I Come To Beg For My Forgiveness

And when you're tired, think of me

And when the world is all dark and bad dreams, think of me

And when you can't talk, can't walk, think of me

And when the air gets thick and your lungs get twisted, think of me

And when you're lonely, think of me

I'll be there

Please please eat me alive turn my body into something sacred I don't want to be here anymore everything is so tiring and I get no reprieve from the monotony and the pain and oh this pain is too much for such a little body I'm desperate please I'm tired I'm scared I don't want to be here anymore

Numb Yourself - Citizen

I just want someone to kiss me

I just want to be held

Been having a hard time with emotional regulation lately, and it just makes me feel so much worse. I really hate the feeling of being angry, and every time it hits it's like oh this feels BAD.

I'm starting to struggle with my weight again too. I thought I was better, but I guess eds don't really leave.

I can't even afford to go to therapy or get pills or anything. I know my problems are small in the grand scheme, but damn I'm tired.