle. With four very important clues.
Across: âEarly stage of lifeâ
Across: âAmerican actress Frances _â
Down: âMust be finished byâ
Down: âVeteranâs Day monthâ
You smiled softly to yourself as you heard Spencerâs footsteps coming down the staircase. Padding over to the kitchen counter, you sat on one of the stools, a cup of tea in front of you.
Before he even looked at the newspaper, Spencer leaned over to kiss you good morning, âYou look tired,â he whispered, hooking a finger under your chin as if he were investigating the dark circles underneath your eyes.
âWay to make a girl feel good about herself,â you teased lightly, even though you knew he was right. At least you felt tired.
He rolled his eyes, âYou know thatâs not what I meant.â Turning to grab his mug of coffee off of the counter, he observed you again, âAre you sure your doctor said nothing was wrong?â
Smiling, you gave him a brief nod. You had gone to see your doctor a few days ago for nausea and fatigue, and Spencer wouldâve gone with you had he not been on the other side of the country on a case. âTheyâre running some tests, but they didnât see anything blatantly wrong,â the doctor was running a few blood tests, checking your iron levels and HCG.
Using his free hand, Spencer reached over and moved a lock of hair out of your face, âThey said your blood pressure was low?â
Low blood pressure, as it turned out, was a pregnancy symptom that was most common in the first trimester. âYouâre freaking out over nothing, Spence,â you told him. Really, it was something. A rather large something â or small, depending on how you wanted to look at it. âCome on, itâs crossword time,â you told him, using the end of the pen to tap on the newspaper.
âI worry about you when Iâm away. You do know that low blood pressure can cause syncope, right? Did they prescribe you anything for it?â He asked, ignoring your wishes to move on and do the crossword.
There was a small part of you that just wanted to tell him, but frankly, you had worked too hard on the crossword puzzle to give yourself away like that. You couldnât tell him that they didnât prescribe you anything because they didnât know how far along you were. A larger part of you knew that if you just got him to work on the puzzle, he would have his answers in about seven minutes.
Then his phone rang, he pulled the device out of his pocket, and the Caller ID on the screen caused you to slump your shoulders forward. It was Garcia. âHey Garcia,â he greeted on the phone, âat the tarmac?â
You set your head on the counter and sighed in defeat as Spencer hung up the phone.
âAre you alright?â He asked you softly, tenderly wrapping an arm around your torso.
Humming, you sat back up, ignoring the stars in your field of vision as you did so. âIâm fine, you should go,â you insisted.
Spencer shook his head, âNo, youâre sick. Iâll call Garcia back and tell her I have to stay back.â Acting bewildered at the idea that he had been so remiss as to agree to do his job while you were unwell.
You reached out and set a hand on his, âItâs alright, love. I can take care of myself,â you reminded him. Besides the fact that you were wholly self-sufficient, the only reason why Spencer would be asked to meet the team at the tarmac was if they were headed toward a particularly gnarly case â they needed all hands on deck.
âPromise me youâll check in? Call your mom if you need any help, please,â he requested, pleading eyes following you as you got up to hug him.
Nodding, you wrapped your arms around him, âYou should take the crossword with you.â Pulling away, you haphazardly refolded the newspaper and handed it to him.
Furrowing his brow, Spencer inspected the paper that you had given him. âWe always do the crossword together on Saturdays,â he found you incredibly helpful on the pop culture clues. âWe could save this one and then have two for next week,â he offered.
God. No. Your eyes widened at the idea of having to keep your secret for another week, shaking your head, you shrugged, âNo, you should take it. Itâll make me look forward to next week even more,â you insisted.
He folded, and with a sweet kiss to the forehead, he was off to go save lives, remaining entirely unaware of the one growing inside of you.
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The judgmental Italian behind him was proving to be a distraction, âDid you find something?â Spencer asked, eyeing the evidence board with frustration. Something bugged him about the case, and he couldnât figure out exactly what it was.
âNot right now, but itâs three in the morning,â Rossi said, joining Spencer by the evidence board. âWhy donât you give that big brain of yours a break?â
Shaking his head, Spencer crossed his arms in front of his chest, âI tried. I canât stop thinking about the case.â Men were popping up dead in a small Missouri town at an alarming rate, and he felt so close to a breakthrough.
