I TOLD YOU 🫵 HES NOT 🚫 A COP👮 HES A BOTTOMFEEDER 🕴 JUST LIKE YOU 😡❗ WHAT ARE YOU 😐

so this was the vibe I was getting from that bit

S4 might heal me

I've been relistening to Red Valley season 4 (like a normal and sane person) and I just realized that the reason Warren came to the cryosuit in EP4 was just so he could find out what he did. He could've asked GORD to tell him about it literally anywhere else. And yet he came to Gordon to learn the one thing about himself he'd been the most terrified of. Because Gordon makes him feel safe. Because Gordon is the only person that didn't know and didn't want to find out unless Warren would be fine with it.

I guess Warren's finally made a decision to look together (I mean in a way??)

Cover art for Pus Crank's album "Memory Guardian"

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Hyperfixation strikes back and I'm absolutely not normal about how tragic Gordon's character actually is once again.

A lot of words in very bad English (because I clearly don't get enough sleep) under the cut.

Okay so Gordon and Warren as the main characters are obviously dualistic. They work as a duo for that exact reason and it's mostly about the way they handle things. They balance each other and stuff but that's not my point. My point is that they're not only dualistic when it comes to their personality. They're also dualistic when it comes to how they're presented in the story itself not taking the plot and interactions with other characters.

We know a lot about Warren's past. And it's really an interesting thing about him as an amnesiac character. We KNOW him because we know his past. We even know something about his time as a convict because we get to hear him on the records from that time. He doesn't know a lot about himself but we as the observers do.

But for Gordon it's quite the opposite. We know only the bare essentials about his past and most of it is not really that huge. Like OK he played in a band and yet we don't even know for sure what instrument he played. We know his favorite movies and his love for the macabre but it's not his past, it's just who he is on the outside, something anyone can see without looking too deep. We know that's he's half Brazilian on his mother's side and yet we don't even know his parents' names or anything about them at all. I mean we can assume they were neglectful to his feelings from the 'you know who belongs in a jar like that' part and the way he behaves in general but it's not really a lot of information. And it's not like he's being secretive about it, it's just that no one ever cares to ask. And that's exactly what I find so tragic about him.

He's always left neglected. His feelings don't matter to anyone if we're being completely honest. The closest he gets to being seen is when after a fight in a tunnel Warren lets him go back first because 'You don't like being here on your own'. And it's coming from Warren, the closest person he has, and as much as it's appreciated, I really don't think it's enough considering all the trauma Gordon has to constantly go through.

Aubrey is also neglectful to him as she is usually only concerned about Warren.

And yeah, I get it, it's really not the time and place to care about such things as feelings. And yet Gordon always made time to check on Warren, to comfort him, to at least offer his company.

And the most tragic part is that he got shot and went into the pod just as neglected as he always was. And it's not about the degraded infusion, it's about the way he was treated by the only two people he could trust. It's about how Aubrey just contacted him on her own knowing full well that it could get him in serious trouble and potentially murdered. It's about Warren's indifference (though it wasn't really his fault, the man just learned he's a murderer, he really should get a break. But Gordon didn't know about that so imagine how it must'd looked like to the poor dude). And then he was left for 44 years and now nobody can even tell what his condition is in there. 'You don't fucking know, do you?'

So YEAH. In conclusion. Gordon needs to get his fucking hugs and apologies. And he needs to get his shit considered and appreciated. And like. A life long therapy.

Actually considering crocheting my very own Gordon Porlock so I can have him as emotional support for the season finale. Watch me neglect my studies for the next week I guess.

EVERYBODY STAY CALM SOMETHING IS HAPPENING

tomorrow

look at my therapist dawg im going to jail

What if 'would-you-rather' questions come back once Gordon emerges from hypersleep?? What if Gordon actually is amnesiac and those questions are the only thing connecting Warren to the man he knew??? What if Warren checks his answers and realizes they're just the same? And what if he realized they're not???? What then?????

Man I miss my good friend Gordon Porlock so much. I hope he comes back soon.

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