I Never Regret The Meals I Didn’t Eat, Only The Ones I Did.

of course it’s “all in my head”, have you ever seen anyone having depression on their leg?

So I’m starting this tomorrow and ill keep you guys updated I have some pals doing it with me to keep me accountable! Progress will be under #hmloseastone on my page!!

Stay safe I love you!!

Thought yall on here may appreciate my new rule for myself

21 days to lose 23lbs

now i don't know if this will work as i haven't ever tried it before (duh) but this is a reallyyyyy high restriction diet that i am hoping will get me to 110lbs (50kg) by christmas. it's a mix of some random diet plans i found and the theory that the abc diet is based on: 'alternating caloric intake'. weigh ins will be based on when i have psych appointments, and if im not getting the results i want i will lower calories for some days :) this will be the hardest thing i have ever done, but i HAVE to do it, i can't give up !!

5th: water fast

6th: 200

7th: water fast (weigh in)

8th: water fast

9th: 500

10th: 200

11th: 650

12th: water fast

13th: dry fast

14th: 200 (weigh in)

15th: 800

16th: water fast

17th: water fast

18th: 600

19th: 200

20th: 450

21st: dry fast

22nd: water fast

23rd: 400

24th: 1000

25th: 300 (weigh in)

if anyone has any ideas on changes i should make or if i should modify things at all PLEASE let me know :))

(i have never done a dry fast before and i have heard differing opinions on them so if anyone is a ~dry fast veterin~ gimme some hints ;D)

Okay so I just binged on kfc and a donut, it was 546 cals for the tenders and 300 cals for the donut. I’m literally so dead and want to kms. I purged it but still feel like absolute shit with a total of 1107 calories in total today.

I need to die, I am sick of this cycle.

masterpost of my fav pilates workouts ⭐️

My mother is a pilates teacher and I’ve always watched her as she worked with love and passion, however I’ve never understood how truly amazing pilates is. I’ve been doing on my own pilates workouts for a year by now and with my mom’s teachings I’ve seen major changes in my physique that not even thousands of cardio workouts could achieve. Also I have to give props to whoever invented pilates because you can stay in your home, without sweating too much and wearing comfortable clothes and at the same time getting effective results. So I chose to share some of those videos with all of you and I’m going to update everytime I find some new that I enjoy and think are suitable for everyone.

1)  For beginners: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCg_gh_fppI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-PpDkbcNGo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2ZFwMyx9w0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yDDFS1kPplI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1gzT-FZ45i0

2) More advanced:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iIS03agmr9M

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iWjRCMB_mzY&t=9s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sKIqLUlPGBw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvOc0Ed9MYI&t=166s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XkiiFeFePmI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywJe6ZJhyA0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-lww6qnPH34

Be aware! some common mistakes people do and that I’ve done for a long time:

don’t hold your breath, breathing is your friend: exhale during the hardest part of the exercise and inhale during the resting part

DO NOT ARCH YOUR BACK! THIS IS SO IMPORTANT. If your lower back is hurting you’re not working your abs at all but you’re just hurting yourself. Don’t push your body where you aren’t comfortable, there are always modifications you can do.

always keep the core strong when you’re in plank positions, otherwise you’ll be working your wrists instead of your abs.

when you’re doing squats be careful to your knees, they have to be in line with your toes: you want to work your booty and quads, not hurt your poor knees.

open your shoulders, stay tall like you have a glass of water on your head and open your chest because your back needs lots of love and care since we always neglect it: posture is so important!

don’t think working out as pain in the ass: it helps your body, it’s a moment of healing after all those hours spent at school or at work, it’s a moment of recovery and serenity that you owe to yourself.

how many calories do you eat a day?

I fast most of the time but when I eat it’s always under 500 cals + 100 cals for my morning coffee. 🤗

I don’t recommend this as I keep losing my sight and hearing due to malnourishment which is scary but I just can’t eat.

Stay safe x

waking up to stars on the ceiling and bruises on pale skin and battered feet on & off the scale and almonds in ziploc baggies and bite marks on fingers and hair down the drain and measuring crunches by the spots left on the spine and enough water to drown organs and eating an apple with a knife and fork and battered feet on & off the scale and desperate hands clutching ribs and standing up & the world goes dark and carrying an emergency rice cake in your purse for weak spells and enough green tea to drown organs and how many calories are in toothpaste and whatever nail polish color covers yellow and battered feet on & off the scale and is today the day my heart gives out and how many calories do you burn when you sneeze and pillows squeezed between thighs and waking up in a new body everyday and fingers clasped around wrists and notebooks filled with numbers and purple crescents below the eyes and accidentally knocking your elbow on your hip bone and being afraid of your own reflection and i’m not hungry or i already ate or i’ll eat later or i don’t feel well and oxygen that tastes like splenda and battered feet on & off the scale

Poetry about having a ED:

Some of this is so accurate for me!☹️