Dave nodded like he understood the feeling, that was probably why he had emerged from his hotel room so early, returning to the precinct before the sun peeked over the horizon. âWhat do you usually do to wind your brain down?â
Raising his eyebrows, Spencer shrugged, âCrossword puzzles,â he admitted, any word puzzle would do the trick.
The chuckle from the older man next to him startled Spencer, âNow, why doesnât that surprise me?â Rossi looked around the precinct, âIâm sure we can find one around here somewhere.â
âNo,â Spencer said, âI have one in my bag, actually.â He refrained from including the detail that you had given him the crossword puzzle, or else heâd never hear the end of it.
Clapping him on the back, Rossi lifted his coffee cup, âThen I suggest you go take the thirty seconds to fill out that puzzle and then get some rest.â
Once he was back in his hotel room, he changed before pulling out the pile of papers that you had sent him off with. Sitting on top of the bed, he filled out the puzzle in approximately six minutes and forty-three seconds. Once the letters were filled in, he skimmed the puzzle â just to check it over.
The only one that mightâve given him trouble was about an American actress â usually he had you to help him with pop culture, but he recalled having the same last name as an actress in Days of Our Lives.
It was interesting that the words âBabyâ and âReidâ were right next to each other.
Wait.
Quickly, he calculated the odds that the words âBabyâ âReidâ âDueâ and âNovemberâ were all in the puzzle and when the numbers were put together, they made your anniversary. Spencer just as quickly called you, listening to the phone ringing.
His heart was racing as he waited to see if you answered the phone. âHey,â your groggy voice came through the receiver.
âWhere did you get this crossword puzzle?â He asked you, flipping through the rest of the newspaper for the first time.
You hummed softly, âYouâre doing it right now?â
Looking at the alarm clock on his bedside table, he dropped his face into his hands. âIâm sorry, love. I didnât even think about the time,â it was just past four in the morning now, making it just past five in the morning in Virginia. âI just thought thatâŠâ his voice trailed off. What if it was just a coincidence?
There was silence on your end of the call, and he wondered if you had fallen asleep. You hadnât been feeling well, and heâd woken you up with his phone call. âYou thought what, Spence?â
The teasing lilt in your voice had given you away to him immediately. He knew. Every one of his suspicions were confirmed, âY/N Reid,â he breathed.
âSpencer Reid,â you countered.
He took a deep breath, âAre you pregnant?â
âYeah,â you answered simply, with about as much enthusiasm as he expected from you at five in the morning.
It all started to make sense to him. The low blood pressure, the drowsiness, and even the slight caginess when it came to him asking about your doctorâs visit. He swiped away a few stray tears, âI donât know what to say.â It wasnât a feeling he was overly used to.
You cleared your throat, âAre you happy?â Nerves clouded your voice, and he could hear you becoming more awake â more alert.
âI am,â he searched aimlessly. Elated. Thrilled. Ecstatic. âIâm so happy,â he told you, at a loss for words. âI donât know what to say, I just⊠God, are you okay?â Dread washed over him, you were alone, sick, and pregnant at home and he was halfway across the country.
Sighing, he heard a ruffling on the other end of the call. âIâm great. Iâm exhausted, I had no idea being pregnant was so tiring. I mean, I knew, but I didnât know.â You sighed again, âIâm not making any sense.â
He laughed lightly at your rambling, âYouâre making perfect sense. Chances are your energy will return during the second trimester.â
âDonât get my hopes up.â You paused again for just a moment, âIâm sorry if I scared you. With the whole doctorâs appointment thing. They really are keeping an eye on my blood pressure and whole slew of other things, but they know the root cause.â
A giddy smile grew on his face, âItâs because youâre pregnant.â
A soft hum came through the phone, âItâs because Iâm pregnant,â you concurred.
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synopsis: during a make out session, you & spencer explore the concept of erogenous zones.
warnings: established relationship with fem!reader, mentions of kissing & slight sexual suggestive content, spencer being smug af because heâs confident in your relationship, reader matching spencerâs vibe!!!
note: i just had to write this after having a psych lecture about it, so this is hella indulgent but i hope yâall enjoy đ
minors dni with this post!
