Rb To Relieve The Back Pain Of The Person U Reblogged This From

Sometimes I just wanna run away

So I'm on a train rn and I'm really close to crying.

I've started having suicidal thoughts almost ten years ago. Even though I'm doing way better now, sometimes they're still there. One a few years ago I started thinking about the future. But never further than a couple of years?

The past few weeks I've been struggling again and maybe that's the reason why I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know where that thought came from but some part of me decided that I want to go on a end of September trip, in 2040.

Hey I just wanted to say, for any lgbtq+ person out there who isn’t looking forward to any of the winter holidays, who isn’t getting to spend it with friends or family, who have painful memories with the holidays, who feel isolated during the season, you aren’t alone and your feelings are valid and I know you can get through this.

Loving your friends is a form of falling in love too

Shout-out to the autistics who crave hugs. Shout-out to the autistics whose love language is touch.

And shout-out to the autistics who were denied a timely diagnosis because a misinformed professional thought you were "too affectionate" to be autistic.

You aren't any less autistic because of how you show affection. And you aren't nearly as rare as pop culture and outdated research would imply.

Why are dicks so expensive?

Love letter to my friends

I wish I could ask you to come over right now.

Wish I could but I don't know how…

I wish I could tell you about

Everytime my head gets too loud.

How you manage to shut up my mind.

How you help me to find

A way to escape those thoughts in my head.

The ones that leave me wanting to be dead.

Without you I can't find the way.

That's why I wish I could ask you to stay.

Wish I could ask you to stay with me tonight

And help me kill the pain I feel inside.

But telling you about it all

Would mean letting down my wall.

Would allow you to see

Even the hidden parts of me.

And honestly, I probably would

If I only knew how I could…

Cause losing loved ones is what I fear most

But I still let you come so close.

And even despite of my fear

You're part of the reason I'm still here…

It's weird how good you can make me feel. You can make me forget all my problems. I even forget that I'm Trans and wearing my binder. All that exists, all that matters is you laying in my arms and me holding you close. It's just us. My heart is beating fast and your fingers feel so good on my skin. And for a moment I ask myself if that is what happiness feels like.

You ever wonder how many people think about you in a day? How many different thoughts have I infiltrated?

One thing I noticed:

Simon from love, Simon doesn't have his older sister in the movie.

Charlie from heartstopper doesn't have his little brother in the series.

Alex from Red, White & Royal Blue doesn't have a sister in the movie.

So basically queer charactere have to loose a sibling when becoming TV characters? Is this how it works?