My knife is too dull
If you’ve had a period of basically dissociating from a hard time of your life, you’ll know that doing even the littlest thing that has an effect in the real world vs on a screen can be so profound. Something as little as you doing a favor for someone, or someone noticing something about you that you didn’t think anyone would even pick up on bc your brain is all messed up about being perceived. Your living footprint is all muddied and murky. It takes a lot to even feel like you’re inhibiting your body. So consequences that come as a direct result of you just living, whether big or small, blow you away on an inexplicable level
Someone who’ll talk you through it 🥲
Knowing you're gonna have an episode soon and being able to do absolutely nothing to stop it is like waiting for your execution or trying to outrun a tsunami
me and who
21F & tired. my old poems are seriously so bad. idk what this is turning into. I just want someone to talk to. open dms
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