âdid you like that?â.
nodding your head, you let out a breath you didnât realize you were holding, but it sounded more like a mewl as it escaped your lips.
it was late.
both you & spencer were well aware of the how the time had dipped from the late night to absurdly early morning, but neither of you cared. at least, not when his body was draped over yours like this, lips moving across your neck in languid strokes like a painter.
âfeels niceâ you said real breathy & cute, causing spencer to press another kiss to the same spot just at the side of your neck below your ear, smiling into your skin when your hands gripped his sides a little tighter.
he couldnât help but feel giddy at the thought of him being the reason why you were falling into bliss like this.
âdo you know why it feels nice there?â he asked in a hushed tone due to the close proximity of his mouth to your ear.
you almost groaned in response because surely spencer knows what effect his words have on you, right?
âbecause itâs an erogenous zone?â you asked, shutting your eyes when his teeth lightly grazed your pulse point as if he was giving you a reward, feeling his thumb press harder into your hip on top of the mattress.
âgood answerâ he pulled back to get a good look at you, lips slightly swollen with pride as he looked down at you.
the way your chest rose up & down a little quicker, the hazy gaze in your eyesâyou were enjoying every minute of it.
âerogenous zones feel so nice because the stimulation in those areas increase feelings of pleasureâ your eyes stayed focused on the way his lips moved as he spoke, how they curled into a knowing smile when he realized your attention was locked in on them.
humming in response, you lifted a hand to cup spencerâs cheek, dipping your thumb to smooth over his bottom lip after a moment, relishing in its softness. âyouâre real cute when you talk like thatâ.
latching a hand to yours, spencer pulled your hand back before pressing a few kisses to the inner part of your wrist, inching his way to your palm & back all innocently.
your jaw went slack as he maintained eye contact.
âeveryone has multiple erogenous zones on their body, some are more heightened than others,â he spoke slowly as his lips touched the heel of your palm, noting how tightly you continued to grip his shirt.
thatâs another one, he noted in his mind.
âwhy do you think thatâs the case?â spencer pulled your hand away, gently placing it back onto the mattress before leaning closer to your face again, humming when your hand run through his hair, scraping his scalp in just the right way to make him preen.
you smirked with satisfaction.
âbecause the skin is the bodyâs largest organ, so it makes sense why thereâd be multiple spots withâohâuhm, heightened sensitivityâ you tried keeping your composure as he made his way to the right side of your neck, continuing his kisses across you skin before sucking on a few spots, humming when you finished your sentence.
âi should give you a gold star for that oneâ.
âyou basically already areâ.
âyouâre rightâ.
âi knoâshit, spenceâ you exhaled sharply when his lips sucked just above your right collarbone, aiming to leave a sweet mark as a memory.
you were sure youâd feel the slight bruise in the morning, but you didnât mind.
not when it felt so good.
âyou were saying?â he lifted his head up, ignoring the way you rolled your eyes & how your eyebrows were pinched together in relief.
âshut upâ you let a smile slip loose, shoving him away weakly before reeling him back in, letting his nose nudge yours. âyouâve got a mouth on you, reidâ.
âso iâve been told. but i donât think you mind it much, sweetheartâ he said all suave, drifting a hand down to the crevice of your right knee to let him pull your thigh taut to his hip, caging him into your form without any protest.
spencer was turning you on with science, & you were falling for it. but what else were you supposed to do?
âif i say i like it, will you kiss me?â you asked, lips ghosting his own, his eyes trained on the way you bit your lip in anticipation for whatever is to come.
spencer shrugged his shoulders playfully, âi wouldnât be against thatâ.
âokay, i like it. kiss meââ he stole your breath away eagerly, chests pressed against the other as you sucked his top lip between yours, moaning at the feeling of his tongue swiping your mouth like heâs done so many times before, but the feeling never failed to send shivers down your spine.
âbabyââ you breathed, hands gripping his hair like a vice the longer he kissed you back, tummy flipping when his hips pressed firmly into yours in response to the pet name.
âyeah?â spencer licked his lips once he pulled away, pupils blown wide as his heart raced, staring at you like you were the woman only alive.
âshow me where your erogenous zones are, please?â.
youâve never seen his head nod so fast.
HI i have an idea and its making me really giddy
ok so reader is a translator for the bau and theyâre always reading and translating texts or calls or anything like that. and the reader to spencer is basically like penelope to derek. they flirt all the time and all of those lovely things.. and itâs kinda just where theyâre flirting on the phone and morgan teases reid about it and reid gets all flustered
IDK IF IT CAN WORK I JUST LOVE FLUSTERED SPENCER :(
anyway iâll probably be in your inbox a bunch uhhh so call me h or something
-h
summary: spencer insists he is not flirting. morgan insists that spencer absolutely is. one of them is lying. pairings: spencer reid x translator!reader warnings: heavy flirting, pre-relationship mutual pining, verbal sparring as foreplay, workplace hr violations, use of angel wc: 0.6k
âAre you thinking about me, Dr. Reid? Because Iâve been thinking about you.â
Spencer exhales, tugging at the collar of his dress shirt as if loosening it might alleviate the sudden stranglehold of your words. He wasnât sure if it was always this constricting or if it was conspiring against him at the mere sound of your voice.
He rolls his eyes, performative, really, because you canât see him, and itâs easier to feign exasperation than admit the effect you have on him. His mouth, however, twitches in betrayal, flirting with a smile before he crushes it.Â
The crime board he was supposed to be focusing on, filled with monochrome photos and reports, was now blurring into meaningless scribbles as his thoughts veer off-course, plummeting headfirst into you.
âIâm always thinking about you.â
The words come easily because they require no effort to be true. Always isnât hyperbole, itâs a mathematical constant, an irrefutable fact.
He was thinking about you before he even called you, felt the shape of you in his mind like an afterimage burned onto his retinas.Â
Thought about what color you were wearing, whether your hair was up or down. He wondered if youâd eaten, if you were drinking enough water, if youâd remembered to bring a jacket to the office because the temperature had dropped unexpectedly.Â
âAlways? Spencer, if you wanted me that bad, all you had to do was say so.â
He isnât sure why he hesitates â why his brain takes a detour through all the ways he has said so, if not in words, then in the way his thoughts orbit you like a law of nature.Â
âI feel like I did say so. Quite literally. But if youâd like me to be more explicit about it, Iâm happy to oblige.â
Another pause. He wonders if youâre smiling.
âMmm, well, Iâm certainly not going to stop you.â You sigh, a little dramatic. âGo ahead, be explicit.â
Spencer physically winces at how hot his face gets. The very concept of explicit sits indecently in the pit of his stomach.
âTempting.â He exhales, rubs a hand down his face, forcibly redirects. âBut I do actually have a job to do. And, lucky for me, it just so happens to require your specific set of skills.âÂ
He leans against the crime board, half-smirking despite himself, because if nothing else, this is fun â the sharp back-and-forth, the way you press all the right buttons just to see what happens.
âI have a recording that needs translating. Think you can focus for long enough to help me, or do I need to, I donât know, compliment your intelligence first to get you in a professional mindset?â
âComplimenting my intelligence to get what you want? Interesting. Manipulative, even.â
He groans, tilting his head toward the ceiling, appealing to some higher power for patience. He pinches the bridge of his nose. âI didnât say I was going to ââ
âToo late, you put the idea in my head, and now I expect it. Preferably in an eloquent, well-structured speech. Bonus points if you make it poetic.â
âOr,â he counters, âyou could translate the recording first, and Iâll⊠circle back to stroking your ego at a later, more convenient time.â
A small pause. The kind that feels intentional, like youâre weighing your options.
âI guess that works,â you say. âSend it over, pretty boy.â
Spencer shakes his head, fingers moving on autopilot as he sends the file, because if he thinks too hard about the way you lilted that last pretty boy, he might die. âAlright, thanks. Be good, angel.â
He hangs up, still grinning like an idiot, still entirely too warm under the collar. He exhales, staring at the phone in his hand like it might have the decency to cool him off, maybe undo the physiological mess youâve left him in.
âIf I have to listen to one more of your phone calls with her, Iâm sending yâall an invoice.â
Spencer freezes when he sees Morgan standing behind him.
He clears his throat, ignoring the flush he knew was climbing up his neck. âFlirting is an unsubstantiated claim.â
Morgan just stares at him. Stares. âYou donât even believe that.â
Spencer mutters something about professionalism because heâs nothing if not a walking contradiction.
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